I wish I could be selfish

I want this, I want that, but no go ahead. I'm fine without it so you can take it.

Sure I'll help you with this, but I want something in return

This has to be vague or it'll give it away I say.

I want more then this and that, I want you, and I feel like I need you, but I can't be selfish enough to try and get that, I just have to be subtle about it and always act like I didn't really want that.  It is okay. They can have it.

I normally get a decent amount of sleep, but lately that isn't the case.

I could say it is because my brother is loud when he plays his videogames late into the night, but I know how to tune him out

I could say it is because I'm hungry from not eating enough, but I ate enough at dinner.

The biggest problem keeping me awake, is also the quietest.

My thoughts may be silent to others, are booming to me, my doubts and my fears materialise before my eye.

Why haven't you gotten this?

When will you do this thing that drags at you?

The darkness is warmth, it is peace and quiet and I can rest away my troubles, but my mind's voice refuses to let me slip away into the night to rest

It is easy to make goals, easy to want change, however getting that change can be a task most daunting

I'd tell myself I want to work out more, but I don't have that kind of time when I need to get a job

I'd tell myself I need to get a job, but I'm worried it would affect my school too greatly

I'd tell myself I want good grades, but I'm worried I'm not smart or capable enough to do that

I'd tell myself I want a girlfriend, but I know that I don't know how I'll make that happen.

Years are not a new thing, after all they're an annual thing, but I don't have a new me every year that doesn't have the memories of before, and is innocent. I'm just the same me with the same goals that I'm scared I won't achieve for yet another year

If you asked me what addiction meant to me, My mind would first go to maybe some drug, or a junk food, people get addicted to those, but

I'm really just addicted to you

I'd say I can't explain how I really feel, but I've actually tried to do it several times.

Your smile is something I'd like to wake up to on a calm summer's day

However I know that it's just me that feels this way

Is there even a way to really find myself,

If I'm still trying to find you

The art of speaking another language then your own is quite the challenge, everyone grows up watching Dora the Explorer speak spanish to us, there were other shows for other languages,

But it never impacted many of us, at least not me. If I could, I'd learn as many languages as I could, to speak with others across the world, or across my yard with the recently immigrated neighbors.

I love Spanish because I just think it is a beautiful language, even with the insane amount of irregular verbs

He loves French because its part of his heritage, I'll tease him with my lack of it, but in reality I am just wanting to learn as well

She loves German because of how the words just seem to flow together, just how nice a single sentence could sound

We all have our reasons, but its not just a why we learn a language, it opens a whole new world of communication and media.

You wouldn't go out of your way to make a random person on the street happy

For a friend like them, you'd spend the entire year devoted to making them feel happier

Would you put off other important things in your life for a stranger's needs?

For her, you would in a heartbeat

Would you try and give your advice, even though you knew next to nothing on the topic?

For your best friend, you'd try your best and wish them well

Why do we devote all this to a friend?

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Because a friend would do it for you