I lay back and watch the most beautiful scarlet stream
It was like my angel had crafted the most perfect dream
The life rushed out of her body as quickly as it had once poured in
It didn’t take much her body had become much too thin
She closed her eyes to stop the spinning
She knew this is what everyone wanted, so she was the one winning.

This was mine, it was all for me, my beautiful nightmare
She was surrounded by her own blood, and she wondered if anyone would really care
As if in some sick nightmare she was there, on her knees trying to hold the pieces of me together
She refused to let go, no matter the struggle, her touch was as light as a feather
Her pulse was faint, all she could feel was warm arms holding her scarlett wrists to her chest
The look on her face, it was hazy but panic was evident, she tried to reassure her it was for the best
As her pulse slowed to almost nonexistent, a smile appeared across her pale lips
Angels had come for her darkness kissed, taking her into her eternal rest

She held the shell of what once held her whole world, crying over her, pleading
She held so tight her nails dug into her flesh and she began bleeding
Soon it was so quiet you could hear the sound of her heart breaking in her chest
She couldn’t let go, how could she lay her baby to rest?
She stays frozen in place, she grabbed her phone but her fingers wouldn’t let her dial
She lost her whole world, and now she had lost her only reason to smile.

She was a girl, so beautiful and sweet.
That wouldn’t hold true for long, a nightmare she would meet.
She only had one fear in this world, and it came true.
She didn’t know how to live without you.
She wanted to be everything you thought she could be.
But, since you died so has she.

She used to smile so bright it could light up a room.
Now, she doesn’t even know how to smile through the gloom.
She lived in a world of bright colors and beautiful dreams.
Now, she lay in her room fearing nightmare screams.
She used to be the girl everyone knew was meant to be great.
But you see there was a different plan laid before her by fate.

The light has left her eyes, and the world has become dim.
She wanted to trust you, to trust in him..
She used to believe God was good, and oh so kind..
See, the devil came along and the real world she shall find.
She was the strong through any storm.
Now, she can barely get words to form.

How did this beautiful, bright girl lose her shimmer and shine?
How did she go from good to barely able to utter “Fine.”
You see, this girl she lost the one thing she had left to love.
She lost you momma, that’s why she fits inside sadness like a glove.
Who is this girl, and who did she lose?
She is me, and I lost my momma and now I’ve got the heartbreak blues.

You see, I used to be just like all of you filled with hope and joy.
Now I sit in my room because it’s easier than faking it, oh boy.
I tried so hard to reclaim my light..
I tried so hard to become like i was once so bright.
I have done all I can to fight the darkness growing inside…
Sometimes, all I can think is… ‘It’d be better if I died.’