You are you, and i am me!
You probably don't know, that i don't like walks in a park, but i do it for you.
The difference is...
You feed your ego with me.
But i love you whole.
You lie, even when i know it's the truth.
And i just smile at noon, but soak my pillows in eye liquids at nights.
You use me to satisfy your loneliness.
And other people too.
But i really have no one, so i cling up to a hope, that you might look at me, without the thought of me as a "pawn"
I keep trying to make us work
But you keep going to work on me.
The difference between us is.
I've mastered pain.
And you're a lost puppy.
The opposite of love is not hate.
It's to be taken for granted!

It's like a sumo wrestler, wearing lingerie.
Or a ship captain with a bicycle...
A love, for hatred.
Eating valentine's day chocolate, for easter.
Or giving a bible to an imam.
Your love was a constant reminder, that "smile, was indeed painful"
I'm glad you walked into my life.
You made me realize that love and i...
Are in a distant relationship, except!
We don't talk.
You're everything bad to my good.
And like serving cotton candy in a restaurant.
You and i!
We're things that don't fit.
Like a tear-in-a-cup-full.

If the sun was an original light source.
And the mood reflected it.
Then our love was like an abyss
Sad... Lonely, lost.
I often pride myself with adoration for you, i would pray to God and thank him for bringing you to me.
But no matter how hard i prayed
Or how hard i tried to shine my light on you, so you could reflect it.
In the end you always looked at me.
With those eyes.
Those "pathetic fool" eyes.
I knew i wasn't good enough.
But i gave you way more than deserved.
Way more than enough.
My light was wasted in your abyss
My love was wasted on you.
You just didn't deserve me.

A Casanova.
Toying with hearts as you please.
Too bad, you won't play with mine.
Rumors say that you're the embodiment of a lust-full soul
Who hunts after selfish means
And prey on everything "girl"
Rumors say, you're the one my parents warned me about.
I mean, my friends may be right.
But at least i should try
For myself, don't you think?
Rumors say you'll break my hearts to bits
But you know, even broken crayons
Still draw colors.
Rumors paint you three shades darker than black.
Guess what?? I have all the whites.
Rumors, rumors, rumors!!
Truth is, i love you.
And i love those dark rumors that comes with loving you.
Don't mind me, i just want.
The full package!

...
Who would she tell??
Who would've listen to her unbelievable story!?

The rain didn't come early.
So in the shower she stood.
Drips of crimson being washed away!
Both wrists open!
Leaning with the right shoulder, till her body went cold.

It became too long, so she stood up, got the first aid kit, and patched herself up.

For even death did not want her!
Then came the rain.

And she endured December.
Smiled for the new year.
Ate eggs for easter!
And waited for the rain.

So she could mix it with her dried up tears.
Happiness has become a distant memory.

For even the movie "joker" wouldn't play on her laptop!

On the rainy days.
She'll walk out intentionally
And scream out, like a banshee...
She'd beg God to take her life.

As she was too much of a coward
To commit suicide!

Even loneliness left her!