We create ideals to fantasize
About the things we can't have
Just to disappoint ourselves
When nothing goes as planned
And if there's anything you've learned from
It's that you need to stop yearning for the perfection
The feeling of protection always surrounding us
Yet we're still moving towards the wrong direction
Because others have gone there but you're unaware
Only selected few can succeed, the rest will bleed
Stakes are too high to be worth taking
Haven't you experienced enough heartbreaking
Lower those expectations
Buy a ticket for a stable future
Meet them at the next station
Everything will turn out smoother.

My love is like a spaceship
Ready to launch into universe
Travel a great distance
Face plant between the mountains
Stick my flag in your surface
Claim you for myself.

My love is like a rhino
I can be an animal
I want to dominate
A horn-bearing mammal
Come to your papa
I know what's good for you.

My love is like a dark alley
You don't see it until inside
Blinded by the excessive amount
Make no sound, let no one listen
I cover your mouth
While the light passes through.

But my love is like a twister
Spin for a random chance
Hope to get the best
Not knowing there isn't much difference
Your limbs are mine and it's just a matter of time
Before you're addicted.

Can't hold in these feelings
The feeling of anger, i feel i could ******
Somebody please, come and restrain me
Tie me down but don't tell anybody
That secretly i'm loving it
Being toyed with,
And if i'm an anvil
You're my blacksmith,

Come on now, give me another hit.

Dancing at the symphony of your heart,
I'm at the mercy of your commands.
Yearning for your touch,
Thirsty for your love.

Time binding this existence,
Sentenced to the strong beats.
Can't you tell? Don't you see?
I'm afraid you'd stop loving me.

Yet this greed reigns over me,
You'll be trapped for eternity.
I swear to you my loyalty,
Give and take, isn't it sweet?

Lines that i muttered about nature and cats, and cats were my favorite, no human could compete with these feline beasts
I was seventeen, a furry
They called me a wild *****
Although, wide seemed more fitting
All those parties, slept with many species
Lions, tigers, a black panther
Bloodhound Gang playing in the background
But those days are over, i'm now a dog lover.

Shoes are meant for chewing
Glue is meant for painting
Tents are made for *******
And you're about to learn it.

I lean across your body
I grab you from the *****
You seize my **** for *******
And bite it off for cooking.

Yes, my crotch is bleeding
Yes, i'm loud and screaming
Yes i see this ***** be smiling
And she's likely gona **** me.

You stab me once
You stab me twice
Slice, slice, slice
Add some spices
And that's how you deal with *** predators.

Restless pillow
Out of covers
Struggle to keep intact
Feathers and dust
Color like rust
Soaking and shaking
Awake... mistakenly.

Wall so heavy
Inability to change
Direction where it's facing
Collapsing...
There's no stop
Rubble and crust
Blown away to decay.

Consuming bubbles
Soap in the eyes
Master of disguise
Liquefies...
Back at the start
With no finish in sight

I would empty every ocean
Bring all the treasures from the bottom
Discover ancient cities
And make you their queen.

I would be your knight
And shield you from the enemies
It would be my honor
To die for your sake.

You blessed me with a meaning
A reason to live
And so, for your sake
It's yours to take.

But why is it,
Despite everything i do
You show no signs of being cured
Brought every doctor
Every medicine that's ever made
For your sake,

Yet it's too late.

I swear to god that god isn't real
I never told my dad how much i loved him
I pet my dog to find comfort in this reality
What has become of me, when did it begin.

Figuratively, i'm talking to myself
There's no one else
Surrounded by trials
It's vital to pass them.

Opportunities that once were in reach
Sealed behind metallic bars
Need a chainsaw or something
To break loose from my shackles.

I keep telling myself
It's all in my head
The crackling noises
An invoice that leaves me scared.

You are not prepared
Your damages can't be repaired
You'll bring shame to yourself
It's not your mental health, life's just meaningless.

Sometimes i like to write
Sometimes i write something somewhat good
Although most of my themes can be quite disturbing
Maybe they have a deeper meaning
Other times random/funny or all of them combined
That's what i want you to know from my profile.
My vocabulary can also be lacking
English language isn't my native
Neither have i done much reading
So excuse me if you find this boring.
I just like writing
Ever since i was exposed to poems
Well, even before that actually
But i never really got into it
Other than some short stories
I would share between few of my friends
Who were entertained by them
And urged me to continue.
Hopefully i'll get better in time
Be able to create better rhymes and free verse lines
This is the introduction to the production of my poetry
Please enjoy your stay.

A dried up pen and a taste of ink
Sheets of paper scattered around
Hundred sketches, hundred failures
How many more attempts can i get
Where can i reach out for help
What does it take to make it right
Why do i feel empty yet so heavy
When will this end, when will i see you again

Roses are dead
Violets are red
Where is my head
It's over there
Under your bed.
Why did you chop it off
I know you like it rough
But i kinda need that
So can i have it back
And all the other limbs
You took from me.
Nah, just kidding
I'm only a tree.
So cut me more
You ******* *****
Cut my life into logs
This is my last tree fort
Sawdust, no clumping
Don't give a **** if i'm stumping
Everything turned dark
Let's turn it around
Oh look, a butterfly
Truly a beautiful day!

This is a poem for when i die
I bet you're sad, not really but listen up
I don't need your tears because i wouldn't cry for you either
I don't need your sympathy so move on
With your petty lives that will never amount to anything
Don't fret about it, everyone's included, even me
Your efforts won't make you into a human being
Then why am i alive, you ask
Just enjoy yourself while it lasts
Why should you work hard when all will be gone
Your achievements are in vain
Your treasure is worthless in the afterlife
But my family and friends, you say
Don't worry, your emotions will fade
There's only darkness which is quite alike
To what you're seeing now
Because light is only a perception
The act of deception in our brains
Saints and sinners, heaven and hell?
What a convenient lie for people to tell
I've sold my soul to a devil long time ago
Your justice never took me down, i stood above it
I made my own rules, i lived comfortably
I have no regrets, i'll start again
Make a fire that will blaze through the lonely nights
Find a new desire, face different and unfamiliar heights
That's just the cycle of life
But stay true to yourself, don't pretend to be someone else
I had a happy ending, i'm sure of it
Even if it was unfair or too early, there are better places to be
Who am i kidding
I'm sorry that you're still reading, trying to find a meaning in this
We've all been set to an inescapable outcome so i'll be waiting
At the next door, while you slowly burn off.

Having worked in a store for five years
I've encountered every type of client
Most awkward of them must be one with a foreigner woman
Only thing she could say was toilet
Bit confused, i led her to the cleaning products
But in embarassment she shook her head
Because her pants had all turned wet
"*******," I walked away.

Bartender, so tall, so slender
Underaged, orders for lemonade
Cold and bubbly, and she, a goblin compared to his beauty
Abomination is the definition
Yet his eyes were fixed, slight cracks on the lips
Opened up, asking if it's to her liking,
"Delicious," She replied
Unexpected, a witty comment, telling she would taste even sweeter
Promises he would prove it after working hours
"Want to grasp an early adulthood?"
Rejection is not an option, the man had a charm unlike any other
Never questioned, didn't wonder why they've come into brothel
Though she was sober, a ****** not shaken by lust
Tears falling down as everything got taken
Still no courage to talk of it, still having nightmares haunting her
Taunting the foolish, her scars aching
Decicion to be made to revisit the bar
From afar, next to a familiar car
Tampered for an accident bound to happen
Shapes up while waiting for the unsuspected
Kind request for a ride, one you can't simply deny
Didn't recognize, no surprise, not his first time
The fine road where she once felt love, now displays her demise
New premises where she gets to sleep better, and that she does, forever.

They stand and stare at what appears to be another of themself
They shake hands, embrace eachother
They exchange their fists against one another
There were others, copies of their sisters and brothers
They repeat the cycle, multipling in the progress.

Eventually they grew tired, laid down around in a circle
In the centre of the circle there was one, different from the rest
At times above, sometimes below but never on the same ground
When night arrived, some were afraid while others kept their pride
Offering comfort and protection to their kind.

Decades had passed, replaced by new groups
Except the one in the circle
One who never aged, truly one of a kind
Until the day when the one grew wings and flied away
Everyone around the circle had died.

Blisters on my fingers
From the torment
You've put me through.
Cruel is your soul
Mouth full of foulness
Stone cold heart
That has frozen me in place.
Never anything nice to say
Always blame and criticize
Hypocritical to your own lies.
I'm part of your slavery
Subjected to your self-righteousness
Less than a dog
Not having my own kennel.
I wished for an angel
They sent me a faulty product
Or maybe the fault is in me
Not knowing how to use you.
Yes, that must be it
It's been happening repeatedly
I'm not good enough
I need to stop complaining
And be satisfied
With what i'm given
Because that's all i'm worth.