So much is changing.

This place makes me happy
This change is a good one.
This pain in my chest is telling me not to come back
But I know that it's time for me to go.
For the first time I'm listening to my head
While my heart's ripped to shreds.

Life is more fleeting than a snapchat **** when you can't screen shot. Don't waste it trying to be a social media addict.

The sea is much too large for me to see it all.
I need to remember that feelings are like the sea.
They run deep.
They crash and become violent as the shore approaches
I'm too young to think I've felt all there is to feel.

From the douchy looking muscle men
With their ugly ankle biters
To the poser skaters trying to impress tourists
San Diego is one hell of a city to behold

I'll come and get you
I'll dip deep into the sea
I'll save you from the sea.
Hold your breath, just a bit longer.
I'm coming to get you.
I've been that deep in the sea.
I'll come get you in my submersible.

My friends don't realize;
I don't need advice
I don't need to be alone
I'm not okay.
I'm trying to reach out to them
I'm scared
I'm too suicidal to think straight.
All I want is;
For some one to listen and not speak
To just be there
To get better
To be heard
To have them reach back.
What I'll get is ignored texts and unwanted life advise.
I'm better off alone.
If I stay in my head I won't get hurt.