It's hard to remember a time,
When it was not just you and me
A time where instead,
It was us, them, and we.
A pair we once were,
attached at the hip,
Until I ******* up,
Let you slip through my grip.
Your words were all lies,
But that doesn't make way,
To the fear in your eyes.
The fear that I caused,
Because of your lies,
This round about confusion,
I don't know why.
Why do I feel so bad?
I stood up for myself.
Yet somehow I feel,
Like I'm going to hell.
You deserved to be put in your place,
I keep telling myself,
But did you really?
I can't really tell.
I got it off my chest,
But at what price?
I've caused more pain,
Than all of your lies.
An eye for an eye,
And now we're both blind.
An eye for an eye,
And now pain floods my mind.
There once was a time,
Of us, them, and we,
But after all this,
Theres just you,
and theres just me.

Im five years old,
Pale blue pajamas running through the house,
Looking for mommy.
Shes outside, barred behind glass doors,
A cloud of smoke trailing off the lit end of her cigarette.
Obscuring eyes.
She doesn't even notice the little ******* the other side...

Im 17 now, and still going *un noticed

I was still in love with you on your bad days

When you wanted to be nowhere, nothing,

When you disappeared under the covers and

I felt them shake with sobs and the first thing you said

When you felt my hand trailing up your spine

Was, “I’m sorry, love. Did I wake you up?”

Sometimes, with puffy, red eyes, you’d tell me

To leave you. You’d tell me that loving you was

A waste of my time and that I deserved more

Than you could ever be, but when you fell against

The front door, kicking and screaming at me

For giving you a reason to stay that you didn’t want,

I was there. Even when I was the only string

On your finger, the only thing keeping you from

Floating away, I loved you.

At night, when the sound of rain falling on the windowsill

Kept me awake, you’d tell me what your world was like.

Sometimes it would scare me, just like it did you,

But I told you that you could stay in mine awhile.

Sometimes you would stop talking mid-sentence

And I would ask you what was wrong.

When you said nothing at all, I knew you hadn’t

Said, “nothing at all.” I knew there was a difference.

You said you didn’t understand me, why I would

Stay with you when you were like this, and I said,

"I’m in love with you," eleven times over

Until I thought, for about an hour,

You believed me.

Just another girl
Just another broken hearted girl
Who thought that you could give her the world
Was just another game to you
Just another broken tune
Do you see the body lying there
The body of a girl and you don't care
Just another body lying bare
Just another tragic love affair
It's just another girl to you
Just yet another broken tune
An unfinished melody
A screeching symphony
That you call history
A lost virginity
"It was their choice to play the game"
"And someone always has to lose"
You say.

An empty room,
An empty girl.
Sitting silently
On the floor.
Her pants rolled up,
Exposing skin.
She drags the blade,
And presses in.
The pain it brings,
Can not compare.
To the joy she knows,
Will soon be there.
It's worth the scars,
That never heal.
For just one moment,
Not to feel.