Whatever we do in our lives gets an evaluation.
From who i wonder.
From the people around us, friends, family,
ourselves, by none...?
Even if nobody makes an evaluation of us, coincidences and the
development of things we do create implications.
Implications that reveal the true form of ourselves and the
evaluation will be done even if we try to hide.
I am what i am, honest, respectable, reliable. I won't pretend anyone, for no one and anything.
I'd rather those i love most hate me and be truly ok rather than love me
and pretend they are ok.

I was driven by anger, desire, just aimed for what
i wanted not what i needed. That wasn't me, i couldn't
think and act by myself. Something dragged me down
to this flooding stream, no more.
Love for family, friends, the world, something to preserve.
A fight which gave me hope even if it takes time, lot of
time...

I wish i hadn't heard nor witnessed such stories,
so painful in so many ways.
Few are mine and other by people so wounded
from betrayal  and lies yet their hope is not lost.
With sadness in their voice and fear in their eyes
they stand.
With gracious heart they believe it's another chapter
to a never ending story and so did i.
Surely a happy ending depends where you stop
telling a story and that might be something to give
hope but also might bring destruction.
Reality does not compromise with reckless dreams
nor to petty excuses, i know that now.

Care only for a single thing, those you love. Do anything and everything to save them. When there is no chance of winning keep
fighting, when all hope is lost find another way, when you fall
stand up again.
If you are searching for redemption find another way to fight. You
are nothing less than a human soul in search of light and if everything
around you goes dark, light a candle and shed the light to whatever
you can.
World is an evil vicious place and does not care how tough you are.
Make a stand.

Sinking in my thoughts
an every nights routine
staring at a white wall
making images and stories of my own,
but most start with "If i had".
Questioning and answering myself
Provoking mind and heart
for choices of my past.
Provoking soul and spirit
for choices soon may be done.
A glass of water for my mouth goes dry
looking from the window
a city sleeps.
No stars to shine in the dark
winter's sky.
Silence, loneliness only a wind's echo
can be heard.
I feel a tightening in my chest
a pinch like pain to my heart.
Sinking back to my thoughts
wondering what could i've done better
till the sun rises just to put
an end to this recursion.

Waiting between worlds.
One journey ends another begins,
an endless cycle of peace and war.
Serenity against chaos
angels fighting demons
light and darkness bound together,
both blessed or cursed to never end?
Every soul in search for that point
in between.
The point that everything is clear
and balance starts to set the world in motion.
Honesty, loyalty, courage, love.
All giving their essence creating something.
Something better than before.

There is no harder word than that of ''goodbye''.
From the goodbye you say when you stay alone and
fight a game for two, up to the the one you are
forced to say everyday.
It's not the word that hurts the most but the things
you missed, the things you did not tell or live.
The worst thing about saying goodbye is to miss
those you fought and loved more than anyone.

Trust is a powerful thing, you have no idea what it may bring.
It can sting your heart and tear your soul apart, or it can warm
your spirit and give you hope. Honesty, clarity, directness.
A yes is very clear and don't mind the no's. Things in between confuse and cause us pain. Life's simple, you make choices and you don't look back.

There is one of those rare breeds of people, who are undeniably self sacrificing and generous, it's difficult to thank them enough for all they have done. I’m not sure how someone can ever repay them but i’ll start by saying thank you.

I was always the man for someone to rest upon
but now i am the one who needs help.
Steady voice and a grip to pull me of the ground
for ever since i lost her i am half of what i came with.
I carry a burden and not my heart,
i need a rescue to remember myself.
I've been traveling so long reaching no distant ground.
If this is a new beginning why do i feel so empty,
why am i not breathing?
Running in circles trying to fight this feeling,
knowing other people need me i can't give in.
I walked and draw my line, season's storm seems
unknown, i don't mind the flames just walking
through the smoke to the voice that calls my name.

When all is left is you and me
we were invincible in a red sea.
Now we are apart
how could i fly with no wings,
how could i live with no dreams,
when there's no place to call our own.
I need a big reduction in amount of tears,
i feel that i should be heard loud out clear.
You never really died in my heart...

Our life moves in circles,
always in the same blood vein,
every ending, every goal it's a new beginning.
Like a cloud i change, in time colour and shape
together entangle and i suspire in lifes thread...

Each one of us alone marches on, in love, in glory,
in death.
I know, i've tried...
It does not help, let me come with you...

You can't put it into words, the moment when you look into the
eyes of the one who is supposed to reassure you, make you feel
safe. It only takes an instant, fear will lose before you have a
chance to make sense of it and darkness becomes a part of who
you are...

A pale moon and two eyes in tears, a relaxing tone
reminding you.
The time has come, the time is right to say it out loud
i love you keeping my heart.
Goodnight moon even better goodbye. I am tired of the tricks
you used against me. I'd rather sleep at night without your light.
Like a lone wolf searching for a home instead of wandering
in your cunning shadows.
Never look back again to your silver rivers.
Goodbye...

I'd rather shoot and miss in a city of tears
where stars grow cold beating like my
heart.
A dark undercurrent of woe which seems
to draw but it will not be so.
The heat of a thousand suns won't reignite my
heart, only one will do so.
Only one shall embrace my soul.
All the stars will beat again in warmth,
all the stars will beat blessed like this one sun.

I'd like to travel around the world with a ship.
My ideal morning, lot of light
a beautiful song and the first sip of coffee.
A word that would summarize the meaning of
life "the people".
Things that i miss a lot such the sea, the city's small port,
the whiff of that city.
I am afraid to forget those especially her.

Dreams we've made, things we did to crack
the daily routine and melancholy, slowly fade away.
I believed that things would turn out differently but
all that remains are illusions...
My mind surrounded by iron bars slowly transforming into
a golden cage of a weird fantasy.
It feels safe but I sence the danger of living trapped.
Shadows and illusions whispering, consuming.
But if there is darkness there is light too.
I choose light.
We are the choices and the priorities we make
and character forms out of how we deal with tragedy.
Pick a side…

Stranger's kindness, an urban myth. Most people don't notice
you even exist. You might be living the greatest drama of your life and they will pretend they didn't see.
No time for genteel kindness. They are not in the mood or they've been hurt so much and won't give something without exchange.
But like urban myths so does genteel kindness hide within a significant truth.
It's a kind under extinction but at the same time the easiest to produce.
How many can be within us?
Whose hopes and dreams do we incompass?
Could we see the eyes of our own, the minds in our mind,
understand how much we share?
Force, answers with force
war breeds war
and death brings death.
To break this vicious circle one must do more,
has to make another step, remember that even in dark times we can not relinquish the things that make us human.

Have the heart of a lion
the courage of a wolf
the spirit of an angel.
What she advised me,
what i keep well guarded.

We are all angels with one wing
and we can fly only if we meet
the one with the suitable wing.
Hold together and accept each
other's heart.

Believe it or not i fell in love with you
the moment we first kissed.
From that moment on i can't sleep
at nights and when i manage to
i see you in my dreams.

I sat next to her, strength and passion which used to keep me with her still were there. My legs trembling and i felt plunging into the abyss,
vertigo...
We knew it had to end but we were there embraced, our souls were embraced.
I tousled gently her face and hair. It was like standing on earth but also flying at low height. I could see how beautiful earth was from up sky high.
Earth, people, trees, mountains, homes, my most beloved. Nostalgia for the moment i first met her. The newfound feelings borned inside me and the harmony flooding me when i look at her face.
Goodbye...

One more day passes and i think of you.
A day at work and my mind forgets awhile.
A day at home and music moves me through
the motions, but a second it's all it takes
hear your voice and soften my inside.
A second to remember you telling me that you sing only
for me.
I am not afraid to accept the state of things
what appear to be but i dare see what all could be.
Maybe i am fool to believe in such a thought,
but i do...

Here i am again, at the same point.
Quit everything, faith to mankind
cause most are weak in spirit, they lie,
destroy and disappoint.
But when i reach the edge of my limits,
i remember that they also give, sing and
dance and they do not give up.
So glad do be one of them...

Time passes, matures
hurts and heals.
Time brings memories
and the orchestra
continues to play.

Time passes and asks
nobody.
Time repeats, teaches,
adapts and overcomes.

Times that binds us,
drives us, guide us.

Time brings happiness,
sadness, joy and pain.
All a matter of choice.

Only we can protect ourselves from persistences and understand if the
the road we walk comes with a high price.
We believe that we can absolve, become saviors, even avenge if it's
needed. We make war to our enemies and they to us with or without
the privilege of choosing. We dream of doing something good and leave our mark to this world for our loved ones.
Even if we sacrifice ourselves in battles which won't be archived everything starts and ends with ourselves. Lonely as it is do not fall,
for loneliness is one of the worse...
You know that you are alone when there is none
you can call yours.
You know that you are alone when there is none feeling your absence.
You know that you are alone...

The world is not fair but moral standarts apply to all. The ruler
isn't always a superior person and the ruled isn't always inferior.
The world doesn't belong to the powerful but to those of pure
heart. All that we do is not for today but for tomorrow.
Hard times to live for sure in this era, so much darkness.
There are moments that i doubt some people are capable of
redemption, yet each time i attepmt to surrender in that thought i see it.
The glimmer of goodness that allows me to believe, that the people
i care will have things i never had the privilege to bask fully.
A warm home, someone to show you that they love you
every single day and someone to fight for you no matter what...
In other words a family.

So much for the blame and criticism
but when it comes for a solution all
go silent like the middle of the night.
All go silent when the rain stops but
none cares to mend or heal, to cure
or help only vengeance and excuses.

I am lost alone, i've stood in the very edge,
i've looked into the abyss and if i'd taken
one more step i would have fallen.
No matter how far i go she is
always there, like a devious dance between
me and her, we won't go down.
Nothing else to settle all clear like a beautiful
light, the light of her eyes.
Green eyes that always looked my own
speaking of something that is lost
like dream i can not remember.

When you have the knowledge and power to change
something to prevent a stressful situation and you do not,
anything that comes out of it happens cause of you.
But then again even if you act, change, save, prevent,
it comes up with high cost.
My heart still questions the right choice...

Hopes, prayers and dreams. We carry so many aspirations
on our backs. How can we meet all those expectations
when we struggle with our own worries and doubts.
Nevertheless we must move forward, step by single step, in order
to leave something behind, for those we care and love.
Once somebody said to me. No matter how bad it all may seem you will change, things will change and you will stand enduring.
Can I?  You can!
Will I?  You will!
Now i exist to assist, to guide, to stop the fist and expel the fight.
Yet my nature i hide, as to not be used.
I have good intent but don't test my strain
for i avenge deep in soul.

Most of us do not have the strength to fight back
even for something or someone with infinite value.
So some of us have to make it possible for someone
we care and love, impossible to stop the fight,
to gain motive wave after wave.
We have to keep them from giving up.

I wish i was better
i wish the world was better
i wish my heart was stronger
i wish i was with her
i wish i could go further
i wish i could hear her song louder
i wish for a hug and feel warmer
i wish i could see the wind dancing.
I wish...
I...