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EdVance Jul 2013
Why did you bring me
If you didn't know
How to show love
How to nurture and grow

Why did you bring me
To do nothing right
To curse me with stupid
To prove yourself right

Why did you bring me
To feed on my tears
Don't you have feelings
don't you have fears

Why did you bring me
I've done nothing wrong
It isn't my fault
I'm not who you are

Why did you bring me
Then cast me away
You cursed me with mirrors
You gave me your FACE
EdVance Jul 2013
Alone appears
Familiar decent
Captivating
Long regret

Upon the night
The whisper calls
A beckoning
Invites the fall

Thoughts revealing
Long gone pain
The banishment
Began again

I watched the slip
Control the fall
Did nothing
To resist at all

I watched it grow
And take control
Upon a string
I dance alone

Awakened pride
As I look back
Too late now
Off the track

Its all ok
Its just one more
Stronger now
Bad luck before

I'm all I need
Just stay away
Your tongues of fire
Run run away

You don't know
How this feels
This inner pain
This broken wheel

Just get away
From deep inside
A little voice
Run run and hide

Thoughts controlled
The inner pain
The banishment
Completes the ring
EdVance Jul 2013
Deep within the darkest
Cobwebbed pathways in my mind
Behind the locked and rusted doorways
Are the answers I must find

The pathways reek of sorrow
Long lost lovers crying softly
Endless choices offered
Twisted mazes lie before

One path to eternity
Another to abyss
Clouded by uncertanty
Decisions turn and twist

Mind distraught then crystal clear
Reality or magic
Nowhere evolves everywhere
Time ticks into the madness

No completed songs are sung
Phrases incomplete
Lost my footing stumble down
On my knee's I weep
EdVance Jul 2013
Today I stopped
I looked around
A long deep breath
A sigh out loud

How long have I
Been in this place
And never noticed
Solemn grace

The air around
The trees alive
The clouds above
The endless sky

A morning dew
A ray of sun
A summer breeze
Alone with one
EdVance Jul 2013
These walls they taunt
With frilly linings
They try to hide
The truthfull meaning

The walls designed
To hide the screams
But clearly hear
Them in my dreams

The air around
Reeks of death
My pain
The only pleaseant scent

I fear i'm doomed
To roam these halls
To slowly fade
Into them all

This dark depression
Somehow sweet
I choose the fate
And then repeat
EdVance Jul 2013
My prayers today
Fell on deaf ears
Is God to tired
Or will not hear

So many prayers
That I have sent
With no response
With no repent

I ask Him why
My life’s this way
He sends his words
I don’t obey

Yet still I pray
And ask for more
But never try
The narrow door

He weeps for me
I feel the shame
Another day
Of constant pain

I curse at him
You owe me more
The tears rain down
I hit the floor

This man of clay
That I’ve become
Cannot be changed
By none not one

But still I pray
And ask of Him
He sits and waits
I don’t come in

The tears rain down
I brush them off
The clay gets hard
My life gets rough

I can’t go on
With life this way
I wonder why
I even pray


Still on I trudge
Day by day
It’s all my will
The only way


Until one day
I can’t go on
I hear the words
I look above


I scream to Him
I scream out loud
On bended knee
God help me now

I’m yours forever
This I say
My will to you
Release this pain

The tears rain down
And melt the clay
Within Gods hands
I rest and pray


He shapes my life
He guides my time
He teaches love
His will not mine

Today I weep
But not alone
No longer clay
But flesh and bone

My God with me
We weep as one
To save another
Fallen son
EdVance Jul 2013
Twas the
Ending of another day
Was it worth the time I spent
the pain the guilt .....
the long regret
was it worth the time I spent....

I prayed for love
I wished it gone
I hummed a tune
But hate the song

I feel the sun
But hate the light
Calling friends
Starting fights

outside alone
alone outside
only joy is
under cry

I dream upon
A rainy day
And curse it
As it goes away
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