You still don't know my name
What if i died today,
Right now, dear May?
Would you remember my face
My eyes, my lips, my neck
Or would you forget
My whole existence
Just like that?
Let's find out
I promise i won't even fight.
Just turn off the light.

And if i stayed
Will you pretend I'm not here,
That i'm a mere feeling,
That with time will pass.
You've nothing to worry about.
Go on, my love
Wanna watch me die?
i've been for a really long time...
Maybe i already did in your eyes.
Tell, would you. please, my light?

I hate you now.
I think I should get an apology or something.
I can no longer bow.
You deprive me from my sleep.
I'm tired of feeling like a creep,
You never even ask me how
Or where i spend my days,
I can no longer stand your ways.
Don't you get tired of making up excuses
For ignoring me? i'm left with bruises,
I've been your throwaway for so long.
It's time, i'm moving on.
I'm tired of loosing
myself in my
dreams, dreaming of you.
I'm over feeling blue

Breath out.
In.
Frosty air on my skin.
Out.
Cheeks are tinted red.
In.
There's a more free space within.
Out
No room for dread.
In

I don't wanna be your dog
That you pick up from the floor
When you feel like being loved.
And when it ends you throw me out
You know, it's really ******* cold.
On the edge of your bed i fold
Too many times, you can have more.
You know what? Have it all!
No big deal - I'm tied to a pole,
forever yours, i'm never home.
I never talk,
No place for me in your monologues.
Gave you all without a thought.
I'm tired of waiting by the door.
And i don't like being alone
I too wanna feel loved.

If i am not hurt, then why does it feel like the end of the world?

There's a hole in the earth and i can feel in grow and I can't stop it from. and i still wanna know how it feels to hold something pure, i want to feel it in my bones.I want to learn how to fly. I want to see stars in her eyes, many suns in her smile and the beauty of her mind.

There's a hole in the earth and it's getting bigger. people keep on hurting people. warmth is coming, it's getting nearer than before. we can only hold it off for so long.

There's a hole in the earth and i can't get it out if my mind. i'm tired of hiding inside but whenever i come out it's like i'm breathing in fire. and I don't want to belong to you to anyone. i just wanna know who you are.

There's a hole in the earth and we all fall down, it's only a matter of time.  i wanna run into the open air and grow tall until I can see the Earth no more. i need to search for positivity, empathy. but why does it seem like it's hiding from me?

There's a hole in the earth and i have no idea when i'll fall, it may happen the next second. No point in asking for answers for i need to find out myself. Until then i gotta keep on keeping on and find someone who'll be there to plant a few tulips for me when it happens.

There's a hole in the earth, no one escapes. I'm sad, but not sad enough to cry, meaning that it's alright. But I'm too sad to write and write and rhyme. too sad to love to love loud and be loved. too sad to hide to fight the tide. too sad to get you out оf my head my mouth my life, May. And you still don't know my name.

Why does it seem like i'm more
Than i've ever asked for?
Tell me why does it feel like i'm older
than it says in my passport?
And why am i only lonely
After someone holds me?
Sometimes when i feel weak
and it seems to me like i can't breathe,
I think that i have grown into a tall child.
And then i cry
And then i close my eyes
And mumble many goodbyes.
Could you kiss me goodnight, mother?
I promise tomorrow i'll behave like an adult.
But i think I would rather
be called naïve,
i'd rather be
alive with a child's soul.
The world has many opportunities,
why does it feel like it's tearing us apart brutally?
I'd really love not to see that.
Everyone seems to have a special friend you scream at,
what? i haven't missed my time to get one yet?
well, i certainly don't want that.
And tell me please
Why every time i feel slight happiness,
A car is always there, and a puddle
And the next thing i know my mind's muddled.
Tell me about a place with no ugliness.
Don't worry mom,
I've paid my bills this month,
Though i still have to figure out
how to pay for my life.

I have many tiny corpses
Of memories, feelings - sorrowful losses,
All lie in my mind
My personal little garden for the dead,
For the best of them.
from where my personality stems
Grass and flowers grow into a meadow.
Only sometimes i know...
i notice tints or smells or sounds
Of people, places from my past,
A constant déjà vu, a search
For what? I still don't know.
There's a face that i borrow
And only when in my garden
I take it off, i'm hollow no more
I am nothing, a bunch of organs.
And it feels so peaceful.
When i'm nothing i feel more like myself.
Maybe i just need a break from people.
But then they force me out,
I'm alone in crowds, i wander around.
I can almost hear a train coming
I sit down, I'm waiting.
I'm in a field, where city's hand
Won't reach me, take me away, it can't.
Peace and quiet,
if no one minds, I'll stay here for a while.
I'm just so exhausted,
I wanna spend sometime in my graveyard, think about whether it had cost it...
No, if it was worth it.
******* and your money, i'm tired of your money.
We'll talk about it - not today.
Just..let me be
I want to ponder on the faded.

I fell for my heartless love
Red leaves falling from above.
Sunlight on her skin is a work of art.
Autumn's near, it's almost here
And i can sense she's ready to leave
Someplace new, someplace warm and far,
Though it's just for the wintertime.
I can't come,
this city holds my heart.
The words stay on the tip of my tongue.
A scream filled the sky
The whole casecade's falling apart
Revealing a perfect night
Lit up by many city lights.
It's quiet out here,
i think I'll stay for a while.
Then I'll by myself another pillow
And I will feel less lonely for some time