There is a war deep inside
I cannot hide
This war has begun
They will not stop til it has been won
There is a bullet in the loaded barrel of a gun
Held against my head
I cannot catch my breath
My anxiety through the roof
Until I find
That the hand holding the gun is mine

Winter is a wonderland
Snow coats the Earth
A blanket of soft white pillowy cold
That easily turns to slush

A warm ray of sunshine on a lazy day
Wrapped around me like wings
Caressing me gently
                      softly
                      kindly
­Keeping me company in my madness
Keeping me safe in my bad times

How I like you,
Though I shall never tell you

You read my poetry
But you don't see through to me
See how I feel
See me

There's no fire in your eyes
            no spark in your soul
            no life in your touch
You're a shell of a girl
Being put in a whirl
                     a wind
                     a tornado
That never stops, always goes

I'm screaming into the void
Tears flow down my face
My eyes emotionless, devoid of hope
Full of anger, rage, hate fueled pain
But my emotions don't feel like mine.

You were a dream
That was never meant to come true
And yet you did

You were a goddess in my eyes
Forbidden from Earth
And yet here you are

Causing me pain
Heartbreak
Watching the rain fall
With every drop I become weak