Here I am checking up on you again Here I am going through your followers Here I am looking at our mutual friends checking if you liked a picture or not Here I am still getting so weak as I speak of you My voice is trembling my hands are shaking Wondering how much I’d fall apart if we spoke once more Here I am still missing you Here I am still so in love with you Sitting here still so ****** up over you Here I am blaming myself again Trying to apologize for loving you too much For being human For making expected mistakes after being broken by you Here I am wondering if you miss me too Wondering if you think about me Here I am thinking certain songs you post and the matching shirt you wear has something to do with you thinking about me Here I am still thinking that you may be just as in love with me as I am with you still Here I am still in denial Here I am wasting my time and thoughts on you Reliving my memories with you Here I am wishing it was just us once again Here I go getting all sad Over someone who never really deserved me But I love you anyway
You hurt me I hurt you I loved you Beyond words Beyond imagination Beyond explanation I left you And if you ask me why I won’t have an answer I didn’t want to keep hurting And you kept on hurting me I didn’t want to hurt one another And we kept on doing so Love wasn’t enough That’s whAt you told me once I understood that when I left
**** I miss the old me Sitting here listening to the songs that remind me of everything before It seems so hard to go back to who I once was A happy person Who use to do her nails Get her hair done Get all dolled up No matter if staying inside or going out You used to love my feet and my hands You said they were **** So i always made sure they were done nice and pretty You loved it when I made an effort So I made sure I always looked good You made me feel beautiful You made me feel amazing You used to brag about me It use to make me blush Things went bad and you made me feel ugly You made me feel fat and disgusting So I gained weight I stoped trying I no longer do my nails or get dolled up Sweat pants and T-shirts’ is all I wear I don’t really care anymore But now I miss the old me I miss the me I always was and let you take away I miss the me you’ve changed with all the hurt and pain I just miss the old me
Never have I loved someone so much Never enough to see them in my dreams every night Never enough to ache all over We gave up I don’t know why anymore Maybe it was too broken to fix Maybe we didn’t care to try anymore Maybe we just knew nothing would change He hurt me Destroyed me Broke me He left me the way he found me And nothing would ever fix that hurt caused So why did we bother I’m still losing my mind over him While he lives on like I don’t exist So many regrets So many wishes and dreams We broke eachother in the end But he’ll always be my other half There was a bond and no matter the damage, the mean and hurtful things said he’ll always be in my heart I’ll always wonder and I’ll always have an unsent text written out. I love you Forever and always And I am always looking at the moon Talking to you Hoping you’ll hear me And talk back too.
You were the sun that brightened my day The stars that lit up the dark night The lyrics to my favorite love songs The dreams I never want to wake up from You were the joy to my tears Perfect couldn’t have existed until I met you You were the glow to my soul The beat to my heart You were my right hand Your love was only 6 hours in distance But seemed like it was a second away Your arms were my castle Safe and warm Tender and caring Heaven was with you And I’d go through hell and back just to get to you
You are a, Thunder roaring, Lightening bursting, Fire burning, Heart exploding, Dream crushing, Sadistic loving, Narcissistic caring, soul deriving, Person