Today is the day
I abandoned my hope
Today I stopped climbing
This unbeaten *****

It was silly to think
that I might be successful
'Cuz this rigged competition
is nothing but stressful

All of my dreams
And all my desires
They've all been abandoned
Thrown into the fires

What point is there in fighting
When the war is already lost
While the other side is celebrating
And I'm left here in the frost

I lost my grip on the hill
And I quickly started to fall
I tried to cry out for help
But no one heard my call

Now I'm stuck at the bottom
Of some deep and dark well
Trying to tread water
At the icy mouth of hell

Slowly
                   *Sinking

Lives among us never change
the story remains the same
times don't change
and most importantly neither do we

Men come of boys
rebel against their fathers
love their mothers
and hate the world they've just inherited

Women come of girls
grow apart from their shame
and blossom complete and true
ready to tend a world loved by few

Sacrifices made
are for none
are for one another
and for themselves.

Risks are taken
rules are breakn'
Smiles of ours faken

We grow to love the lost
And regret
never realizing
how good we had it

until it

like life

is gone.

I ****** up in the past,
I ruined what we had.
Yet here I tried again,
Perhaps I am just Mad.

I thought that it would work,
I expected something new,
I tried so very hard,
Fueled by thoughts of you.

I know you have your faults,
And things you think are flaws.
Yet you're beautiful to me,
But I can't do it anymore, because...

You lie when it's convenient,
Your guilt trips hurt, you see.
You sit and watch as I try,
yet the only one trying is me.

I put my hand out to you,
Begged you not to walk away,
Yet you made up your mine, left.
Not caring what I had to say.

I said things out of anger,
Some things I do regret.
Let things get out of hand.
Perhaps unfixable, but yet...

You're still beautiful to me.
Even if you're gone for good.
As hard as I tried to make you smile,
Maybe I just never really understood.

I'm not the man you need,
Nor the one you wanted.
Maybe I'm just not good enough,
such thoughts, I'm constantly haunted.

And now I don't know how to fix it.
I don't even know if I can.
Most likely I've already lost you
To a much better man.

I don't know what to do now.
And I don't know how to do it.
I thought it was going so well.
Now happiness turns to ****.

Disappointment and Pain,
knowing now you're gone forever.
I thought we could pull through it,
but now you've become my Never.

A world of treason, torture, lies
at the edge of a cliff
unburied
wrapped in
years of a loving,
a wordless deceit

shapeless
on fire from
the first
brings with it
shame,
and knowing defeat.