I suppose if I were to tell you
How I really feel
If I were to actually do it-
For real
It might be like a weight was lifted
Though my words would
Sound so scripted
Tell me what you'd say?
Is there any use
In hoping everything would be okay?
Confidence isn't my strong suit
No one would dare dispute
But ugh you're just so ******* cute
Maybe my fate is already sealed
In a separate envelope from you

My entire existence
Has been designed around
Inflicting the least amount of pain
But it seems that sometimes
I'm not very good at my job

together
we held hands
and in our palms
we held time

and we ran away
from the rising sun
so we could see it
rise forever

but we grew tired
and we slowed down
and the sun sped up
and time was slipping
between our fingers
dripping
from our knuckles

and together we ran
we ran away toward
the setting sun
as fast as we could
but we were too tired

There's a secret garden in my mind
Here are the keys
Dreams and nightmares lined with silver
Enter with caution, please

We walked the laurel floral covered fast lanes that were once meant for ships and planes
Lifetime friendships forged over baggage claims

Blessed to live the life live that was once only Pay-Per-View televised
Ive memorized moves made by ghosts that left me mesmerized

This is privileged private property I'll share with you not for publicity
Although this is a part of my recipe to leave a legacy
A high density dose of tranquility
Dream of me Mzanzi
Dream of me 3thirty

I am the planets we can’t get to
and you are the entire earth;
vast, beautiful, and a little bit neglected.
I am the alien spaceships that fly over
our country to observe, but never make contact.
I am hidden in the far corners of the universe
and I don’t know how to reach you in a way
that you’d want me to stay.

My life is consistently out of balance
I don't manage my time well
I'm either doing a million things
Or nothing at all
I don't manage my social life well
I'm either seeing everyone
Or no one at all
I don't manage my aspirations well
I either have dozens of dreams
Or none at all

And I think the worst of it
Is that I don't manage my emotions well
I'm either feeling everything
Or nothing at all
And this constant shift
Between all or nothing
Is disorienting in the most horrible way

I always associated tears
With strong emotions
People cry when they are
Sad
        Frustrated
                            Angry
                                        Happy

But right now I feel nothing
And I think these tears must be confused
Because I'm devoid of strong emotions
I'm just hollow

                                                                                                  …and slightly wet