Do you forget
I'm just a dreamer?
Inside my head
fighting the monsters.
I'm not afraid
to face you there-
inside my head
I am not scared.
You might believe
in losing the war
But anythings possible
That's what dreaming is for.
So give it a chance
go where nobody goes
a wild imagination
where nobody knows
that you are a fighter,
that challenges fate.
Where you pave the roads
and go your own way.

12:23 in the morning.
Cold underneath my blankets
Some kind of deep day dreaming
Wide awake, fighting the sleep that I need
Desperately needing
Some kind of comfort
you can't give to me
So wrapped up in the would have been's.
Losing faith in could of been's.
Wishing that it really happened
so hard it hurts my stomach
and causes migraines so bad because I really want it.
Just like I want chocolate
Just like I want a hug.
Just like I want to forget
All that once was us
Suffering in the silence
of the coldness in the room
trying so **** hard
to forget, well-
You

I've changed, but you don't let me forget
the things I've done, or the things I've said.
I'm  better, but you think I'm still sick
I'm trying to keep my focus
but you have me distracted.
Life's not always easy,
I've paved a path at something hard.
Twisted in the problems.
Your negativity keeps me discouraged.
Trying to move forward,
trying to move on.
Trying to keep my self together
Praying that I stay strong.
Tell me I'm forgiven.
Give me motivation
I promise that I'm sorry
for all the promises that I've broken.

Boy.
You're like an ice cream cone
I want to eat from head to toe.
You smile, I think it makes me weak
Your shyness has me at the knees
You're sweeter then sugar,
but you got be naughty.
I can tell that want it,
like the way I want your body.
You are looking so fly,
and yet you don't believe me.
Look me strait in the eye
and be too much of a good thing
I can see myself in trouble
But in a good way.
We could be almost be lovers
would you like to play?
I don't see a problem
Maybe lust has me blind.
Tell me all your secrets
And we'll be just fine.

I was naive when it came to love.
But he was the boy of my dreams I swear
he gave me things that I can't explain
and we were lovers without a care.
I was a queen in our fantasy
and he was the king who ruled my heart
We were alive in our masterpiece
nothing could ever tear us apart.
but we were bad for each other, it's true
Always fighting about something else
had to break away from our cycle
but couldn't stand to be by myself.
so I ran back into his arms
almost every other night.
and I would love him for eternity
or just until another fight.
And he would tell me that I was beautiful
So I never considered abuse
But we would disagree about something
and he would blow another fuse.
But he had the charm of a prince
And when I looked him in the eyes
he was just a devil
in disguise

New boy.
New charm.
New game, new arm.
New chase.
New dream.
A brand new me.
New love.
New lust
New future
New trust
New happiness
New karma
New promises
New drama
New things
New steps
New plans
New mess
New crowd
New everything starting now.

I can't pretend I don't think about you
You left me with a big space in my heart.
I don't have all the answers at all
But I know that I must go on.
I can't escape the memory of you.
The smell of chocolate reminds me of you
I don't know how to keep you out of my mind
But I know what is best for me.
I couldn't imagine life without you
Its hard to see past all what could of been
I don't know how to get over you
But I know I will eventually.