Brain chemistry finds logical
To put things together
With all that there is to recall
It's taking forever
Our scientists may understand
All the whims of matter
We may just never learn to stand
How the world walks further

We know the way some particles
Just hold on together
And it's said among articles
It's been since forever
In life there's only chemicals
And things that don't matter
But we'd prefer our chronicles
Would go along further

How long does it last
When it's forever
Rolled into the past
Running a fever
True colors, broad cast
One day as ever

All together, done
When another eon lies
Folding into none
Lows and highs
Whispers of old stone
Buried in the skies

Past time paralized
In incessant news
Eternal life sized
Waves of letting loose
Surfaces incised
From current abuse

Whatever goes back
Whatever waters away
Slips into the cracks
Only a matter of day
Some days cut deep
Most are lost to sleep

Nobody knows what's good for them
That's why we need to know everything
Make sense of the world
Or it will make sense of you
If you can please the words
If you cannot let them please you
And like a train the roundabout
Got us all in our seat
It is the road to anywhere
But not many places
Lead from here

My brain is the purgatory of thought
Always busy jumping fences
I have to read past sentences
To know what I'm talking about

Things just happen without mercy
Nonsense nothings no consensus
Reminding me I can't focus
Mind in constant adhocracy

Past reminders of things to do
Taped on and forgotten on walls
After one too many night falls
They're no longer anything new

Everything just scatters aside
Now where did I just put my keys
My things are like a swarm of bees
I need to take a step outside

What is obvious to you
Is not to me
And frankly I don't know
This has to be
That's why I won't
Do what you tell me
Because it's really not
Obvious to me

Surely the truth
Is far beyond me
Maybe I'm wrong
And words aren't free
Epiphany may come
Another day
A misunderstanding
In the way

And I don't know
What to believe
There might not be
Right ways to live
But beneath the point
It all seems
To lose oneself
Into common dreams

So randomly some times I feel like myself again
I can't fathom how things went this way
It's quite a thing to have so much been in vain
So much happens while I'm away

I have no idea what you're talking about
Let's talk a bit about today
Let us stay beyond any doubt
I'm glad everything is okay

There's been a lot happening still
Today several seasons worth
More time than anyone could fill
We keep walking but our feet can't feel the earth

Strange figures sleepwalking by
Dancing through nightfall on their lips
With half rotten half guilty smiles
For all those who would touch their hips

They must have such beautiful eyes
To dare looking us in the face
Strange figures sleepwalking by
Would go anywhere but their place

Stained people gliding down by
Drinking through their mind with a straw
Getting ready again to fly
They can't remember what they saw

They must have such powerful minds
To find the strength to run away
Stained people gliding down by
Won't let anyone in their way

Lovely sheppherd starring in the night
Keeping a loose eye on her sheep
Wanting to say we're supposed to dream
And dreams we need to fall asleep

She must have such a pretty face
To make everyone so afraid
Lonely shepherd starring in the night
Just sad there's nothing new to say

That was bound to happen
Some things mean too much to be otherwise
Pressed in place like pillars
Dress a ceiling of truth

Accidents only happen once
It was their only shot
Sometimes you're just along for the ride
Dreaming that you're wasting away

Have you been drowning in today
For too long maybe
Tomorow probably
You'll be breathing yesterday

I am
Sorry
I have no idea
What I mean
To
Say
It's just
like the filter is broken
I don't know any ins and outs
Some sort
Of Fog of war
I can't
It's all around
All I hear
Is thoughts over your voice
All I see
Is something new
Of course
If I knew how to speak
I could tell you
insanely beautiful
Things
But I'm
Reduced
To
This

Move away
I want to hear my own sound
Rejoice
Over what is lost and found
By the way
I think I missed your phone call

Memories
Lost touch with reality
Some day
One with a cloud of eternity
Time left
As it was written on the wall

I could have known you
But I wasn't myself
A book far from view
To be left on its shelf
Forgotten memories
Of what could have been had
Out of place reveries
No more dreaming to add

I don't know who you are
But I tried to learn
Afraid to go too far
In the distance I burn
Out of nowhere and back again
Another friend lost
Let's meet nobody then
Make sure no one is crossed

We are the same
Just as everyone else
We keep things tame
Lest we fall as ice melts
And drown in the expanse
Of the void between souls
Timidly yearn to dance
With our own kinds of fools

Walled in
High at the
Top of a
Peak
I can tell all around

Peaking
From a
million windows
I can see just fine

I put
My ear
Down to the
Cold floor
I can hear every sound

Alone
I wait for them
To show their face
'Cause I can't see mine

I'm sorry if it's getting dark
It's the wind that pushed us that way
Just have a short walk through the park
We'll do our best to get away
Some people like watching the clouds
And remember their shape before
They lifted appart from the crowds

And in the crowds today they said
That they'll soon figure something out
They know what they're seeing, they said
It's not the end it's just a drought
Some people like watching the crowds
Giving strange names to everything
And telling us the shape of clouds

I lost my taste in life
A while ago
But there's something about you
That picks me up to go
Around this daily thing
The daze turns out a phase
I drink up from your spring
And my thoughts are ablaze
Twisting in your sugar
I remember today
Suddenly no longer haggard
And now this morning is okay

This sort of thing
is one of the rare kind
in a lifetime
That, meanwhile you're cruising
Along in the seemingly
more or less homogeneous
lethargic repetitiveness
Of day to day life,
kindly makes you go

What the ****

They say people are scared
And so you are
They say many are outraged
And so you come to be
They got you swinging on a leash
Watching them grinding their teeth
Your eyes ready for the leap
Their pendulum set

Waves in the air, you switch sides
You get colours with sounds, your head slides
They show there's  nothing out of here
Tell us that the end is near
We believe in the things we see

Remember what you saw in streams
Nothing really
Ever seemed to burst at the seams
The world you want everywhere
And out of reach
High in the common dream

They said people were scared
And so you are
They said people were outraged
And still red you see
They got us pulling on the leash
They got us showing our teeth
We change the world when we know
How it came to be

We're on our way out and still there is
Nothing to see
I don't even know why you are still
Speaking to me
Honestly think I have discharged myself
Honorably
But the world still feels like I made
An enemy

Back then when the truth was granted
We didn't care
We made a many headed beast
Out of thin air
Gladly set up our bright red flags
In New Nowhere
Then we climbed up our last mountain
And nothing there

Sometimes the answer is right there
In broad daylight
You can't see it through your foggy
Daily delight
Meanwhile we're connecting the dots
With all our might
We recall words are meaningless
And then we write

Feeling somewhat rotten inside
But not really knowing where it went wrong
Looking into no place to hide
Doing what it takes to go along
Wear whatever face that suits you
The tone of things just elicits nonsense
Lying awake dreaming of few
memories when the stars did align

Be whatever has to be you
It is fine to be seeming so bemused
When one's always starting anew
Some things have to bear being used
Stop keeping fingers in your backs
to point on what you don't believe belong
You've really just been losing tracks
And it very well may just be lasting ever long

Why yes of course the devil knows !
No way he's sitting out that one
And no matter how the world flows
Try to utter the word that won, I guess ?
Anything that may help soothe the burns
Of being constantly irate
Helpless, unable of concern
Alone and inconsiderate

Someone has to be wrong
It's written in the rule of things
Cannot keep up, on time for long
Until the end it will pull on your strings
You stole your own soul
Please bring back one when you're finished
Orbiting near the monopole
Finding out that every thing vanished

It walks and runs
It sees, it follows
Anything in their path
It swallows
The crowd runs deep
A million feet
Comes to smother
You in faces
By and gone ! An other
Probably off to the races
Locked inbetween polite blank stares
And many strange rules the crowd bears

I'm putting clues out into the universe
I seem to always find new ones
Lost in the past stuck walking in reverse
I can see only days ago

I'm making sense of something that doesn't
Put it right back onto the pile
Discarded bits of thought by the dozen
Fresh memory from days ago

Something's not right with the way the world looks
Water feels dry air sounds filtered
I wonder what is left for the history books
It was still like that days ago

Look down a while and you'll find stranger things
Nothing can get past true boredom
I let my body walk while I'm pulling the strings
It started running days ago

Accept the mystery
Of the deep unknown
Lost to history
The unseen you own
To fulfil your dreams
Don't step on others'
With so many teams
Nobody bothers
Lay the words in pages
And lay the pages up
Hold them through the ages
The world will never stop

Can you teach a bee
How to be an egoist ?
Would you take a knee
If you were told to ?

How high's the limit
On how much the walls can speak ?
Teach a cat to sneak up on you
and you now when it does

However, fine
Don't truly believe in anything
How do you know
What you'd change ?
How could you see
That you're believing

Some days are the lasts of their kind
Fly away unknown bound to thrive
When something comes back
It has always been there

Like dust
Floating through the air
Watching people stare
And I wonder what it is that I do
The thinking isn't real
The being doesn't feel
And I wonder what that's supposed to mean
Between there
And nowhere
I don't think I get to choose
I'm on the air
And some is mine
Along the day
Along the night

Like dust
Floating
Falling
Foreshadowing
Drawing faces on a cloud
Seeing
Feeling
Mysticizing
Going places no one would
I don't know why
I don't know where
I don't know that much at all
I keep eating through the air
I keep screaming at the wall

Floating by my face spiraling smoke into the night
On one too many restless evening a new ember I light
Never care for what I'm looking for
I never know what I'll see
I don't remember what was life before
What tomorrow came to be

You might lose your sanity to intellect
But you can't lose your soul to love
From whom you might smile with delect
For what you place up and above

You might find you cannot pretend
To anywhere beyond a map
To anyone before yourself
Exist it does and time I spend
Everyone's wrapped up in this trap
Swinging along atop the great bookshelf

A window from another world
To open time, and times again
So you can see those words we hurled
Out of our eternal fear, in vain

Running down the lost track
Every shadow disappears
Breathing in midnight's black
Sends you feeling many fears

Pulsating fleeting lights
A periphery of dreams
Flying in the void of nights
Gliding in infinite streams

Ground is hard and fear's shallow
Step around its many teeth
It gives you orders to follow
From all around and from beneath

Whenever I find meaning I lose words
For all the subtle ways
Beauty dresses this dreadful world
I improvise away
In hopes others don't get lost
Seeking for too long
What they like to do the most
And where their thoughts belong

We're all gonna make sense one day
Just in time
As we finish thinking through yesterday
We'll just tell it in rhyme

Lost in contextual warfare
We truly have no word to spare
If we should ever get a clue
On what we believe to be true
Matter of mind, remind later
Learn to spell out endless chatter
Wouldn't mind bending heuristics
Around unfortunate metrics

Another morning to reset
The pawns on which the sun will set
And some times feel like providence
Made so you could tell evidence
Morality monopoly
Lobotomized territory
Hide luck beneath the thinking feed
Be mindful of the word you breed

It falls like rain
Simple and plain
Dropplets riddle
Each other
And the ground moves them
Together

And in a pool
Recallers whirl
Darting away
As if
Run by some fool
Swiming like they would never reach the floor

Well you just stepped
In little waves
On which God knows how many wept
But where painters
Got their own caves

Okay
I will let the world choose for me
They say
Things are the way they had to be
No way
Could ever truly set one free
𝘖𝘶𝘪 𝘮𝘢𝘪𝘴
There is always enough to see

Today
Such a weird name for memories
Decay
Keeps making everything at ease
Away
Is where we always put the keys
Let's play
With many words and open seas

You sold your soul
To cheat your way into peace
Chose a well lit old path
To keep clear of your own
Discovered many tastes
Of second hand unknowns
Tried what was already true
And then you faded away

Virtue tickles good spirits
With the stroke of many feathers
Touches every peaceful mind
Beyond their wildest dreams
Imagination waking up
On the grass of a fresh abyss
With everywhere to begin with
And whatever else to miss

Eyes looking for an horizon
Still have faith in the end
In a foggy smooth apathy
Hunger ate itself out
"Another piece" you think
Trying to unsee a fool
Hiding in a dream of mirrors
Out of the blue then back again

Yet you're keeping it cool
Gliding the day away
Not a foot on the ground
Clear as sky as always
Everything's lost to the wind
Nothing was meant to stay
Remember, new tomorrows
Further forget today

I don't believe
I'm being sane
I spent so many times in vain
And the troubles
Keep gaining ground
No one believes the things I found

Feels like
I made another stain
I'm not sure if
I'm feeling pain
Just following predilections
Always trusting precognitions

I'm not sure what
I mean to say
Feels like so much
Has gone away
Forgot to put salt on my wounds
Of course you know
The things I've found

There's a chip in the crystal ceiling
I can see it from there
Printing down shards of the outside world
Softly pushing among the dust

Light is flashing along the rust
Figures stood still  and  shadows whirled
A distinct smell of walls populates the air
And colours look unappealing

In a foreign land some silhouettes dancing
They keep bringing kids to the fair
and at some point the surroundings curled
In deeper dreams and further disgust

You have
My undivided
Attention
But I like to keep
My arms on the raillings
As you walk
Such thoughtful
Radiation
Carreens over the hills
Falls into the skies
I may sense
A small bit
Of tension
But it's lost to the wind
And caffeine clouds

And the world moved once again
In a brand new way
And as a whole another night fell
Over some mourning stars
We stand on the edge of the pit
Fishing for new memories
Walking the way we taught ourselves to
Putting our souls in jars

You have
My undivided
Attention
But I don't believe I
Can give you my thoughts
We run an
Undisclosed
Dimension
Where our days bathe
In the morning to die
In all
Our staunch
Indecision,
We know

I 𝘢𝘮 sane,
don't ask again
Dig your own hole,
fill it with rain

Silence falls when I'm left alone with myself
Silent songs
Sing from the shelf

I better hold my aim
The sun may shine another day
Let it go don't let it reign
Or every day will feel the same

I better hold my aim
Or I won't get another day
Everybody's just the same
Let it go don't let it reign

I am fine,
don't ask again
In my hole,
feeling the rain

Silence stayed, and I'm face to face with myself
Silent songs
Fly from the shelf

I better hold my aim
The sun will rise now any day
And everything may stay the same
I don't care I'll let it reign

I better hold my aim
The sun will shine a thousand days
There are no rules to this game
Just let it go, let it reign

You look so pale
Must have not finished your vegetables
You look in pain
But there's something else on the table
In case you don't know
I'm dealing with my own fables
If you're asking me
I think you make a huge gamble

Sow the seeds of doubt
I know the truth will never grow
The dirt on others
Shouldn't really affect my glow
I know what is right
You forgot to enjoy the flow
Enjoy the great gift I bestow
I don't only do this for show

They told you what ?
I think that you should know better
Don't get held up
On think that should never matter
You know what is real ?
Their airs will just make you madder
Don't talk about me
I'm doing things by the letter

For all the thoughts
Lost in decency
Like hell we fought
To save our apathy
We lead the way
But won't show you back
You're there to stay
It's all on your back
The dreams, the sorrows
The anthems, the wings
Not much tomorrows
Way too many kings
We are alone
Without you along
Our skies are gone
And yours won't stay long

I wish there was something again
I wish there would be something new
I wish it wouldn't stay that way
But I don't remember if I care

I think I know where I'm going
But I'm not sure I remember
There's no reason to stay away
There's nothing to stay away from

And here I go rambling again
I seem to think that it would help
I don't know what I do again
Was anyone else living there ?

I'm so afraid of those who talk
Because I feel like I cannot
My words aren't the ones I thought
Their world isn't the one I'm in

And maybe we all kept writing
Just so we could talk to ourselves
While wild memories **** us off
The one who's left would maybe learn

And maybe he will not look back
He'll let us die just like we did
I could say that I am sorry
But I'm not sure I believe it

There's no reason to be sorry
Nothing in there I would preserve
Wouldn't show anyone on earth
Why would I show that to myself

Why did I show that to myself
What in the hell was I thinking
There's a thousand of other way
Yet there's the one I can think of

Is there at all logic in there ?
Am I the one bound to try this ?
I've been doing it everyday
Twenty more minutes gone away

Well maybe I won't sleep tonight
I feel I really don't want to
Me tomorrow won't remember
And all day long he'll have to learn

Maybe he'll find sleep in his night
Maybe he'll find the clue I missed
Or maybe he will delete this
He'll try to find out a new way

What is poetry anyway
Some people like to write novels
Because it's like a trip abroad
poetry's just stepping outside

Maybe it's better improvised
Maybe you can't chose what you do
Or did I chose so long ago
Twenty more minutes gone away

I'm just listening to some guy
Talking over the internet
About some pretty mystery
He makes such pretty videos

This is the third time I watch it
I have no idea what he said
I just wish there was something new
Twenty more minutes gone away

People read whatever they want
I'm only writing this for you
I can't pretend that I make sense
But that's something you always knew

Twenty more minutes gone away
I wish I'd have found something new
I've been looking everywhere now
You'll try again 'cause I know you

In two hours I have to walk
With people who know I can't sleep
And most of them are pretty nice
but there's nothing that they can do

Twenty more minute gone away
I haven't found anything new
The me I am today is tired
I am waiting for tomorrow's

I really should stop this thing now
Throw this down to the internet
To folks I know nothing about
I'm sure this is a good idea

So what did you learn ?
Did this make any sense to you ?
Tell me what you saw
Because I need to hear something new
I've been everywhere
But it always looked the same

So how did you do ?
Has it always been just good enough
Or have you seen
What we've all been waiting for
I've seen everything
But it always ends the same

Look into my eyes
Do they mean anything to you ?
What did you expect ?
Can you tell me what I want ?
I know all of you
And you never think the same

Now what did I miss
Thought I figured it out with you
You almost got it
There's something here that we can't see
And we all miss it the same

I don't tell you what to think
I'm showing you what I found
In my travels on the brink
In all this watching around
Open your eyes and just sink
You will never hit the ground
Dig into oceans of ink
Travel a land out of bound

We had us feeling monstrous
I'm telling you what I've seen
Truth first comes from the unconscious
Before we don't know where it's been
We're peddling hallucinations
Finding the way to new fears
On our onboard televisions
But it is music to our ears

Tell good from bad and run across
There is still time to get it wrong
Just keep on running at a loss
Because the road is very long
Find a way through each other's eyes
To tell a stranger the same
What's right with many little lies
As long as no one ruins the game

There's been so many strange things
It's getting hard to keep track
We struck unusual feelings
And gave it all a righteous wack
Constant contextual action
In our historical outburst
Nausea's a common reaction
When stepping foot on something cursed

It's a different kind of order
Laying beneath the flying moon
Through blades of grass, mindless fodder
I know the clouds are leaving soon

And right on time mine is about
Shameful visions crawling away
Some better eyes may express doubt
I'm waiting like I know the day

Infinite stream, endless wonder
Just out of sight and everywhere
And then the space where dreams wander
Inbetween this all we're aware

What is up close will start to blur
When one just stops and looks away
And voices lost in the future
Will then begin to show the way

Adrift where everything is vague
Waves of meaning scatter around
Avoiding reason like a plague
Flying too high missing the ground

One look at the world that made you
Do you think that it thought it through ?
Another day another clue
Another dance around the *****

Some machine eye is watching me
Dots in the rain, no one to see
Witnesses things, can't focus none
Grabbed at my skin but my soul's gone

Electric sight and steely gaze
Captured my face for unknown eyes
Deep behind iron irises
A few million roads set ablaze

This machine eye keeps watching me
Looks in a way nobody does
Prints out all the air that touched me
Knows every pattern I'd compose

Electric sight and steely gaze
Sees through me hiding in this maze
From under iron irises
It couldn't care less where it is

And machine eyes keep watching me
Accounting on my sketchy ways
Gathering lines from my body
Draws perfect pictures as always

Electric sight and steely gaze
Bolted in an eternal daze
Before their iron irises
Watch as another day rises

Please machine eyes keep watching me
For not from you I'd like to flee
Remember that I once was there
While you stay staring through the air

You eyes
Feel so very heavy
Right now
Just take a deep
Cool breath of air
And let your mind
Fill up with snow
Come back to where
You always were
Ominous peace
Surging below
Failing time in
The blank you stare
The voices you
Gently follow
Blissfuly blank
And empty
Magnetic words
Softly hollow
Crossing the void
To sound pretty
You're falling out
Below the flow
Forsaking your
Humanity

In the ether, touch,
In the colours, scent,
In the shadows, light

And the unmoved thinks
As the landscape, sinks
An older world flies

The alentours scream
So many outlines
Under the covers, resonate

Another cloud fell
And so many days
Under its cover, resonate

I don't want to be lame
But you know the truth stings
I wanna seek the flame
And let it burn my wings
To them it's all the same
Another picture springs
Can't keep it into frame
I fly around in rings

Nobody is to blame
We're all just sweet nothings
I want to play the game
See what history brings
I let faith hold my aim
Kept on hitting ceilings
But it is worth the shame
To know which way light swings

There is more truth to claim
Beyond the flutterings
Just see what life became
For all our past beings
Your fears will emerge tame
Wait until the cloud clings
And closer to the flame
Conjure warmer musings