deep inside myself I sink
bad things happen when i think
deep inside myself I crawl
I'm sorry for it all

my body is strong
but my soul is weak
  
so i don't

to escape my demons i escape myself
avoidance is how i cope
ingrained inside
"everything is alright"
behind the laugh
there is a cry refusing to be exposed
I'm coping
I'm coping the only way I know how
to avoid it because I know I am weak and will break

I am scared
and I am sad
but I laugh so i wont cry
smile so i wont die

what an odd, beautiful nothing
to find a person

who makes you feel like the most significant something

wrong wrong wrong
everything i do

i keep singing this happy song
but still feel blue

every spec of dust and every tick of time
each star, constellation and every moon
sunflowers in golden hour
smiles and bursts of teary laughter
big long hugs and deep kisses
expressing artistic versions of ourselves
discovering profound skill and knowledge within us
loud uplifting music bringing people together
celebrations of joy and peaceful living


this is the closest thing to love He can show us from above

her smile
those eyes
that face

the decor is pretty
and though it may fade

those eyes will infinitely shine from her hazel-green golden soul

put your lips somewhere
that makes you never want to
stop
breathing

pen and paper,
paper and pen,
I put this pen to paper
hoping for the demons in my head to waver

economy
prosperity
monotony
spontaneity

destruction by decision