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Syll Mar 2020
Tearing up my skin,
Shattering my mind,
This battle I can’t win,
War is never kind.

Breaking my bones,
Shredding my soul,
I want to go home,
The skirmish taking its toll.

Snapping my patience,
Bending reality,
The battle is intense,
The truth hard to see.

I want God to win my soul,
The devil is a stinken troll.
Syll Nov 2019
When will your suffering end?
It will in time.
When will you break your bad habit?
It will take time, but you will be able to overcome.
When will you be okay again?
You will be soon, just keep fighting.
When will the bad thoughts go away?
Over time, they will dissipate.
It will be okay soon, you just have to hold on a little longer.
I was able to overcome my cutting habit, it took about 1 and a half to 2 years to realize what I was doing was wrong. Or a little longer. Now I have been six months without cutting. But I still struggle with horrible thoughts, I have them almost every day, and it is scary. I understand the feeling of hopelessness. But it will get better, we just need to hold on and keep fighting.
Syll Nov 2019
There are so many places.
I should know,
There are several places for me.
My arm, collar bones, ribs, and thigh.
I shouldn't do it.
I don't do it anymore.
There is still a great temptation.
But I can overcome.
I know I can overcome.
I'm so sorry for you who know what I am talking about. It is tough, I know that. But we can get through it.
Syll Nov 2019
Who could love a person who cuts?
Who could love a person who is suicidal?
Who could love a person that hates them self?
God could.
Who would cherish someone who is scarred?
Who would protect someone who is scared?
Who would accept someone who is hurting?
God would.
Who could heal their broken soul?
Who could save their weary heart?
Who could restore their wounded mind?
God could.
Who would care for their shattered spirit?
Who would fix their dark thoughts?
Who would bear their burdens?
God would.
God saved us from our sins,
He can heal us.
We are His children.
God loves us so much that he sent His Son to die for us. He can save us from the darkest thoughts, He can heal our scars.
Syll Aug 2020
Yes, she's a cutter...
But she is so much more...
She is a warrior...
She fights her demons every day...
Yes, she's a cutter...
But God still loves her anyway...
He helps her fight and slay her demons...
She is His child...
Don't mess with her.
I recently relapsed 2 weeks ago, and it had been a year and three months since I had cut when I did it. But I won't let that slip up control me.

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