you have taught me..
so now i must learn...
a lesson such as life
cannot be simply a lecture to listen to
and take notes upon...
a hands-on portion must be practiced
in order to truly, learn the material...

the day will eventually be over...
the moment will eventually pass...
and you will be okay...
everything will be okay...
everything will settle...
everything will pass...

but will i be different once it has passed?...
.

I like to reminisce on the times that we never had
The long nights we would spend in each others arms
The delicate touch of your skin upon my lips
The promises I would make, but could never keep
Sand in our bed, from the beach we never visited
The song in my head, playing on the night we never had
To all of the things we never had,
To all of the things we could have been

i wasn't the one who lied
making you feel secure...
safe...
like i would stay by your side...
like it was okay to not be ready...
only to make you pay for it for 6 months...