I wish
So begins the words of a lazy and an uneventful being.
Lacking true actions and follow ups to the stars promised.

I wish
so says a being stuck in the past of the present.
With eyes shut and Ignorant of the gift of now.

I wish
so are the words belonging to an untrustworthy being.
Who says I failed because my wish came false.

I do not wish

Mornings were once sweet
Sweetened by her voice
A smile inducing voice
How dull today is

Her beauty took possession of my eyes
Made me shyly look at the floor at her presence
Her walk collapses my jaw

How cruel she is
She  robbed me off my voice
Rendering me speechless
How cruel she is
Refusing to use her profession to cure my speech
So that I may talk past hello.

It's better to face darkness
With eyes closed
Than to face light with eyes wide open
My hope shyly hides
Praying for the return of light
My fears peacefully rest
In the absence of light

I hear spiders crawling
A buzz of bees behind my ears
They don’t scare me
Not more than the flickering light I see
It draws me out of darkness
Raising resting hopes and dreams

The surrounding darkness is peaceful
The light shows friendly hurting faces
I find comfort in the ignorance of who hurt me
Torture in the sight of friend

Blame not the demon for tearing me down
But the angel for not offering a hand
The buried see and weep
The live do not and  rejoice

Forgive me if I stare
Your celestial body is alluring

The beauty of your eyes,
rob me of words to say
The warmth of your smile, paralyzes my hands so I can’t sign

Forgive me for yearning for you,
For having you is forbidden.
My eyes see you as Juliet to the Romeo I am,
Forgive me, for the sin we are yet commit.

Forgive my mind for losing restraint at the striking site of you,
I stare at your lips, and my mouth gets watery at the wonder of it’s taste.

Oh blessed river, forgive