I am not angry or bitter
Just a hint of sadness
Like your absolute favorite show just aired its last episode.
Or someone took away your favorite game before you beat that last level.
Or you didn’t get the job of your dreams, especially after a great few interviews where you felt you did great.
Or your childhood best friend is moving away.
not heartbroken, maybe heart-bruised?
Just a little harder to breath today
My heart is not beating as strong as it did yesterday, it feels a little irregular actually. Like it literally doesn’t know the rhythm to the beat now.
My voice is not as loud, and I feel a little less brave than I did last week.
My back hurts all of the sudden, but I have this urge to run for miles.
I feel Foggy, like walking away from a car accident. Or just like waking up from a very vivid dream, I just need to recalibrate my reality.
I am not mad or angry or bitter. And I definitely don’t hate you.
I harbor absolutely no ill will or bad emotions towards you.
In fact, I understand, all I can do is …understand. I chose to be understanding rather than hurt.
I just feel defeated, deflated, and disappointed. And so so so tired!
so I just need to lay down in the dark for a bit. Lick my wounds. Recalibrate my reality. And heal.
Then maybe I can be your friend again.
Until then, be well, be happy, be your awesome self!
I’ll walk away from this with nothing but great memories, I hope you do the same 💐
You don’t have to write me back