effaced

Mar 2016

Little Bear

It’s okay to say no. It’s okay to say no to someone you love. It’s okay to say no to a friend. It’s okay to say no to a parent or child. It’s okay to say no to a job or relationship.

It’s okay to say no to ****** advances. And it’s okay to say no to a person who’s romantically interested in you. Even if it hurts someone’s feelings, even if you disappoint people, even if you’re judged and ostracized — it’s okay to say no to anything and anyone that causes you pain or makes you uncomfortable. You’re allowed to put yourself first. You’re allowed to set limits and boundaries.

And you deserve to make your happiness and well being a priority. You don’t ever have to settle for something or someone that doesn’t feel right. And you definitely don’t have to compromise yourself for the sake of making other people happy. YOU HAVE TO TAKE CARE OF YOURSELF, AND IF THAT MEANS SAYING NO, IT'S MORE THAN OKAY.**

A quote by – Daniell Koepke

"No" is a complete sentence.
It does not require justification or explanation

(not my quote)

effaced Mar 2016

what greys anatomy taught me

"You didn't love her! You just didn't want to be alone. Or maybe, maybe she was good for your ego. Or, or maybe she made you feel better about your miserable life, but you didn't love her, because you don't destroy the person that you love!"

you never loved me.

effaced Mar 2016

Untitled

im stuck.
between hating you
and
hating myself for loving you.

im stuck.
between wanting to live
and
wanting to die.

im stuck.
between a family religion
and
my own identity.

im stuck.

someone,

please,

help me...

effaced Mar 2016

*******

your name is everywhere and i ******* hate it.
i hate you.
i hate what you've done to me.
you convinced me you loved me,
and then you left.
and i see you everywhere now,
and every time i think of you,
suicide comes into mind.
are you proud of what you've done?

effaced Feb 2016

Untitled

you dont understand that leaving is the right thing to do.
that i have to, in order to cause you minimal pain.
the pain that i would cause by staying and continuing to hurt you would build up to be more than the pain i will cause by leaving.

my last relationship i ****** up and honestly i dont even know how i did it. the one person who loved me truly and purely, i pushed away for you and then you left and im not so sure what to do anymore.

your sister wrote down something and shared it anonymously but i knew who it was... i knew. and it hurt me, and made me think that if i leave and i fail, my sister will be in your sisters place. so i need to leave and i need to do it fast, and soon.

you dont understand my reasons but i know that someone someday someone will read this and know exactly why.

my mother doesnt really love me, and i dont know what the **** my father is to me. my step mom is overbearing and wont leave me alone...

my granddaddy told me days ago that i was his reason for living. i wish he hadnt told me that.

i have lost a lot of my friends... im stupid and i dont know why i do or say things. one of my cousins hates me, and i pretend to hate them too.

i could have been friends with my ex but i ****** that up.

i have all of these valid reasons in doing this. and still im a ******* coward and wont leave.

im overthinking.

so ill write. to everyone, and once i am finished, ill leave.

ill tie up all the lose ends, maybe ill even do it up in a nice little bow.

Feb 2016

Kaeru

Jeffrey Dahmer

Hello, good sir.
How dee do?
It sure is nice to meet ya.
I think that I'll have *** with you
and then I'll prob'ly eat ya.

effaced Feb 2016

dont ******* start with me.

you cant ******* say that my act will be selfish.
you cant ******* say it.
i am doing this to make your lives better.
i am doing this to make sure i dont hurt you anymore.
if i do this one last thing that hurts you, and i succeed, it will be the last.
if i continue, ill continue to hurt you, and i would rather leave than hurt you for the rest of my life.
you cant ******* say that my act will be selfish.