Up
On a hill so high
I'd touch the heavens
If my soul could qualify

My mind is broke
To me
Everything is a joke
Must be why I never get along with folk
Laugh
Get back to the studio
Along with the staff
There's no show
Once you forego the status quo
Today we have fun
Until there is none.

Why must I be so downdraught?
Is it the ash in my hair?
Malevolent people?
Ego bigger than a steeple
Calling me sheeple?
Can only be a sheep with a shepherd
The only one we have is predatory:
Leopard
If life is soon to be a myth
Will we be regarded as legends?
Or just a speck in the universes' blessings?
Cosmic blink
From the eye of the divine
Since I was nine
I knew my existence could never be defined.

Enjoy life today
No more ranting, for minutes or months
To conformity

Swingset, so rustic
No one plays with you, sorry
When is it my time?

Cave of abundance
I brought a radio, here is the song
Repeats, endlessly

Ignorant bliss, or
Knowledgeable and suffer
Two ends, no middle

Once the sky fades
Accompanied by burning
Play our downfall song

Lesson for today:
"Think for yourself kids" is both
A truth and warning

Grey clouds dangle over
Heaven obscured from our sight
Hell, forever still

They will descend soon
Unfortunately, none live
Vanquished, betrayed

Process
To cure the hate
Cull violent endeavors
Shifting the cycle
Into a recycle bin
For when violence comes
We seem to purge the violent with violence
Unto us:
The new cycle is fully realized
Yet...
It is the same but disguised.

Dropped down to the floor
Excavated my valor
Glamour? Behind time.

Losing, lethargy
Got a problem, inertia
State of mind, stasis

Supernova came
Never limited darkness
To blazing spotlight

Oh, I see clearly now
A new type of pride:
Family
Flawed as they may be
It only brings them closer to me

Lost
Within the cracks
Kicked to the outskirts
Interest, only in seconds
Days, weeks, months
Then all at once
It dies like a passing trend
Youth and goof
It takes no sleuth to determine the facts
Forgotten and presumed
Awake and alive...
Nevermore

Beautiful carnage is anomalous
Yet, we all live in it
Day by day

Feeling lovesick
Good thing I'm back home
Time to atone

Proud to be where I'm from
But home is in front of me
Not of me
Separate from the serpent
Capital Hill
Need a capital offense to live
Walking up hills
Just to take spills

Upon a first glance
Put into a trance, decide
What tag goes outside

Endless vista
Faces suddenly staring
At silhouettes
Leaping from columns of smolder
Why?
An explosion...
Of realization, folks.

Perfection, standard
Criteria varies with all
No definition

Self-evident truths
Life, liberty, together
All for one, none else

From our origin
To alpha and omega
Peace remains stranded

Leaves twirling about
Changing face as seasons pass
Us, identical

School bell's siren call
Here they yell, teacher's care
So why can't you?

All I'd love is some time
To get out of my mind
Denied, every time
Some days it's hard to realize
That the fault is mine
But on an island
You can't signal for help
S.O.S
Stands for Stay Out Saviors
Pray to fix my behavior
If only it didn't go to the bin
Heard, noted
No time to waste
On such a disgrace
Carried here by time and space
Outpaced in every field
Math
Science
English
I get by
But never seized it
Grasping at concepts outdated and complex
Deep in the complex, no help for me
Too stubborn to ask
Well then, how did I pass?
For once
Let's see if I can stand at my apex
No need for respect
Fly from me, I'll stay buried in the projects.

Look out for demise
Someone may bother with yours
Willing to risk it?

Castle walls crumble
Revealing treasure daily
Universal fact

Missing the point
Must be trained by a stormtrooper
The goal is to unify
But you can't
When you're too focused on the "I"

Give up so much
Just to ask for more
Funny.
How would it feel for your heart
To be on the floor?
Open for all like a broken door
Revolving around every issue
To avoid driving away
Someone
Who I loved.
Did I ever love?
What does it mean?
Where was the dopamine?

Taxes
Deadlines
Evictions
Payments to meet
Grocery store exclusive meat
Up to ten dollars
Wish I could eat for free
Like the birds
In the park
Deer
In the backyard
Bats
In the darkness
If only their life was easy too
Gotta think about living
By that, I mean surviving
Protecting family with your biology
No fancy tools used to get to the same end:
Death.
Was it always like this?
Crying over the thought of tomorrow?
May be mature, but I thought it was a gift
The more I'm aware
The more I wish that my mind was bare.

Why waste time?
Hoping for better years
Oh, please
Issues remain the same
Beasts can never be tamed
Too long
Steeped in disappointment
So it's time to just accept:
Pain can't be fixed on the clock, appointment.

Clarity
I'd like my daily dose
Yet when my lens is clear
Something comes along
Dirt
Scratches
Mucked up perspective
How long can I keep it clean?

No more order
No more justice
No more structure
All that remains:
Pure chaos
Actions went unnoticed
Doubt placed in those considered "cornerstones"
Such is the new way of living.

What was once yours
Now mine
Not to own
But to heal
Watch as the future crumbles
For our shoulders can only hold so much weight
Until they snap

Become rich
Not in currency
But in knowledge and understanding
So others can invest in your legacy

Fools craft constant rage
Sensibles temper the fires of wrath

They painted you in their colors!
Attached strings to your frame
Call you a master, yet..
Behind this facade
Resides the masters in the shadows

Running over to an island
For a sense of self
Jump off from your highland
She ran away from herself
You lustful lightweight...
...would you like the same fate?

Lies dormant
Never truly ran away
Always here to stay
Inside a heart
Cardiovascular home
Only goal?
To control mankind through the mind.

Working toward perfection
Puts more tears in your collection
Such a disconnection
Disaffection on all fronts
No intersection of the heart and mind
Search for some redirection
How can you accomplish something with no concrete definition?

"Life has no meaning"
"That's just the truth"
I apologize for intervening
I am no sleuth but
Doesn't that mean you can do anything you want to?

Plastic smiles
Surrounding me
Around the world for miles
Falsified liar's glee
You can show off your teeth
But beneath your eyes
I've found what's underneath.

The world
We always strive
To unfurl the confusion
Making it a better place, one where we all thrive
Becoming compassionate survivors
Here's the first step:
Did you say thanks to your bus driver?

We comprehend you're here to assist
But the risk
Foreign boy on familiar land
Such a combo doesn't bode well
Your presence does not outweigh the value of our lives
Apologizes
Hear us well:
Leave before the hounds sniff you out
Unless you'd prefer
A body left in a blood drought.

Change utilizes time
That's why patience is labelled a virtue
Temporarily sublime
Needed high on a mountain to climb
Temper your temper-
Proceed without caution and growth will prevail
Extempore!

Garner info with questions
But all they hand you is suggestions
Doesn't take a sleuth to figure out the truth
What was once bad?
Remains.
All the pain?
Stays.
Love on display?
Faker than a cabaret.

Nothing stays the same
Even when it's meant to last
If the opposite is what you proclaim
Look inside at the change you have amassed