Words won't come easy
Don't wanna be cheesy
All of these cliche's
Searching for ones niche's

This is my safe haven
But also my struggling place
Expectations that I'm always chasin'
Always puts me in a daze

Careful with every move I make
All of this for everybody's sake
Afraid I might forsake
Always very careful on what I should take

To whom, should I move freely with
To whom, I can take a steady breath
To whom, I can be emotional with
To whom, I can feel truly safe

Blinding sunlight
Fascinatingly bright
Caught up in the moment
Feels like heavenly sent

Can everyone also see?
Or is it just me?
This picture perfect scenery
Of astounding beauty

I was drawn by their smiles

I unconsciously push everyone away
When I needed them to stay
Used to conceal everything I feel
Hidden behind a facade, it ain't real

It's my defense mechanism
Cause I know where it is leading
Stack myself with optimism
To survive and continue living

It's not easy to change this attitude
I don't want to appear as rude
But I'm doing everything that I could
Because I know that I should

It's funny how careful I am right now
Especially, with my social media accounts
Don't wanna offend, I'll just bow
Don't wanna be out of bounds

Please, tell me
Are you both proud?
I still kept my promise
Even if you're both not around

I strayed before
Fought my silent battles
But again, I found my cure
Freed myself from my own shackles

I wish, I can see you again
Beggin', just once please?
Thank you and sorry for everythin'
I hope you're both happy and at peace

Been spontaneous lately
Just wanna do everything lightly
Keeping a slow pace everyday
Vocalizing everything I want to say

Hey, take your time with healing
Hear the angels sing
Meditate quietly, it's calming
Drink tea, it's soothing

Honestly, I'm just mumbling
Looking for peace, I'm searching
I can find it, I'm hoping
With a hopeful heart, I'm praying