Don't stop writing, just give it time!
Don't force it out!
Inspirtion could manifest into beautiful creations
to revolting thoughts commencing a cloud of wrangle
and contradiction.
Nevertheless good writings are not nice words
but heartfelt words.
Write whenever you want
write whatever you want
write whenever you feel it's needed to
expressing is all that matters.

Risking life and limb in a merciless sea,
our poisons are our pleasures after all.
Dedicated my life to this fight, protecting, loving,
living by ethics that for some are so hard to cultivate,
being true and selflessly giving,
making a stand for those i love.
I let down just a bit and i get blamed from
people that never even tried to be better.
I wonder what do they crave the most?

My eyes are opened now
struggles get better
living through was just a luxury
i'll push it till i am broken.

There is nothing left
no fear
no hate
no journey
nothing.
I learned the hard way
of disappointment
but life without loss is one
without love.

You knew as much as any of us could
but anybody else. Collect more than you
deserve, you collect shame, a good
amount of shame...

Giving a chance
testing my luck
defying my dream's will
feeling like sculpting.
I think i am going to put
you in trouble for that
cup of coffee
my memories like
offerings to an altar
of old scars.
Forgive me
excuse me
for such a long talk but
i think the trembling in
my heart has stopped.
The tone in your voice was sad
our minds were gone in feelings
we could not name.

What happened to this place and its people?
Such uncertainty
such misbelief
such "crisis".
Years back people in this country
were strong, dignified, brave
and days were filled with purpose.
When i look back at that i can truly say
life was a thing of beauty.
Once the people in this country
were worthy of the stars in the sky
and now we leave abroad with
whatever hope is left within our heart.

Blood boils and a thirst for revenge is overflowing.
No i need to make this right.
I need to make right the faults that opposed me.
I need to make this right for my heart has grown with pain.
At this pile of ashes a great fire used to burn
the fire that used to warm us both.

There are tears of joy
and laughing with sore
and logic that man
in madness is carried
swiftly.
May you never see your
life in longing
all i wish is true
may you flourish
and in silver shores
find happiness once again.

Wake up!
Not from a dreamless sleep or the absence of light
but from a reality that will soon cease to exist.
Wake up!
Fill the blanks between words between worlds.
Wake up!
For greatness sometimes originates from the
confined of impossibility.
Wake up!
For destiny is not without irony.

Let nothing grieve you beyond measure
life is short and time will claim its toll.
It's like moving forward but
remaining to a tempest of blood poetry.
Such an irony to feel free yet again
not satisfied completely.
Darkness is not meant to last
forever neither light.
The soul is the only immortal
essence in this world
the quintessence and glory of it all.

Right from the bottom
straight right to the top
with a promising manner and an exclusive trend
oh really?
how could it last?
All it takes is a relevant ******
and all were gone
as they
were never even born.
Odious and obsessed
why did these people try to forget
that they are the ones who need the world
and this verse could not play in reverse.

Fate chose for them to witness war, strife, pogrom.
Sailed beyond the known with titles given,
heroes, explorers, outcasts, refugees.
Their greatest tribulation up ahead,
road to salvation little known,
across a dark heart broken realm.
Tragically falling like the arrows
resolve of spirit rising like the mountains,
entering depths from which more cower
beacons of light few still remain,
prepared to sacrifice all that is known,
to prove that which most afraid, truth...

You raised the stone on your own.
You have looked what slithers beneath
and beneath that earth, beneath that stone
the next world teems and grows unchecked.
You were gifted with admirable talent
beyond this world
beyond
below
behind
before.
Your knowledge considerable but with the sin
of wrong thinking.
At a moment of purity and ease you started
listening wispers of a dream
that you are dust of an echo in fading mist.

We know war it's with us since
the beginning of time
coming and going with the tide.
Rebelion rose in our hearts
but fires burned cities and souls
to ashes all gone just like that
with a snap of a finger
cause we allowed it so and
we built up walls like it would
stop anything.
There was a time so long ago
before the angels fell
before the rivers turned black
before the songs of the woodland
fey folk were gone and greed did not
blind our hearts.
Why do we let those false gods
seek the monsters that we fear the most
and chase the nightmares that haunt
our silent dreams?

We go where they want us to go
we stand where they want us to stand
and we think they already got the best
of us and they ain't getting no more.
Vengeance their strength.
How much is real?
So much to question.
They make fire and thunder
and so they leap from our hearts
and flow like a current that slides
through the echoes of our thoughts
and evanescent in our spark
of compassion.

Soul sickened, heart wounded
spirit inflamed by all efforts to heal.
A thousand terrors i intend to cure,
day by day, thought by thought,
emotion by emotion.
A couple of days back i was foolish enough
to believe that motive alone could end
my suffering, our suffering...
I wish the conditions were different
and I never had to let you go.
Time though was never appropriate for us
and we might got separated when we needed
each other the most.
I know that my easiest days are behind me but
i don't want them back.
Move forward that is what i do
and i wish the same to you.
My love stop crying.

Peace under an illusion
heart filled with substitution.
Ι don't recall what I've dreamed
Ι don't regret who i loved
for I wouldn't be a man of my word.
She knew my name
but not the story of my pain.
I am so tired of
her so cold absolution.
In withered path i tread
to see the light again.
She smiled to me but
could not cover the tears of her sudden fain.
What could i say?
Same mistake
a choice of my bending soul.
I know it's wrong but right is
out of sight.
You are a blessing in disguise
and i am bound  
in a turmoil of
shattered feelings.

In this endless journey of yours seeking  for  redemption,
what do you see? Look inside you what do you reach?
Are your actions guided by fear? Strengthen by vengeance?
Your walls around you hardened like steel,  
blinded by haste in a desperate struggle,
struggle of counteraction but not for change.
More or less the same. Questioning yourself, why again?
What else could it be but a will of shimmering light.
Look deeper what do you see?
A choice must be made to whatever you reach
There is no withdraw in this tango of life
for the rhythm is precise without a drop.

I am bearing my soul but you are bearing my heart.
The pain is great and i am begging for relief.
In angels and demons i don't believe yet
i am praying for your soul
i am praying for your heart.
In godless worlds your angel i shall be
in streaming shadows your guardian i shall be
my wings softly cover you and
in malicious acts my caress your relief.

Overthrown but still a king
i breath the name
and taste the blame.
Everything they've said slipped
like sand between my armor scraps.
Everything they've done could remind
me the flavor of greed.
I could feel the rain again like
an ivoluntary addiction
i drew a line in the horizon.
I could only say your name to call
the reasons why i held the fight
deep within me.
Here is my cape and my sword
to keep you safe my lonely queen.

So tired of this...
Are we so immature with such mistimed attitude?
Poeple knowing they choose the wrong person to be with,
complain with such query " Why he/she cheated?"
People being so selfish caring only for themselves,
complain with query " Why am i alone?"
People protest for multi genderism, for being vegans
or to whatever the modern society applies with
and all they do is ask with query
"Why there is poverty and unemployment?"
"Why there is war and discord?"
Well i ask why can't we see the truth?
Why can't we see through all those blinding mirrors?
Why we believe to whatever narcissistic crap appears
in front of us?

For what is worth i believe  
that death is not the end
loss of conviction could be.
It's hard to discern someone's
conviction just by the look of
a masquerade face, sometimes
we can tell by fighting that person
and i have no words to say
to a swindler who dares speak of
grace in his twilight of moral decline.

Words fade as if they were false
***** out in an instant.
In time only a memory takes hold
that of a great pain.
Tethered to the killing wheel
i sail to the fires of this world
and keep moving on like an adiction
takes me from the inside.
Another day my ship is wrecked
another life feels like i am flying
another sunset i start to hear them now
like wispers of broken prayers.

The pain was at ease and for a time i had
stillness within, but it was not to be for long.
As shady thoughts linger in my head again
my heart reaches the apogee of loneliness,
my chest stretches.
I can not forget nore i can allow such thoughts
to overwhelm me, so i locked them up.
I hid them even from those i love most,
for they deserve only joy and happiness
not the grouchiness of a troubled soul.

My ship is sunken
mast, wheel, sail
cracked, crushed, fallen.
Not now there is no time
forget your half measures
swim, breath, reach.
It's been so long
we've been through hell
and high water
you and me
but who do we want to be?
Sun up, sun down
time passes
but your memory can not
fade in the grey
it just comes and goes like
the tide in the moonlight's grace.

My loneliness i loved
not because i liked it
but there i found none
that could hurt me.
My love is like a ship
when the tempest begins
the only refuge can be
found is the port that
answers in her name.
My eyes harsh like
a wooden bark
but my heart like a rasp
with patience and time
makes this soul
slick and soft
ready to fall again
in her ardent kiss.

Obsessed with your skepticism
obsessed with your lineage
obsessed with your bitterness.
Why limit your capabilities and
fear what you do not understand?
Always trying to maintain appearance
in public so afraid what would others
think of you.
Returning back to this abandoned place
felt like resting.
Tranquil wind could be heard like a silent
mourn to an abandoned castle.
Trees, roots and soil cover what was great
once before.
I pray for you, i hope for the change in your heart.

I carry your melodies
that fill the air
and shove the waves ashore.
I carry a heart in rusty chains
burning for redemption.
I inhale
I exhale
I let you light my waning soul
and cast away the longing
i tried to bury long ago.
Your face starts to fade in my thoughts
and fear blooms within me.
I could not ask for more
just a memory of you singing happily
just the look of your sparkly green eyes.

Tired of running need to catch my breath.
Tired of shouting over and over again,
lifting burdens of syncopating curses,
no caress to be found and i move in circles.
So much noise so much fuss and all this
yelling just for a complain.
Problems like a drop lost in dirt while
there's an ocean covering the earth.
I need to stop, i need to change.
A halcyon voice from deep sea's tide,
a wooden skiff ready to sail through
the night's blackness.
Deep brown eyes whiten by moon's
reflection. Farewell...

My grief is broken
your soul burned
but not forgotten
their lies could not burn your truth
their acts could not drown your spirit.
You always had the courage to thank
only those who deserved it
even if your time burned away.
One burning heart the light you
cast on their shadows and reveal
their loneliness and rust
Now i see they're alone
with such their heart is rotten.
I thank you...

The origins of life, an absolute mystery.
Where and why?
All set and carved with ambition.
We could be messengers, preservers
but we are connected to conflict and destruction.
It is so enchanting to act like gods,
a staggeringly ambitious vision.
So many things could be so wrong,
so many unknowns.
What was it all for?
Knowledge?
Power?
Or just to show what was possible?
Ambtion, stubborness
nothing changed.

Distance is a very confusing point. Some people are close to us but at
the same time worlds so far.
Others are kept and carried to our hearts even if they are
far away no matter what.

Since the beginning of time we are separated by distance, literally and
metaphorically speaking. But we come together with long lines.
Telephone, rails, coastal, dreams, emotions...

We can always transcend such distances with a touch, a kiss, a story.
The course is not always pleasant but worths the tears, the pain,
even the suffering...

There's a new voice singing
you can hear it if you try
i don't regret a single choice.
Thoughts mixed in clouds
of smoldering air
a couple of burning eyes i can't control
a heart heir to another's wrongs
a whisper of doom
a silver moon sings, does it mean my end?
I walk on scorched earth
like a shadow made from ash
in a dark black night.
I approach  crystal clear waters
to quench my thirst
i approach deep blue shores to sail far away
this time not alone.
Proceed and reignite
i promise i will not forget.

Your eyes deceived you once
your dedication even averted
you from getting a glance
you felt the need to confess
but to these gods you can not pray.
Follow the sun
follow the moon
follow the stars
maybe you should have followed your heart
and if you need so desperately the taste of divine
don't put your faith in gods nor demons for there are none
but believe in angels, the angels our human spirit could be.

That which heart defines
don't let go.
That which heart dictates
try to let go.
It's unfair and sore
to hold what's repressed.
It's insane and bold to burden the chest
which holds my heart's abyss.
I could never ask more from a soul
which always asked forgiveness.

It feels strange and i question myself.
If you've taken my heart how am i still alive?
My life became an endless darkness
between the living you buried my body.
I'll make a suit of perfect dreams,
two heavenly spirits hold eternally.
They've pushed us too much we finally broke
they've made us fall but we'll make them crawl.

I was trying to find myself again
i could fly and cover height
instead i kept climbing,
a steep ***** the sufferings of my heart.
I could finally be free but heaven cast me out
and i find my way in ruins.
With writing and music i try to conquer each day
and my soul has no courage to admit that is over.
I can hear your voice in this empty room
a whisper of broken sounds, your love all around.

Promises broken into a nightmare where all dreams
come true, into a strange realm i seached for control.
Smother my furies and banishe my fears.
Nightmares that form out of darkness
nightmares that travel stormy black seas
nighmares that reach misty shores
where my thoughts live.
I am home but it doesn't feel that way,
the sea has taken my soul and waves break me down.
Through my darkness i find myself to you,
in my chest still beats a heart.
I fight for my love, i fight for my dreams,
now there is a way to win.

Wounds are bleeding, i fight to live
and i am afraid to love again.
You became the wind that fills my lungs
I might die if you stop loving me
I might stop dreaming if i forget you
My fate was written with a ruptured pen
lot of ink was poured and meaning
was nowhere to be found.
I dream when i am awake
an effort to conquer the day
and mollify the lonely night.

Another morning just the usual, music and a cup of coffee.
It was cloudy, a couple arguing outside perhaps too much...
My own break up scene came up my mind, but there was no
yelling, no confusion, no hate.
I had to. For her own good, just so she can move on. Get
married have a family perhaps. The difference between our
age was no problem she said. But then again the things she would
miss, no i could not do that to her. I could not be that selfish even if
my heart breaks in two.
Goodbye my love, goodbye my queen...

Fear is not evil my love, it just tells you what your weakness is,
it makes you stronger, it lets you overcome the obstacles ahead.
You should not fear the shadows they simply mean there is light
somewhere nearby.
Don't fall to people who criticize and are so eager to remind you
your sorrow for they're full of envy and grudge.
You'll always be my little bud
you'll always be my lioness
you'll always be my queen
you'll always be the one who i'm caressing until you
fall asleep in my arms.

If a man surrenders to his fears he is no longer fit
for the battle up ahead, called life.
He is no longer fit to protect or tend to his loved ones,
all those he ever called family.
Those who felt such fear may abandon responsibility
and mumble from a comfort zone. I can not do that,
i simply can not let down all those i call friends, family
for they are my last hope in this disingenuous world.
Fear to try, fear to be honest, fear out of insecurity, such
fear i dare say almost all mankind bears as sin.
Should hope cease to exist it shouldn't be because we were
consumed by fear but because we made our stand and we
were our own ends. We should not yield within hollow walls.
I am sorry if i ever was weak, felt like i would crumble
within my sorrow. Now i feel free of that burden and i wish
all people could feel such freedom.
Some can not believe that there is even a possibility of getting
better and cause even more damage.
"To hell with that!"
It doesn't matter if you fail just try and show courage in how
cruel the world could be.
Fight to live.
Fight in ways fears tremble.
Fight...

Rain falls because the clouds
can no longer handle the weight.
Tears fall because the heart
can no longer handle the pain.
Even the nicest people have
their limits.
No matter how strong they are
they too need someone to protect them.
No matter how happy they are
they too need someone to make them smile.
They who have been there for everyone
need someone to be there for them cause
their silence might be the most powerful scream.