I'm in the wild
Though I haven't left my bed.
I'm in the wild
I'm trapped inside my head
I'm in the wild

My name is now squid
So you should get used to it
Because I said so

A single moment in this room, side by side
I find myself lost in your beautiful voice
Like the moon your voice could draw the sea's tides
I shall listen to you sing; this, is my choice

Sweatpants and a tee-shirt are all you need
For simply your energy creates a light
Never lose your luster; this I will plead
For its shine will follow you into night

Your skill in the arts could never be matched
Pen and pad, brush and easel, stringing letters
To your skills, my dear, I have become attached
Your voice, your hands; both as light as as feathers

You could lead me into the fires of hell
For you are the one that makes my heart swell

Dishes piled high in disarray
with my fingerprints over everything
there is no denying;
-the kitchen crime scene
-is mine alone,
and yes, I ate all the pies.

I'm a squid,
I've mentioned it before in a poem
As we sit side by side
I can feel my tentacles,
Invisible to the eye,
Wrapping around you.
You probably can't feel the suckers against your back and side.
You sit singing whilst you draw
I'm also drawing.
Drawing you closer to me.
Closer to my heart
closer to my love.
I'm a squid
I'm a squid in love
I love you so
I won't let you go.

I'm freaking, the **** out.
It's the first really bad panic attack
I've had in a while.
I don't know.
I don't know.
Maybe I'm just way, too, paranoid about this.
You said I have no reason to worry
I need to accept that
But swallowing a saw blade seems easier.
I trust you,
I'm just scared
And today
Waking up when you weren't there
Finding you in the bathroom
Going back to bed and waiting
Just to have you leave
after being back for five minutes
and be gone for what felt like years.
I wish I wasn't so clingy in the morning
****
I'm really not okay.
I have to work in thirty minutes.
Leave in twenty
And calm myself down in ten.
Take me back to 3:10
Take me back to reclining into you
Take me back to listening to music
I'm too inside my head
I'm too inside my head.
I'm way too inside my head.
Save me,
please,
Save me.

Sunsets come at four
With the fading of days warmth
My head is at ease.