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Feb 2014 · 744
Hiking
Daan Feb 2014
I've been walking for days, it feels like I
need to, I can't stop, craving the top he sees,
he cannot reach it yet. Passed by
some music, turning wheels even ladies

in high heels go faster. I take my time,
enjoy the journey, the end of the tour
I wish to reach is a blessing I so kind-
ly deserve. Still I keep my pace down,

steadily enjoying every single step I take.
This endless, infinite state of walking
is my way of living. I cannot love without
the wait, I cannot belong without a map

and a fixed route. I need these hopeless
days to survive my own **** mind.
When you have been on a trip like that, walking feels like forever and you think you can't handle it. But when you reach the end you are so glad you did it, and actually the whole trip was beautiful.
Feb 2014 · 454
Mutual
Daan Feb 2014
I feel you don't see things as I do
I try to understand, cut off, tru-
ly there must be a way to get rid
of scepticism, instead of looking

at the differences, noticing the
mutual ideas, shared, conveniently
without a reason.

Even if we can't, can't we just discuss,
I guess you think less of me,
lacking a certain level of mutual respect.
Respect on levels I enjoy more than hiking
I guess it's just my craving for liking
and being liked
mutually.
You can be tigger, I can be pooh
even if we're not exactly the same,
I'll be your friend, if you want me to.
(If you don't let me try to understand you, make sure someone else can someday )
('hiking'==> cf another poem I made)
Feb 2014 · 1.5k
Dresscodes
Daan Feb 2014
I'm a lazy man, yet taken care of.
I'd be able to fulfill the needs love
if I worked for it. I don't, lacking,
good or bad, no opinion. Cracking

the dresscode with a single pinch.
People react differently, in clinch,
with themselves, closer to a flinch,
saved, suddenly from this public lynch.

I'm leaving town, not because I can
not handle their judging faces,
not because my past action chases
me every wake moment. These cases

of pressure come in groups, it loops
and never ends, like despondent troops
I know I'm making a fool of myself and people will think I'm desperate and hopeless,
maybe I am, maybe I'm not, but I don't care, at least I'm being true, done with dresscodes.
Feb 2014 · 699
Picky
Daan Feb 2014
More than just tanned skin over bone,
just the long brown hair on it's own,
that giggle when I try to look, manly,
like one who can be the man Leigh

desires to interfere with. Myth, mystically
beautiful, mesmerizingly enchanting, step
by step, gracefully, carefully granting
me another chance, glancing optimistically.

Her eyes, not caring about the colours, staring
across the hall, my nose can reach her forehead,
her taste in music, juicy yet elegant, in bed,
slightly humming along, god, she must be a dream.

She can just pick any guy she wants, a team
of athletes all at once, or just the one that lead
the journey to her lust and center. I misread,
excuse me for swearing, but the skirt she's wearing

is more than I can handle. Enter the room
without a hint of fear, she's near, like perfume.
When in doubt, always remember to not eat the yellow snow.
Feb 2014 · 289
lost attention
Daan Feb 2014
Switching rails, close ways of metal bars,
mails another, tension building, starting wars,
not intended, tendency to, trips extended
others ended. I can choose, pick a path

or walk aside it, I don't care, as long as
I get where I want to be,
with someone equally in trance,
both willing to commence,

I'll write for it instead of her,
in search of me.
Feb 2014 · 1.3k
Daytime
Daan Feb 2014
The words come out wrong,
wishing seconds could be hours
still not enough
you must think I'm weird

I want to stop myself from getting hurt
all the time
all day
but I can't

Because you're so pretty, pretty unreachable
There's always another guy
I want to be that guy and not
Cause everyone hates that guy.

But you don't
You love him
why don't you love me?

It's like you don't even try
It has always been my
intended action
failed
nailed on the spot

useless piece of uselesness
being useless and stuff
I have had enough
I want to leave daytime.
Step out, night into we go
studying, front row, below
average, passed, gone, missing
forever.

Why can't I accept it's gone.
Maybe it isn't?
that's what I'm talking about.
She must think I'm weird.

people don't like weird people
they only like people who turn out to be weird.
Daytime offers dresscodes
dresscodes nighttime loathes.

I judge but I hate being judged
I hate but I hate being hated.
I love but I don't see how one could love me.
If she doesn't, why care for anyone else
she doesn't
what matters doesn't
doesn't that hurt?


Why
day
why
may
I not
be loved
beloved
day, why?

Though it is not 'ed, night brings light
it might not be too bright
but it's better than nothing.
I wish I was nothing.
I wouldn't have to worry
I worry a lot

I'm loved by those who I don't like
and love the ones that don't like me
Who is wrong here?
CAN SOMEONE PLEASE TEACH ME HOW TO NOT THINK ABOUT SOMEone eVERY SINGLE SECOND OF the day.

time, she is unreachable
and way too attractive,
loved in general
which shows you just enough to be of interest
to keep me going

yet not enough to let the night keep glowing.


If daytime is so bad, why not sta
Feb 2014 · 378
Icecubes
Daan Feb 2014
Willing to be shaped roughly, taste
the cold sensation working it's way
down to your toes, tingling. My tongue
is stuck.
You're pretty.
Feb 2014 · 512
Eventually
Daan Feb 2014
They sat together, carefully, slowly caressing
this moment, temporary infinite, experienced blessing.
The grass was long and on moisty soil, they sat
together, staring in the distance, at eachother
and at the water, bouncing of the moons reflection
of a light no stronger than their love.
A beam, a ray from way and far above, reflected twice, and
once more in eachothers eyes. A blink too much,
an imperfection, adored some more, signs of affection.

His hands sliding across the surface, followed
by her grasping touch, afraid to be alone,
extased by being with one another. Until
the shattering of every single bone, they will
remember, briefly, with such passion. Every
single ember burns again.

Leaning on his shoulder, enjoying his smell.
Just simply looking, regarding facts, you can tell
everyone acts or wishes to, achieve this state.
Silently, breathing in your shapers air, releasing all,
the offers just to dare and make this happen.

Saying something, even your name, would be
too much, quietly masquering the blush, softly
giving in and opening up to your most desired sin.

They think the same, their love is parallelled.
They are both ahead, both too slow, both have
said and both do know. They both need to be held.

I lost my sense along with your attention,
lost my goal and did I mention, that you'll
regret the signs you did not send, regret
the decision, turning down a chance to blend
your strings with mine, attached, but ofcourse,
you did decline. I could have done more, you
should have done more. My feet are still sore
from walking, running, pacing, strolling, wandering, straying, browsing, playing, sprinting, squinting, flinching, failing, giving
up.

Collarbones are closest to my pain, fingers recreating
what is never to regain. Slowly turning, drifting, insane.
Realising that it's over, telling myself it's not, lying.
Stuttering b-be-because I, I'm crying, reading poems
to cry some more. Writing to keep away the bore.

Not a step was taken, though time'd have to be moved
to awaken and restart, recurring simple matters because
they meant the most. Love is not brought on silver platters,
it is deserved, in both ways, not in one.

She's gone for now, but she'll return, come back
sweetly just before the storm gets loose.
Before another storm sweeps me from your grip
connecting hip to lip and tongue to song and sing
and dance for this new chance.

If it's your glance or that of someone else, whose
turn it is to learn from how he sells, tells how
insecure I am and 'll always be. Finally,
set me free.
I'm afraid to be alone
I'm afraid I'll be alone, stay alone, be cut off of these imperfect perfections.
Assure me.

'You are trying to **** me, woman'
Feb 2014 · 1.0k
Stay awake for nothing
Daan Feb 2014
A year has passed and you don't know.
I admit to the crime of too subtle action
almost forced to go,
never sure,
you enigmatic mystery,
I could never tell what I was meant to see.  

What you think of me is
still a question, I feel its automatic
journey is close to its end, I cannot pause,
cause it never does, not for me.

I guess we are the same but I never came to affirmation.
I end it right here, you had me for a year
and never shifted gear, next levels
never reached. Some doors breached

I'm off to bed. Could I never return please?
Tomorrow is always a disaster, so tell her today.
Today was two days ago.
I am too late.

Doubting about giving up, then she's not the one.
Giving up is for cowards, for guys like me, two days ago.
regret is a horrible state.
Please never make me experience it again, I preach.
I wish you made me feel careless and casual, then it would have worked.

But your sparkling eyes make me insecure,
your cheeky cheeks unkissed and pure,
your perfect shapes and dazzling hair,
your blinding stare, everything around me
vaguely disappears,

an empty feeling sears
through the image that I had
I was just a helpless lad, fallen down, reaching up to you.
But I did not dare to grab your hand for it was too
soft and smooth and perfect for my not so bright ideas.

Now drop me and never lend me that hand again
I will always try to grab it, immobilized by your smile.
addicted, not in love, hooked, not shared, affected and absorbed but not attracted.
attraction has 2 ways, of one I am not sure.
Abruptly looking the other way, my only cure
for how you agonize my being.


I am still thinking about not giving up, so maybe
she could still be
one
just not
the...

I cannot understand myself
why did I not say
what I wanted every single day
for us, it may, but hey, this way,
I did not have to lay
myself on the line,
a risk avoided same goes for love
nothing else to painfully think of
nothing ever broke me like
you did.

My approach was the worst in human history
from afar they'll come and hear his story
of failure and demise, for a month or two
he'll be the talk of school and then it ends.

Either end it or start it, but not this phase of inbetweeness
it's powerful and useless at the same time.

One whole year, you shaped me, reformed, refurbished,
you were my goal, unreached. I need more time, more coal
to keep this ancient bunch of chances from not living forth. To north
instead of south, your words in my mouth, my
songs sang by birds and rippling creeks,
banished and expelled from peaks,
vanished thoughts, so sure they were,
together with the derivative motions they withheld

I spelled your name a thousand times
drew it in my books next to some rhymes
made it pretty to fit your being, even
though I never succeeded to pass breakeven.
Feb 2014 · 304
Tell her
Daan Feb 2014
I want to read out loud, maybe scream,
whatever my mind is mumbling, finally
stop the tumbling, kind, mistakes it makes.
I just finished a perfect bowl of ice cream,

thinking all along, caring and remembering
the staring, how could I keep quiet, all he
wishes to yell, my mind. I'd do all it takes
to plan or improvise, explaining the size

of how a small moment makes massive
changes possible. Imagine without passive
seconds, how a firecircle turns into an ember ring.
Get over there, casual and nice, best not too concise,

now flick a match and light the hallways, always
think but not too much, before it is too late.
It's funny how I used too three times.
It's funny how I never told her up to now.
I guess I just have no idea what funny really means.
Feb 2014 · 377
Chrysostomos
Daan Feb 2014
It shows how people react differently,
how some things affect some and not
others. I wish I had talked to you, rot-
ting chances, slowly drifting, indifferently.

The worst feeling is seeing everybody
feel great, feel great yourself and then
let it be destroyed by the fear of any man,
lacking the guts to start unpacking

the present that is right in front of you.
My fears must be the ones sent backing,
not me. This was the whole package, full
experience, ups, downs, sad clowns, glad

I can be part of this. I loved a lot and cried,
touched, easily, at least I haven't lied.
Vicieuze cirkel

Omring door schoonheid
erdoor weggetrokken van
wat ik nooit durfde

In the end I enjoyed it quite a lot. This day is never to be forgotten, 31/01/2014
Jan 2014 · 446
obsession overload
Daan Jan 2014
I wish we could make up some rules
together and break them. I would love
detention if you were here, but now
it's just your image, projected by my

overthinking mind. Being casual is how
it should be done, but I am not aware of
how I act. In fact I can't even tell by
descriptions told to help me. I'm school's

hopeless romantic, caught in a movie,
unknowing how to act. Everyone's got
their lines and signs and every move he
has to make. I don't even know the plot.

If anything goes wrong I'll just run away.
Then this is not my film and I don't have to stay.
Jan 2014 · 293
straight and fast
Daan Jan 2014
Different kinds of mazes hold me trapped
within their massive walls, I'm wrapped
up like your christmas present, but forgotten.
I don't know of which I'd best search exit now,
neither do I know how.

She doesn't seem to mind, it wouldn't work
She is the bottle I'm the cork
refusing the way to wine
Time to grab the keys, for doors or whatever

Can she tell what I am thinking,
can she feel that I am sinking
she can not, can she?

Hours would I wait in line
to see those glasses clinking
to hear them collide
I'm going for a ride.
In memory of his dearest friend and his closest chance to a great perhaps.
Jan 2014 · 485
Mightlessly omnipotent
Daan Jan 2014
My seed was strong and spoiled by soil,
grew up, youngest child, got every toy,
now all I wish is to be loved, spread joy.
In time my leaves and branches carry

more than my trunk can bare or roots
can hold. I need absorption of surrounds
to keep my twigs from snapping. Boil
my berry, motion, I want to leave so very

soon but I am tangled in these grounds.
I aim to bring other bushes different fruits,
change. Derive a potion from my ocean,
tears or water to feed, who knows,

I wish to predict how all goes.
I wish I still was that spoiled seed.
Jan 2014 · 477
And still constellations
Daan Jan 2014
People will always gaze upon the
stars in need of hope refreshment.
Not much is literally timeless,
nothing actually, but I like to believe

this is.
Jan 2014 · 1.1k
unclaimed home
Daan Jan 2014
I like to compare my life to a house.
Right now they're still building it, it's
still just a house. This year they added
windows and a second floor. I hope one day
it will be loved and be a home.

It is not easy to build a house,
hours and hours of planning, then
working, placing, making, breaking and repairing.
Some people already came by to see if it's for sale.

They checked every room and every planned one.
But this house is not randomly being placed
I just don't know who asked for it to be built.
Jan 2014 · 257
Battles
Daan Jan 2014
The situation seemed so perfect when
in fact the only thing that's able to be
perfect is a song.

People who can pick their favorite
must really have their lives
together.

I want to share my taste with you
I want to enjoy everything
together

Someone like you is necessary
for me to function right
even if we're apart.

And still, when we are together it
stays hard.
Ik heb het al aan mama gevraagd en ze zei:'Ok.'

The title of this poem changes everytime my playlist changes, it's good to have some changes, I guess
Jan 2014 · 2.5k
beauty in my eyes
Daan Jan 2014
The kind of miraculous movies that are not made
into videogames. It's like watching, surrounded
by darkness and seats, seated by people who laid
their first word around the time you did, sounded

not as perfect as yours, though they carefully tried.
Many times have I tried too but failed and cried.
A lot of people cry like that, surrounded yet not
noticed. They wish they didn't but then a lot

could go wrong. I have to help her, have to make
her see how confident she could be, not lied, she
is a hidden gem and more, so worthy, so valuable
for some and me but I can only look and notice

silently how she might blossom like the wallflower
she really is. Even if she does not I can only stand
and behold, like she does. Appearing strong, turning out
to be weak.
for those who couldn't see it, I am the beholder ; )
Jan 2014 · 698
The turn around
Daan Jan 2014
Finally I've had enough, two sides
were halved and everything was
done for nothing. Enough strides
were fought, moments bought, does

the time I've spent seem useless, to her
it does then why am I the one trying,
losing pieces, selfawareness, dying
because she never intended the blur

she made me see. I'm done staring,
starting conversations, stopped caring,
she did not accept my love, she played
with it and I deserve better, darkest shade

replaced by brighter smiles. I'm looking for
another girl, devoting my poems from the core.
Though I never had the strongest personality, this has really gone too far. If she actually wanted after all than she's the one to be sorry, I am a changed man.
Jan 2014 · 690
Up
Daan Jan 2014
Up
Should I go on or let her float,
not knowing how to steer my sunken boat.
I'd rather know for sure if not than
doubting about, with small chances, can

or could I do nothing to make her take
initiative. With her I want to share the lake,
my first cleansing, crying, though knowing it is fake.
We both have the ability to  harshly break

eachothers heart. Untied my shoelaces
missing embraces, picturing faces, sobbing
with my hands supporting my head.

What was I expecting, waiting obnoxiously races
on and on like a thief pitiful robbing
until everything is gone, I'm fed
Jan 2014 · 3.9k
Six
Daan Jan 2014
Six
The first meeting of eyes made me see
how cute a particular being can be.
I glanced at her glancing, stared at
her staring, kissed her cheek and saw

every single peek. Soon I knew what
was going on, it was impossible love
in its prettiest form. Not forbidden by law,
but frowned upon and disabled by social norm.

There were other girls, but not quite as
cute, like she was a snake and I played
the flute, but she loved her basket, straight
from the heart and I was just a new part

of a different puzzle, for a different day.
I wanted to love you, if only I may.
I've grown up and stopped behaving like that, thankfully (2019 edit)
Dec 2013 · 1.2k
Easily touched
Daan Dec 2013
A girl is breathing heavily, her red nose
indicates ones feelings like those you stumble
upon walking, strolling through the city,
scarf wearing, caught the flu, and leaf

staring, sky as moist as cloudy cushions
taking the blow, thinking about the smell of
newly bought to read, freshly printed and well
proudly he speaks of his belongings left, to part

the route we walked on repeat. The lass is
helpless, less selfassured than before, as if
she messed things up. she wore her dress for,
I guess, a guy who tore her being apart, the best

possible part of a girl, her being, vulnerable, stirred
by my attempt and try and suddenly forgot to cry.
Spatio brevi spem longam reseces
Dec 2013 · 457
sidestory
Daan Dec 2013
This is my little sidestory, besides
I am a ******, a *****, one who
thinks he will be loved but rides
a train of lies. What can he do

but be himself, knowing he'll never
make top shelf, half of his days
he spends thinking of different ways
to change, to go on with enough pride.

Quit while I'm ahead, stop with all
my confidence and walk away, so clever,
without shame. Things never fall
so hard off the bottom shelf. He died

yesterday, made place for a better man,
the main story is more than just a plan.
I don't know what would happen if people knew who I really was.
Some people do, they're important, I want more people to be that important.
But I am ashamed
Dec 2013 · 583
non existent
Daan Dec 2013
I've seen a lot of things, I want that
too. Greedfully not accepting what
I already have. To me it's nothing.
This bird already has one wing

and another, he can fly wherever.
But will this flying, reckless bird ever
stop looking for a nest a partner and
some stories to tell? Well he does bend

the air and tell his friends all the stories.
You'd say he's happy even more he's
filled with joy for every flight he takes,
because every single one is a journey, be this

never to forget. But, even filled, he is
empty, prepared for any of the possible stakes.
I want to rush it, but it's not right.
Dec 2013 · 558
unknown
Daan Dec 2013
Guys are never just talking, why do
I feel so jealous, when all you say is no.
Do I want to work for it that hard? Am
I the only one not knowing how to act

around this beautiful human being?
I wished that we could have been seeing
eachother a long time ago, but now
we'll never be like that. Look for something

new. How do I love if I'm not loved back?
You can try to change, change is good.
But do not take it too far, carefully choose

what you want to be. I for one want you
to change into someone less popular.
Then again I'm not the one to force you.
I wish I still had someone to write for, now I'm just writing about someone non existent.
Dec 2013 · 353
emptiness of being
Daan Dec 2013
Now I lost and don't have you any-
more, things are different, bad kind
of changes emerge in my pitiful mind.
He can't refrain himself from you, can he?

I know he'll try and if he does fail, bail
him out of the prison she locked him in.
Throw her grip and your feelings in a bin,
they're useless pieces tied together, forced

but not fitting. I am fearing for the worst
to happen. Cause she is not your holy grail
neither your reason to be pale, there are some
different things going on inside that little boy.

Soon nothing will be left, he will be his own decoy.
This feels so much better than the former emptiness of numb.
Chosing the lesser evil, the less bad kind of empty.
Dec 2013 · 379
Stepping back
Daan Dec 2013
I see the way you act around them,
see, finally, what you really are.
I'm taking steps to show myself
I turn around and take steps to

get away from you and all your
pretty lies, all your enigmas and
mysteries, I don't want to be a part
of your world anymore, you must

be some kind of witch for taking and
crushing all those hearts, at least mine
is one you'll never take, or I will take it
back, just like steps but different, motorical

moment, I am taking back my words, now
I'll run past your beautiful riddles, step back!
Dec 2013 · 301
Click
Daan Dec 2013
A change of heart has to be made
by them and me. It has been laid
into my hands, I have to act before,
it stood, now it fell, before even more

of my kind get hurt. But all I can do
is nothing, I can't alter their desires.
A click is on their to do list, but who
has already made one? So our wires

can be crossed and our paths connected.
I don't want to keep being neglected
by the girl I love so much and I don't
want to seem desperate but I won't

be able to not be, I am less than common,
just like the girl I'm looking for, a woman.
Dec 2013 · 564
disqualified
Daan Dec 2013
She didn't even have the chance to finish.
It's winter, lady, less lady-like than before.
For every day in my past, I still do wish,
things hadn't changed, I loved you more

when you were unreachable. I lost sense
along the way, and now I'll never find it
back. She is not who I thought she was,
my glass could have shattered long ago.

Afraid of commitment, afraid to commence,
even though the chances are so small, fit
for a hospital of simple minds. It still does
make me reminisce the blow, although,

the signs say different things, my mind can
get to ease. After all that is my favourite plan.
some bridges were built last week, today I'm tearing them down.
Just to let this river flow freely.
Dec 2013 · 420
Foreign language
Daan Dec 2013
I'm not sure which one of us is native
to this country we are trying to found.
But we just can't understand eachothers
words, even signs are easy to misinterpret.

Linked but not knowing, just guessing,
looking forward to caressing, blessing,
every way that helps us find the other
half. Our plans, needless to say, creative,

aren't working for a single bit, but you
don't seem to care, then why should I?
Looking back to those days I had to count
every single second, waiting for reply.

Fire the interpreter, we have no further need of
him, we'll just make up our own ways of tongue.
Dec 2013 · 547
Damn
Daan Dec 2013
History repeats itself, fallen into my
own traps, setup long ago, still working.
No place left to run, options, ran out,
running, passing signs, can't read them,

running too fast. Trying to hold thy
from drifting further and further away.
I don't know what other dangers are lurking,
Doubting about switching to another route.

If I mind? I guess not, didn't have much she'd pay
for anyway. But I can't find another gem,
so why bother searching, this one's right there!
Treasure hunting, risky, thrilling, grasping for air,

now real treasure is closeby, I can see it's
perfect shine, still a long way to go before I can know
if it fits.
the truth is, I don't want any other gems
Dec 2013 · 433
Constant fear
Daan Dec 2013
We lost our purpose, filled with shame,
returning, horseless, to where we came
from, what I've heard, some mysteries
have fallen and words were broken down.

When she is around I feel like the clown
dating back from long ago, history's
ill remembered stories still told today.
I would make it all undone, if you say

so I will do so, all if it could change, strange
how during I was so proud and sure
but now I cry out loud looking for a cure.
Walking around, gazing upon the sky,

why did I have to act, with sorrow, is this my
best as possible? Because then I fear tomorrow.
Caught up in the moment, decisions created to fail, chosen and experienced
not the best idea.
Dec 2013 · 609
what makes us more
Daan Dec 2013
What it takes to make us two, why it
makes us work for everything that
we hold dear, held dear and will be
holding onto until we finally see,

we are nothing more and never will
be, ought to be and never were, it's
like a spinning, working, useless mill
still spinning, working but nothing fits

inside, nothing is knead by it's monstrous
wings, eventually we all become, subconscious-
ly, every single one of us will be, that mill. You can
deny and try to not be but you'll fail. Acceptance,

all hail acceptance. I can't argue with my fate.
Just try to make it more, fool, it's already too late.
Be that fool, surprise me, for I cannot surprise myself.

'Because we're all just cynics on the run'
Nov 2013 · 1.1k
Shy girls
Daan Nov 2013
Extroverted goes great with introverted.
Supposed to be extrovert in search of
beautiful, yet honourable girl, to pay
attention to. Even though I don't have

courage or a great body, I'll try to win
her over. It's showering with closed eyes,
searching for the faucet, hoping to pick
the right side, or maybe left. Waiting

for the water to drip on my soft, not
hairless skin. Will it be too hot, too cold
or just perfect? Then there's still shampoo
to worry about, better smell the bottle first.

Suddenly the water comes out, first dripping,
cold, then flowing, warm. Too much tension for me.
Nov 2013 · 1.1k
Let's go diving
Daan Nov 2013
I have all my materials, a bathingsuit and
everything my tutor gave me. I love
to dip my leg in the water up to my
knees to check if the fluids are good.

But last week, when I knew I would
have to jump, I sabotaged myself, o why,
did I have to climb the ladder of
that springboard, I could not hand

myself some help, now I could not
feel the water. I had to jump without
the checking, it felt rather nerve-racking.
So I took the leap of no return, only south.

I went in head first, lessons didn't help a lot.
It was never the brightest idea, selftuition.
At least I climbed the ladder with succes.
Nov 2013 · 317
For you
Daan Nov 2013
Where do I go, what can I do,
is this what's supposed to
be happening or is it a state
of confusion blinding my faith?

I can't wipe all these question marks
away, I am not gifted by sparks
to lead my way, I am not all knowing
but hoping you could stay, going

to every place, hoping to find you,
trying to seal the hopes in cages,
behind and in bars, betting wages,
deal the cards, I feel lucky tonight.

Nothing for today, but everyday
for your hand I'll stride and fight.
I hopes you're worth it.
Nov 2013 · 901
not so stainless steel.
Daan Nov 2013
Second place achieved, after cheating.
You can say I have failed, I was beaten,
it's true, I lost. My number one did not
let me win, let me in, gave me hope

and now I have to cope with the feelings,
mixture of much, turns out to be just one,
indignant. The country loves his winners,
losers are not worthy. I'm more into blues.

Rock her world, making plans, another
man's idea, my misery, it's easy to understand.
Yet I'm the only one who does. I told you
I was wrong and sorry and hopeless.

Now, 24 seconds after timeless, countlessly,
trying, I give up. I am made to be second.
I guess I didn't even have to cheat after all
I'll never win.
Daan Nov 2013
You never told me exactly what you
were thinking, never made me feel
like a difference in your life. Am I
that worthless or is it not your style?

We've been with eachother for a while
and after all these years or days, do
you still adore me, touch me , love my
every move? If I'm the onion, peel,

my every layer till you see the center.
You can change me on the inside.
But you never grabbed your chance.

It is your heart I wish to enter,
open up your thoughts real wide,
I'll make our love continue the dance
Nov 2013 · 632
badly mistaken
Daan Nov 2013
I've been pushing far beyond my limit.
Still, no reply, as if I don't exist, as if
I am not recognized. Autumn is coming.
The flowers can feel it, the trees can feel it.

Woodland critters shivering up in their
safe, warm nests. Only caring for food,
survival and continuing their race. Race
back to your home, you don't belong here.

Even though he tries so hard to be a part
of the life she lives, again carelessly, maybe
stuck with someone else inside her head.

I shouldn't care any less or more. Even when
I care too much, it's just right. The wind is
tearing me apart, yet I am up in my safe,
warm nest.
Oct 2013 · 345
When you do
Daan Oct 2013
The one horse no one wants to ride
the one piece of fruit, so beautiful inside
that no one wants to eat. Always about
me, why not someone else this time?

Listen to me whine, listen to my fears.
People see me as a rotten apple, am I
as bad as soap for dinner, mixed with
onions just to make me burst out into tears.

Tears that make me see, shut my mouth
and see, though the sight is blurred, why
the king of running sometimes falls. Climb
untill you could fall, as high, as no one could.

Yesterday I've learned something I should
have learned a while ago, I understand the myth.
Oct 2013 · 3.4k
brick by brick
Daan Oct 2013
build it, brick by brick and if a brick
was built with wrong instructions,
throw the brick away and create a
new one. Put it next to the first one.

Stop, destroy the wall you've made.
Just talk to her, stupid.
( the last wall I've built is still there,
denying acces to a part of my life,
the life I could have been living. )

- I wish I hadn't read this one again. (2019 edit)
Sep 2013 · 547
Random trains
Daan Sep 2013
I won my ticket 5 months ago, by accident,
now I just had to take this particular train.
A little boys balloon just popped, no
one seems to care. I walk towards the

bench and sit down. The woman next to
me quickly looks away. Girls pass by,
subtle eye contact, no feelings, just plain
observation. It hurts to be neglected, the

little boy is crying too. There it comes,
there it comes. Excitement flowing through
every muscle in my body. But a man selling
balloons walks by, I can't leave now, quick, decide!

I thought about running after that train, thinking
about how my life could have been,
I bought two balloons that day
and a ticket for another train.
Sep 2013 · 386
the body
Daan Sep 2013
A man, walking up to another man,
while the wind blows snow to places
it would normally never reach. I dare
you to find someone who can

laugh right now. ' He slipped, sir.',
said the man with 2 daughters and
a divorce. They are twins and about
4 years old. But nobody knows or even

asks how the trial went. 'There is not
a thing we can do, wrap up people, we
are leaving', yelled the man without
friends or family or even a pet. Shivers

all over my spine as I split the bushes,
you found me, congratulations, you won.
Sep 2013 · 392
slow reader
Daan Sep 2013
Is he savouring the words,
enjoying every bit?
Is he annoyed and does
he hate reading?

Nobody knows,
but the books he tries
to read are out of his league.
Aug 2013 · 637
Ticklish
Daan Aug 2013
You can't tickle yourself, you can
not surprise yourself. I don't want
to make love, well I do, but I'd rather
share love, feel love..

I end up getting hurt before it starts.
The cage doesn't know about imprisoning
the bird.
Who do you want to be,
the cage or the bird?

You just might surprise yourself.
I'm always the bird, I'd never even notice being the cage.
Aug 2013 · 300
yet once more
Daan Aug 2013
For how long have I been craving
and how much time have I been
waiting to tell you what my most
desiring emotion has been the past

couple of months, but yet again I was
too late, I had no chance, she has no
clue, 'bout how I've failed, she does not
notice what my heart carries along.

Yet once more another guy swoops by
all my dreams are crushed, my house
collapsed, though I have been building

it for years. Is he that much better, or
am I simply not enough? If I had told
would it have helped? I hope not.
Aug 2013 · 305
Destiny or choice
Daan Aug 2013
It's your pick, pull yourself together.
Some lay it in the cards, or the metal ball,
glass orbs and skulls or maybe dice.
You'd better choose already, cause the

way you're acting now is only making
it harder, the question bigger and the
answer further, further away from you.
Do you think you were meant to be together?

Would you have chosen eachother if
the circumstances were different? Or
was it never a choice, was it destiny?
Would you choose eachother again?

Chances are, when we think we know why we
chose eachother, we understand we never did.
Didn't spell check this one.
I'm not always a perfectionist,
sometimes I choose not to be one.

I hope it's destiny, cause I don't want to choose.
Aug 2013 · 284
below average
Daan Aug 2013
To all the girls out there who want
a guy to do everything for them. I know
all you wish for is a man with confidence
who also happens to be attractive.

Knowing it is for my own good is not
enough. Give me something extra in
return and I will make a fool of myself
for everyone to see if that is what you

desire. Desiring you is my curse in the
morning, trying more is it in the middle
of the day. In the evening it is failing and
at night it's crying for another way.

Maybe you've already showed signs,
maybe not, I just want to make it sure.
And if I am, in person, not enough for you I will know by giving up that
that makes two.
Jul 2013 · 330
the distance
Daan Jul 2013
How can I or my body crave
you or your attention so very grave
When I have not even said more
than the simplest greetings while your

skin has not even met mine in ways
I would imagine. It is not you
who is my most desire, it is only
the image my mind prepares

But if it truly were you in person
that would travel further than
my mind could be, far beyond all

I ever could imagine, my only fear
is that the distance between us is even
greater than the distance I could run.
Do I believe in love at first sight? Instincts carry me to my most foolish hour, where I try to do so much for someone I don't know. I do wish to know you, I'm certain we will meet. Save yourself for me for I have already done the same for you.

(I have different versions in my notebook, but this one seems ok)
Jul 2013 · 988
Tragic
Daan Jul 2013
I can imagine how my dad must've felt
everytime I asked a question during
one of those films we watched together,
as a family. I was too young to concentrate.
In fact I still can't concentrate on movies.
I'm writing this while watching one.
Even when I don't concentrate, I have
noticed the important things. I'd prove
to you that I am different, but I can't.
I guess that makes me just another living soul
Determined by his actions, past and present.
If not his actions it's his looks or hobbies that are judged
Still this universe is closer to utopia any universe will ever be.
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