My first few poems haven't been all as I planned,
My thoughts that came to me in a few minutes has brought no over loving fans,
But it is fine because I'm not here for fame or fortune,
I'm here to express my emotions,
Going through life coasting,
The mind plays tricks and I am being deceived,
Lost all consciousness of who I should be,
I may sound self centered but really I am not,
I put many ahead of me and it's not just a thought,
The way I've been raised has made me who I am today,
I'm sure the experiences you've all been through have the same effect eh?

But I'm starting to lose focus so don't judge me because I don't do hocus pocus,
It's not gonna be any better,
What do you expect?...
I'm only a beginner...

Ever wished life was back to a point where you were most happy?

The moment that gave you a sign of hope for a life story,

One you would share to your great grandson or granddaughter Laurie?

I've had moments that I wish would freeze, the moments that mold me to who I am today,

The memories that would rid my pain of yesterday,

The heartbreak that I felt, the moment that I fell,

It's all coming together and becoming a lovely tale,

The happiness, the sadness, the old crying of the eyes...kid,

Have you ever had this feeling of grief that makes you wish you had a belief,

In love and everything that is oh so sweet,

If you had then you would understand, having those moments would make you a man,

The days of childhood are over and it's quite a simple plan,

Time to grow up, but never forget what made you fearlessly stand,

Above the rest and everyone with doubt,

Live to be who you are and remember...only yourself.

Through the darkest night, the thoughts creep and strive on your emotions in a flurry,

Through the darkest night, when you wish god gave you a break from all of your problems in a hurry,

Through the darkest night, the time you realize that the future is blurry,

Through the darkest night is when the next day is the brightest and brings you glory.

Our eyes met in an open plane,
Your words still burned into my brain,
The lost of love, the pain of one,
You still have my heart, it can't be done,
I love your eyes as they sparkle through the night,
Shining that light that is oh so bright,
Those beautiful freckles as I kiss your lips,
The moment I knew I fell for this,
The love for you I try to endure,
But neglect is all that I receive from yours,
A year has passed as I still think of you,
My life should move on now but I still feel blue,
What must I do to revive your heart, from the love that has made you dark,
I must not expect you to change your ways,
So I say goodbye to those beautiful days,
Love must be grasped at a certain time, so I move on to another in the life of mines.

The body aches as it tends to break,
The heartless boy with an unusual shake,
He cries for love that has no bound,
To perceive in his mind that it can be found,
The thoughts of many have ruined his image,
But as he ages he will not be finished,
His mind expands to unknown areas,
He lives on with no fear from us,
He screams out with incredible rage,
And lives on thinking about the new age,
Staying strong and living on,
Bless the soul that he was gifted,
He brings hope for all of those who wishes.