Abuse abuse someone find my noose my feelings are too obtuse the abusers are always on the loose and I can’t find a clue what are we gonna do the hitting ****** false accusations and manipulations have gotta stop boo boo
My girl, you too? Us women, for you? We weren’t ever made for this, babes we got batter days than this
We ain’t falling for any more of this somehow charming ******* bliss, this has gotta stop my man, there’s gonna be a change, yes you dumb ***** *******, I think you can, least pay your dues, go to jail be on the news, better days are coming and we’ve gotta start with something
We are hoes, out here, and it is consensual, that’s clear
And I’ll be ******* gay boys till the straight boys can figure out their mess, come here
Maybe internalized homophobia maybe narcissism maybe I don’t trust none of you no more
Maybe it’s daddy issues maybe it’s none of your business cause I can’t talk to you republican *** ******* no more
Maybe I thought I was trans, because of my dysphoria I hate my parents, gender fluid is cool but idk my brains a pool
But I am really tired of you republican *** ***** *** conservative racist ******* *** white men

I never know what to think when I'm in blue
Overcast with depression even with the sun shining
I can't get out of bed with my own mind
Cant get out of my head unless I take time
Keep trying to be in the grind in these new times but I keep falling back to the Limbo loop of ****** occupying everything of mine
Mistakes taught me what I know yet the mistake is still mine
I can't redo the past but I feel the future coming too fast
Fortunes told I'm leaving it all behind me
Dreams so bold but I can't get started
Can't find my feet
I don't know where they're taking me
I'm scared it's farther down this dark hole and it's terrifying
People telling me the way is all uphill but I never learned to ride that way
I push forward through the web and the grey but climbing up to these holy skies seem too many miles away
Another step up into another **** up in which I slip up more and it all falls down on me

Baby turn me sideways flip me upside down I like all ways my brain is topsy turvy maybe I’ve been flipped too many times my nine lives all blur together each life I try another each life a new lover each life I meet my sisters and my brothers falling in line in the new day new way we’re taught to fall in line no jail not today I breathe and live for freedom for me for this society we all breathe free we all speak free we all should have the right to our voice and our vote, see death happens round us all the time but it’s not every day you see nazis running for government parties to take seats in offices when they should be behind bars, see death happens round us all the time but it’s not every day you see lynchings of black boys and black girls missing and stabbed and the presidency’s lying on tv, see death happens but you don’t usually see it happen, see the young kids in death camps call it what you want I call it how i see it, see em ripped apart  from mom and dad, see em grow up in camp no loved ones had, see us no health care just pop us full of drugs, see us no future just throw us in human trafficking no one will see I see, see death happens round us all.

Trying to find our flow but not just from memory but from feeling I’m stumbling words blocking my flow I’m running from the memories that scare me because I think I’m different this world shakes and rings like a ticking time bomb I’ve always felt that with each breath I’m struggling to breathe least I’m calm and serene I don’t remember the last time I felt the feeling and been that being to forth-come my own peace I’m not steering I’m in auto drive auto pilot of my mind letting my thoughts wander and gather and barely form full for days writers block I don’t talk I let others steer the way I don’t change I form to beings to fit their ways I gave in to the patriarchy but now I’m back to my chaos praise my original style my own ways we running feminism till it hits the breaks because of the new waves but till we all equal it stays my proud anthem for intersectionalitism

I don’t know what the **** I’m feeling but all these vibrations from the bottoms of my being I’m seething and screaming from the insides I can’t stop but I’m mute and it’s all a fluke and I can’t do this and this feeling is so bad I can’t believe what I did I can’t believe I’m so bad I always thought that I would try my hardest to be the best person I can be harming no one helping and loving and what I’ve done is so wrong I’m on a run I’m fleeing the self ptsd tendencies it’s all a rut I’m sticking in the muck of stagnant thinking it’s the destruction of my being I’ve been a snake and deceiving I’ve come to lie and be misleading I gotta own it I can’t deny it my wrongs have faulted others and demised their soul from where it’s placed next to mine my hearts a wreck but I forever bet my whole life I’ll never sink again, loyal forever is my new brand rhyming don’t matter as long as I know where I stand my flow is better accepting my -

Stream of consciousness conscious breath I dream of being conscious in my reality see lucid hallucinations delusions in my mind no one’s got the time to see the dreams I’m gonna get the save the world complex see the weight of the world my third eye I hear your worries I hear your sorrow I hear your joy im starting tomorrow I’m filling up my cup

Spirited away flying farther into consciousness becoming one with the world and one with all word and mediums of communication from my soul to your mine this **** ain’t got to rhyme I’m in your mind I’m changing spirits I’m living proof of alcoholism’s roots of vices of society’s mices we live in the grooves the way we move rebelling the way of the patriarchy we’re living in