All I'd love is some time
To get out of my mind
Denied, every time
Some days it's hard to realize
That the fault is mine
But on an island
You can't signal for help
S.O.S
Stands for Stay Out Saviors
Pray to fix my behavior
If only it didn't go to the bin
Heard, noted
No time to waste
On such a disgrace
Carried here by time and space
Outpaced in every field
Math
Science
English
I get by
But never seized it
Grasping at concepts outdated and complex
Deep in the complex, no help for me
Too stubborn to ask
Well then, how did I pass?
For once
Let's see if I can stand at my apex
No need for respect
Fly from me, I'll stay buried in the projects.

Look out for demise
Someone may bother with yours
Willing to risk it?

Castle walls crumble
Revealing treasure daily
Universal fact

Missing the point
Must be trained by a stormtrooper
The goal is to unify
But you can't
When you're too focused on the "I"

Give up so much
Just to ask for more
Funny.
How would it feel for your heart
To be on the floor?
Open for all like a broken door
Revolving around every issue
To avoid driving away
Someone
Who I loved.
Did I ever love?
What does it mean?
Where was the dopamine?

Taxes
Deadlines
Evictions
Payments to meet
Grocery store exclusive meat
Up to ten dollars
Wish I could eat for free
Like the birds
In the park
Deer
In the backyard
Bats
In the darkness
If only their life was easy too
Gotta think about living
By that, I mean surviving
Protecting family with your biology
No fancy tools used to get to the same end:
Death.
Was it always like this?
Crying over the thought of tomorrow?
May be mature, but I thought it was a gift
The more I'm aware
The more I wish that my mind was bare.

Why waste time?
Hoping for better years
Oh, please
Issues remain the same
Beasts can never be tamed
Too long
Steeped in disappointment
So it's time to just accept:
Pain can't be fixed on the clock, appointment.