the only time I thought this
possible was not yet here
but yet the feelings prevailed
i wanted none of it
but still the heart persisted
the wound though still raw
wanted so badly to heal
and couldn't find
a better doctor still

them all are the same
my head would say
and them all can change
my heart would say
caught in the battle
of logic and loving
didn't know where
to really side

guess it happened again
the course of history redoing
itself, guess walls are down
again and this time
they seem to really want to,
guess i will side with the heart
for now, and wait for
its crying sounds again,
soon i can tell
i just met my future x

when the mirror tells
me wrong and you tell me right
when my head can't think
and yet you do better

when my eyes see blur
and you lead the way
when my laughter is
all ugly and you still
want me to go on

when my tears are becoming heavier
than my eyes
you speak,and dry
them off

when my security system
is not on
you stand guard
when my hands can't hold
on anymore you tie
them strong on
but still make me do it

when i think surprises
are now done
you come up and
say ''i love you''

that moment....
when I'm speechless
and you know what
i want to say anyways

when my pink life
turns black
and you light it all up
again

when the world is angry at me
and you still want me in yours

when i feel all ugly and rejected
and i know you will still
love me the same...

cuddling with the night
gazing at the empty o sky
salvation awaited
numbness refuse to quit

standing alone, being
irrevocable and wishing
life would come
to an end

waiting for an open door
but seeing them shut
right in your face
causing pain hanging
yourself can't clean

rain falling
but not taking away the
sorrow of being left alone
in a huge galaxy

dumb enough to
ignore the voc for sale and dumber
to know nothing says she

but still hope shines
bright end of tunnel i see it
but reach it no hope

have you ever felt a smile cracking
your face but there was no longer a reason for it
have you ever  felt that what you are  no man's business
because you are always rejected

have you ever felt you are the ground to the world
because everyone keeps stepping on you
have you ever looked in the mirror and
could not stand your own reflection

though trials are all on you now
happiness is what you bring to me
through your existence
because nothing matters like you matter