I don’t know what the **** I’m feeling but all these vibrations from the bottoms of my being I’m seething and screaming from the insides I can’t stop but I’m mute and it’s all a fluke and I can’t do this and this feeling is so bad I can’t believe what I did I can’t believe I’m so bad I always thought that I would try my hardest to be the best person I can be harming no one helping and loving and what I’ve done is so wrong I’m on a run I’m fleeing the self ptsd tendencies it’s all a rut I’m sticking in the muck of stagnant thinking it’s the destruction of my being I’ve been a snake and deceiving I’ve come to lie and be misleading I gotta own it I can’t deny it my wrongs have faulted others and demised their soul from where it’s placed next to mine my hearts a wreck but I forever bet my whole life I’ll never sink again, loyal forever is my new brand rhyming don’t matter as long as I know where I stand my flow is better accepting my -