what i would give to have more time with them both
what i would give to see their smile
what i would give to see their eyes
What i would give to hug them
What i would give to say one sentence to them
What i would give to best their voice
WHat i would give to hold them
WHat i would give to feel their hair
WHat i would give to play once more with them both
WHAt i would give to listen to them
WHAt i would give to hear their laugh
WHAt i would give to eat with them
WHAT i would do to even hear them cry
WHAT i would give to do something they love
WHAT i would do to have more time with them both

what would you choose

dying first
to simply not have to live through the cruelty but let your family suffer through the pain?

yes? you’re selfish.  

or
watching your family die
not letting them to live the joy of their lives and putting them through emence pain but ending their misery and you go through the pain but get to enjoy the world

I wish I could see her face
I wish I could hug her
I wish I could talk to her
I wish I could hear her voice
I wish I could see her eyes
I wish I could spend time with her

how could he do this
how could god do this
is there even a god
how could he do everything to me
why me
why did it have to be me to bear all this pain
get one taken from you
and another one get buried six feet
why did it have to be me to go through everything
why did it have to be me to have no talents
why me
why was i chosen to be like this
why do i have to watch everyone live my dreams
why do i have to watch everyone love someone while i’m forced to sit back
why couldnt i be given something
something good
anything
besides this pain.

I wonder what it’d be like to meet you
I wonder why you did what you did
I want to meet, only to let you know
You tore my family and I apart
Because of you I’ve spilled too many tears
I wonder what it’s be like to tell you the damage you did
I wonder what’d it’d be like to ask you why you went against her wishes why you let her die
I wonder why you did the damage you did

I wish I was you
I envy you
Your talent
Your gift
Your amazing voice
Your fame
I wish I was you

You ruined me
You messed with me
You almost killed me
You tried to hide me
You stole my family
You didn’t care for me
You ruined me

Your smile lights up a room
Your laugh is contagious
You make my day
I always look forward to seeing you
Even though you don’t know it
It’s true
And I wish I could talk to you all the time