Once upon a time
A day where people talked to each other
Where people used their voice
A day where people spent time outside
Where people enjoyed nature
A day where there were trees
Where animals lived amongst other animals

Now
Now people text
Now people stay quiet
Now people stay cooped up inside
Now people hate outside
Now people slaughter forests
Now people don’t see animals

Once upon a time
A day where people cared what you had to say
Where they would listen
A day where people loved
Where they had feelings
A day where people made noise
Where they played, laughed, talked

Now
Now people hate
Now people ignore
Now people hate
Now people ignore
Now people hate
Now people ignore

Once upon a time
A day where people hate what they didn’t understand
Where they killed the new
A day where killings happened
Where millions died
A day where kids were abused
Where kids were worked in bad conditions

Now
Now people understand
Now people take in the new
Now people save others
Now people are born
Now people taken care of kids
Now people have better conditions

Once upon a time
A day where little was know
Where people killed themselves accidentally
A day where threats could come true
Where dreams couldn’t
A day where people broke
Where people destroyed the unknown

Now
Now people know
Now people know the dangers
Now people stop threats
Now people follow through the dreams
Now people fix
Now people explore

Once upon a time
A day where the water was clean
Where pollution wasn’t a problem
A day where most we’re happy
Where depression was unknown
A day where there was love for everyone
Where everyone had a someone

One day I hope to find her
One day I hope to reunite with her
One day I hope to see her smile again
One day I hope to watch her dance again
One day I hope to see her face
One day I hope to play with her
One day I hope to talk with her again
I just hope that one day comes before tomorrow

I remember your face as if it was yesterday
When really
It was months ago
And you were in a casket

I wish I could’ve hugged you one last time
Knowing
I’d never see you again

People care more about money
More about wealth
More about appearances
More about having fancy houses
More about being popular
More about  receiving things for themself
More about themselves

While other care more about family
More about their friends
More about living
More about saving lives
More about changing the world
More about giving
More about others than them self



Which one would you want to be

As I drown in a pool of tears
I wish for it to get better
I wonder if I should fear
What’s after life
As I remeber what I didn’t get to do
The pool gets bigger
And I still wish
For it to get better
They try to pull me out
But it dosent work
And I’m left to die in my doubts
An angel so beautiful comes
And I think that it’ll save me
But I was so dumb
And it forces me to stay under
The angle of Death
And as I ride over my dead body
I realize there’s somebody
I can finally find
And so I do
And we are once reunited
By death

What’s my purpose
why am i here
what am i supposed to do
what am i supposed to accomplish
she was good at everything
everything
and me?
i guess you could say
i’m good at
breathing?
why was i brought here
what am i supposed to do with my life

Roses are red
Violets are blue
And I love you

I will be black not blue

I will be filled with trash

I will be burnt and layers of ashes

Who are we
We are the sky you ****
The oceans that you ****
And the plants that you ****
And we’re not happy
And so we beg and beg you
Please save us before it’s too late
Please save us before we die
In silence

You saved me
You kept me close
You raised me
You took me in
You feed me
You were there for me
You gave me a family
You gave me life
You helped me with school
You made me who I am today

You are my savior

School
A place where people learn
School
A place where people make friends
School
A place where people get bullied
School
A place where people have the most stress
School
A place where people have anxiety attacks
School
A place that pays teachers way too less
School
A place that teaches the wrong info
School
A place to learn

i sit there and imagine
if anyone would notice
if I was gone

and i imagine
the world without me

i try to think of a reason
to stay
a purpose for me

i sit there and imagine
if anyone would even care
if i was gone

i try to think of a reason
for me to stay alive
if i will ever make an impact

i sit there and imagine
if anyone would help
if i needed it

i try to think of a reason
for life
but it seems I have writers block

i sit there and imagine
if anyone loves me
if anyone would ever

It seems I can’t think
of a reason to stay
next thing I know
The tile is stained red

We bonded
they fought
I tattled
She never told

You dont appreciate someone
until they are gone
and you are never to see them again

I loved her
did she love me
so many small things
that mean so much more
when they are gone
never to be seen again
except in pictures

if only there was just even one day they could come back
and we could spend time
and figure out why
and find out if she di- does love me

it's so hard to know
someone that is gone
it never gets better
always a hole in your heart
anyone who says it gets better
is lying

if what happens on October 31- to November 2 really happens
then i hope i can see her
if only i could've known
that the last time that i saw her
was the very last time i ever would see her

itll never get better
forever there will be a whole in my heart

for anyone who loses someone
im sorry
but it will never ever get better

i want to be able to be held
by someone i love
i want to be with
someone i love
i want to laugh
with someone i love
i want to cuddle
with someone i love
i want to feel alive
with someone i love
i want to have
someone
someone to be with
someone to love
someone to adore
someone to make me laugh
i want someone

I miss that feeing
that feeling of joy
with you
i wish i wouldn’t have taken it for granted
I miss that feeling
the feeling of us
together
I miss that feeling
the feeling of nothing
not having worries
I miss that feeling
the feeling of taking it for granted
being there with you
I miss that feeling
the feeling of you
you and me
I miss that feeling
i miss that smile
your smile
I miss that feeling
the feeling of-
of you
and I wish I didn’t take it for granted

i step in the car and instantly something feels off
he tells me therapy is canceled
i calmly say ok
i think what happened
does he have cancer again, has someone died
we come home and she’s pacing
she hugs my with tears in her eyes
brother comes home
and that’s when she tells us
your sisters gone

I wish I had the guts
To tell you how I feel
I wish I had the nerve
To  ask you how you felt
I wish I had the guts
To talk to you
I wish I had the nerve
To ask you five words

Five words everyone fears

I wish I had the nerve to ask you

“Will You Go Out With Me?”

The Human Race is rude and immature
The Human Race is kind and understanding
Which would you want to be known for?

No one ever asks
Are YOU ok
And when they do
I put on a mask
I hide my true feelings
To make them happy
To make it go away
They don’t see through it

They complain about their problems
They think they have it bad
But they don’t know true pain
They don’t understand
They don’t know how good they have it
They don’t know the pain they cause

They don’t know true sadness
They don’t know true pain

I put on a mask
I hide true self
I hide my flaws
I try to be perfect
I try to be average
I try to be like everyone else

I have no talents
I can’t do anything
I have no talents

I hear everyone getting compliments
I hear how everyone has it perfect
I act like I have it perfect
But they don’t see the mask I’m wearing

I don’t complain about how bad I have it
I just hide
I hide my pain
I hide my true self
I hide my flaws

I don’t have fun
I don’t have fun doing what I love
I can’t do what I love
I’m bad at everything

I wait for another like me
While I watch others with someone like them

I wait for me person to come
I wait for my “true love”
While I watch everyone else
With their love

I put on a mask
Acting like I’m happy
Acting like everyone else
Acting like I don’t hear them talking about me
Acting like their comment don’t hurt
Acting happy

While everyone else has it perfect
True happiness
What does that mean
Will I ever have it
Or will I just always wear a mask

I wear it to hide myself
To make everyone happy
Because they won’t worry about me
But why would they
  


•happiness•



<sadness>



They just dont understand my pain.

i want you
and it kills me to know
you don’t want me  

i watch you as you smile
with your friends
wishing i could smile with you

i wish you wanted me
and it kills me to know
you don’t wish for me

i watch you being you
wishing i could be
with you

i want to be with you
and it kills me to know
you don’t want me

you stole my heart
if only I could steal yours
then maybe just maybe
you would be mine

if only...

You make me smile
You make me laugh  
You make me nervous


You bring me joy

I* still remember color of your eyes,
and I do not think that you've remembered the color of mine.
I remember what your voice and heartbeat sounded like,
and I always dream of hearing them both one more time.
everyday, I hope you will call once more,
saying that you love me, the way I do.
I think its time I stop loving *you.

By my sister who is now six feet under

Little girl you went away
We know why you didn’t want to stay
You left us with broken hearts
Even with all the disagreements and all the anger
All could be healed with a hug and a smile
So many plans and dreams that can no longer com true
The world has lost your talent for music and art
but the greatest loss will be the sound of your laughter
Young women you have guns away again, never to come home
Friend, niece, granddaughter, sister, daughter
May you Rest In Peace but this hole in our hearts may never mend

I miss you
and i didn’t even have a chance to say goodbye
I thought I’d seen you again
I hope when it’s my turn I’ve changed the world
And no one else goes through your pain
I hope I get to see you again someday


I love you
I miss you.

I’ve already missed out
on so much
on being a brother
because if one person
who couldn’t see what they were doing
why would you rip apart a family like that
you’re the judge
but it seems like you didn’t judge hard enough
and because of you
my book
my story
my life
went down hill
and now
i have neither of my sisters
to laugh with or
to talk to
because of one
person

You think you know them
You think they are happy
But little do you know that are hiding behind a smile

Life
its the greatest risk we can take
one moment you could be having the time of your life
the next?
you lie in a pool of blood

One cold day
death stopped by
he wasnt here for me, I could tell
but instead
took someone I love
he took someone away from me forever
with just a snap of his fingers
She was gone

I dont love you anymore


and that was the last i heard of him

A hug
A smile
Even being noticed
Would be nice

When you woke up
You asked for her
You wanted her to be there
And so did we
You told us to call her
But we couldn’t
And all of the pain resurfaced

I had to leave once again
I wish I didn’t
But at least I saw you
I got to hug you
Laugh with you
Create more inside jokes
Play with you
But most of all
Make more memories with you

you can’t say it’s wrong
you can’t say it’s bad
if you’ve never been through it
you can’t have a valid opinion
until you’ve experienced it
so stop judging women
if you can’t understand it

I praise every woman and person of color
they have worked their way to their rights
shed blood
wars
and are still fighting for hundreds of years
and have come so far
i could never
i mean seriously
people have died
and fought for their rights
and STILL
they haven’t earned respect?
*******
maybe it’s time for people to grow up
and treat EVERYONE with respect
be an adult
smh
a fifteen year old is doing more than anyone over the age of 19 has ever done in years

can you not see it?
can you not see how much you make me smile
can you not see how i light up when you are near
can you not see how much you make me laugh
can you not see how much i love being around you
can you not see how obvious the signs are

are they not obvious enough
are they coming off as too much

or am I
just not good enough

it feels different
everything does
nothings as special
birthdays now just a day where you get older
christmas now just like any other holiday
it’s colder
the world is harsh
people are bitter
the earth is dying
everyone else also growing up
people getting more sad
other swallowed by darkness and death
shootings everywhere
no one paying attention to the real problems
hatred is becoming more present
everyone blinded by politics
and the politicians are corrupt

no one else can make me smile as much as you is it not obvious enough
or do i just not do the same. you are able to
light up a room can you not see that
all i see is you
nothing else, just you.

We are only visiting this world
So during our stay keep the world clean
We are only visiting this world
So during our stay keep the animals alive
We are only visiting this world
So during our stay keep green life a wonderful scene
We are only visiting this world
So during our stay keep the air breathable
We are only visiting this world
So during our stay keep the world clean