Once a year I get to see you
Once a year I get to laugh with you
Once a year I get to talk to you
Once a year I get to hang out with you
Once a year I get to eat with you
Once a year I get to smile with you

Then I say goodbye
Then I cry
Then I miss you
Then I frown
Then I wish you were here
Then I cry more


Then it all repeats
Every year
And I long to see you
Every year

I can’t help it
I’m just the way I am
I can’t help it
I’m just the way I am

They call me out
They yell at me
They try to change me
They pick me apart  

But I won’t stop
No I won’t stop
I keep on going
I keep on being me

And I won’t stop
No I won’t ever stop
No I’ll just keep on going
Keep on trying

Because
I can’t help it
It’s  just the way I am
I can’t help it
It’s  just the way I am

Once upon a time
A day where people talked to each other
Where people used their voice
A day where people spent time outside
Where people enjoyed nature
A day where there were trees
Where animals lived amongst other animals

Now
Now people text
Now people stay quiet
Now people stay cooped up inside
Now people hate outside
Now people slaughter forests
Now people don’t see animals

Once upon a time
A day where people cared what you had to say
Where they would listen
A day where people loved
Where they had feelings
A day where people made noise
Where they played, laughed, talked

Now
Now people hate
Now people ignore
Now people hate
Now people ignore
Now people hate
Now people ignore

Once upon a time
A day where people hate what they didn’t understand
Where they killed the new
A day where killings happened
Where millions died
A day where kids were abused
Where kids were worked in bad conditions

Now
Now people understand
Now people take in the new
Now people save others
Now people are born
Now people taken care of kids
Now people have better conditions

Once upon a time
A day where little was know
Where people killed themselves accidentally
A day where threats could come true
Where dreams couldn’t
A day where people broke
Where people destroyed the unknown

Now
Now people know
Now people know the dangers
Now people stop threats
Now people follow through the dreams
Now people fix
Now people explore

Once upon a time
A day where the water was clean
Where pollution wasn’t a problem
A day where most we’re happy
Where depression was unknown
A day where there was love for everyone
Where everyone had a someone

I will be black not blue

I will be filled with trash

I will be burnt and layers of ashes

Who are we
We are the sky you ****
The oceans that you ****
And the plants that you ****
And we’re not happy
And so we beg and beg you
Please save us before it’s too late
Please save us before we die
In silence

Roses are red
Violets are blue
And I love you

I miss you more than a dog loves it’s bone
I miss you so much you could hear my heart go *** ***, *** ***
I love you so much that when you left
My heart broke

Everytime you played the guitar
The flowers danced
It’s a shame
I didn’t get a chance
To say goodbye

I hope to see you again

So many lights
So many buildings
Very little trees and grass
So much pollution
Nothing is being done
To save us all
And sooner than later
We’re dead
Because we miss treated this beautiful planet
That gives us life
And for that
We **** it
And all other life in it
Like it’s a hobby
Like it’s fun
Like we’re in charge
NO
We aren’t
And I’m sorry future generations
For what we have done
We’ve slowly killed ourselves
With phones televisions
Drugs
I’ve learned this first hand
For I am having consequences
For what other people have done
For what people my age have done
For what other generations before me
Have done
And so I’m truly, from the bottom of my heart, sorry
And I need to make a difference so for anyone who sees this
Please help
Even if it’s picking up trash
Please do it
And save humanity

How could I have been so dumb
So stupid
You made me smile
You made me laugh
You lead me on
You ripped me apart
You tore me down
You made me think
That I found someone
That we had mutual liking
But i should gave known
That your too popular
But I should have known

We bonded
they fought
I tattled
She never told

You dont appreciate someone
until they are gone
and you are never to see them again

I loved her
did she love me
so many small things
that mean so much more
when they are gone
never to be seen again
except in pictures

if only there was just even one day they could come back
and we could spend time
and figure out why
and find out if she di- does love me

it's so hard to know
someone that is gone
it never gets better
always a hole in your heart
anyone who says it gets better
is lying

if what happens on October 31- to November 2 really happens
then i hope i can see her
if only i could've known
that the last time that i saw her
was the very last time i ever would see her

itll never get better
forever there will be a whole in my heart

for anyone who loses someone
im sorry
but it will never ever get better

School
A place where people learn
School
A place where people make friends
School
A place where people get bullied
School
A place where people have the most stress
School
A place where people have anxiety attacks
School
A place that pays teachers way too less
School
A place that teaches the wrong info
School
A place to learn

As I drown in a pool of tears
I wish for it to get better
I wonder if I should fear
What’s after life
As I remeber what I didn’t get to do
The pool gets bigger
And I still wish
For it to get better
They try to pull me out
But it dosent work
And I’m left to die in my doubts
An angel so beautiful comes
And I think that it’ll save me
But I was so dumb
And it forces me to stay under
The angle of Death
And as I ride over my dead body
I realize there’s somebody
I can finally find
And so I do
And we are once reunited
By death

If only I could have said good bye
Face to face
And hugged her one last  time

I wonder what you’d think of me
I wonder if you think of me
I wonder if you remember  me
I wonder if you want to remember  me
I wonder if you’ve cried over me

I miss you
I want you
I need you
I love you

I wonder if you miss me
I wonder if you want me
I wonder if you need me
I wonder if you love me

I imagine you
I see pictures of you
I wish for you
I beg for you

I wonder if you imagine me
I wonder if you see pictures of me
I wonder if you wish for me
I wonder if you beg for me

I wish you were mine.

i step in the car and instantly something feels off
he tells me therapy is canceled
i calmly say ok
i think what happened
does he have cancer again, has someone died
we come home and she’s pacing
she hugs my with tears in her eyes
brother comes home
and that’s when she tells us
your sisters gone

Did she ever love me
Ever
I thought she did
We laughed together
I looked up to her
I loved her
But
Did she love me
Ever
I assumed she did
We played together
We had a connection
But
Did she ever love me
Ever
Even a bit
Even the smallest
I’ll never know

I* still remember color of your eyes,
and I do not think that you've remembered the color of mine.
I remember what your voice and heartbeat sounded like,
and I always dream of hearing them both one more time.
everyday, I hope you will call once more,
saying that you love me, the way I do.
I think its time I stop loving *you.

By my sister who is now six feet under

You think you know them
You think they are happy
But little do you know that are hiding behind a smile

every time i think of her
it hurts
i love her so much
i long the day i find her
and hope it comes soon

what i would give to have more time with them both
what i would give to see their smile
what i would give to see their eyes
What i would give to hug them
What i would give to say one sentence to them
What i would give to best their voice
WHat i would give to hold them
WHat i would give to feel their hair
WHat i would give to play once more with them both
WHAt i would give to listen to them
WHAt i would give to hear their laugh
WHAt i would give to eat with them
WHAT i would do to even hear them cry
WHAT i would give to do something they love
WHAT i would do to have more time with them both

Lies are so easy to think of
they are so easy to believe
sometimes you want to believe them
lying is wrong
right?
but people lie all the time
they lie to protect
to protect themselves from the truth
from reality
lie to not get yelled at

they lie to protect others from
the truth
from reality
and so they don’t hurt someone
lying is good
right?

people lie all the time
to run from reality
to destroy people
to **** people
to tear people apart
to get what they want
to make friends
for fun

lying is
what is it
good and bad
right?

They ask you how you are
you say your fine
but the truth is far from that
you lie to hide
to hide the truth
because you don’t wanna talk
but that’s fine
because not everyone has to  talk
sometimes being left alone and crying is better
and other times talking is better.

she danced to her song every night before bed
we played everyday together
we laughed together
hugged each other
then one day
when we tried to stick together
the judge denied it
and she wasn’t my sister any longer
one day they came
to take her
and i tried to stop it but i didn’t know what was happening
i was so young
and so sad
and they took her from us
i cried on the stairs
whishing
whishing she could stay
And now i have a mission
to one day find her
and stay with her
forever
and never let her go

I wonder what it’d be like to meet you
I wonder why you did what you did
I want to meet, only to let you know
You tore my family and I apart
Because of you I’ve spilled too many tears
I wonder what it’s be like to tell you the damage you did
I wonder what’d it’d be like to ask you why you went against her wishes why you let her die
I wonder why you did the damage you did

We are only visiting this world
So during our stay keep the world clean
We are only visiting this world
So during our stay keep the animals alive
We are only visiting this world
So during our stay keep green life a wonderful scene
We are only visiting this world
So during our stay keep the air breathable
We are only visiting this world
So during our stay keep the world clean

The Human Race is rude and immature
The Human Race is kind and understanding
Which would you want to be known for?

I wish I could see her face
I wish I could hug her
I wish I could talk to her
I wish I could hear her voice
I wish I could see her eyes
I wish I could spend time with her

People discriminate against their own species
People discriminate gays
People discriminate lesbians
People discriminate bisexuals
People discriminate transgenders
People discriminate against blacks
People discriminate against whites
People discriminate against themselves
Even though we’re all human

People care more about money
More about wealth
More about appearances
More about having fancy houses
More about being popular
More about  receiving things for themself
More about themselves

While other care more about family
More about their friends
More about living
More about saving lives
More about changing the world
More about giving
More about others than them self



Which one would you want to be

Little girl you went away
We know why you didn’t want to stay
You left us with broken hearts
Even with all the disagreements and all the anger
All could be healed with a hug and a smile
So many plans and dreams that can no longer com true
The world has lost your talent for music and art
but the greatest loss will be the sound of your laughter
Young women you have guns away again, never to come home
Friend, niece, granddaughter, sister, daughter
May you Rest In Peace but this hole in our hearts may never mend