On the rainy days.
She'll walk out intentionally
And scream out, like a banshee...
She'd beg God to take her life.

As she was too much of a coward
To commit suicide!

Even loneliness left her!

She would sit outside...
Before the rain, and weep!
Not cry! But weep.

So that if she's caught, she'd say:
"Oh it's just the rain"

Pain was her constant companion.

If joy was a form of sin.
I'd have been locked up in the deepeat parts of hell.

Imagining you walk past me
I felt like a background song...
I've dreamt dreams, that the god of dreams would not approve on.
Like a child with a runny nose, after eating a spicy meal.
It's how my heart melts each time i smell your presence.
And even though
You fade a little faster than you appear, it's enough.
I planned to write three poems today
But your name filled the wordings
Of all my A4's
Now I'm in a daze.
Is this love??
Or would it pass away??

Feeling the warmth of the sun.
Cold winter air, giving you goosebumps.

Scattered amongst the water bed.
Even in the singing of trees.
You exist everywhere but in me.

Original canvases that a painter would die for.
You... They call you; pure, nice, beautiful, awesome, yin and yang, chakra, mana, force, light vain, ki.
But widely you're known as "life"

We we're close together, you and i
But now people only talk about me, when you give up on them.

But it's fine, at least after they spend the little time they have with you.
I embrace them forever.

Christianity...
What is it exactly?? Lots of people take us for granted.
See us like weaklings cause we turn a blind eye to offenses and welcome the sinners.
I laugh.
If I'd get an opportunity, I'd like to add to the bible.
The book of "advanced testament"
Cause i don't quite get why i gotta turn the other cheek in the 21st century.
But i don't want to accompany lucifer as a pitch fork holder.
Why would i let you touch the first one even?
Oh lord forgive me...
But maybe you should take away grace for a moment, so folks can understand what ***** went through.
I'm a Christian not just by family bringing but by heart.
But if you test me and test God.
Ooh, I'll stop being a pacifist.
And turn the fist!

Yes i could have been a better person
But this is the path i chose.
Yes, I'm an introvert... And an introvert amongst introverts.
They say, "face your fears" but that's why i never look at my reflection.
Yes I'm a loner, what's wrong with it?
Yes, I don't believe in love...
Yes, i don't deserve love, but love me
Ah yes, i like to live.
But i prefer the joy of nothingness,
Like the waves lulling itself on a rock at the sea shores.
Yes I'm a poet. But my ink is red.

Yes!

I'm not exactly scared of being alone
I just don't want to be forgotten.
For the fear of loneliness i mingle
To not be hungry, i eat when it's not needed.
I crave love, so i love first, and cry later.
For the fear of falling in love wrongly
I stand tall and firm, alone.
For the fear or being hated for who i am, i pretend.
Maybe I'm meant to be lonely.
But does it have to be this bad??
Can't i just be loved a little bit...
I'm just lonely, alone! By myself

Someone say "i love you"
Please.