Submit your work, meet writers and drop the ads. Become a member
Cat Mar 14
I hate that I don't hate you. I hate that I miss you. I hate how you fill my head. I hate that all I want is to lie on the phone with you just to know you're with me. I hate that I want us back. I hate that I'm not mad. I hate that you hurt me, and I am so ready to forgive. I hate that I love you so much when there's a chance you never did. I hate that I care so much. I hate the way you smile, and it instantly brings joy into my life. I hate how your eyes are so captivating and the way I always get stuck. I hate that I don't hate you, but I'm so glad that I got to experience an "us."
Cat Dec 2024
Look in my eyes,
See how I cry.
Look at my smile,  
See how it dies.
Look at my body,
See how I flinch.
Look at my lips,
See how they quiver.

Listen to my voice,  
Hear how it shakes.  
Listen to my heart,  
Hear how it breaks.  
Listen to my sobs.  

Feel my hands,  
Can't you feel them shake?  
Feel my pain,  
The pain you've caused me.
I was okay before you came along.  
My life was a mess,  
But it was better than this.  

Don't deny what you've done,  
Don't you see how you've ruined me?  
I was your little girl,  
So how could you do this to me?
My innocence is gone,  
And now you've killed me.  

I am living in a body  
That no longer belongs to me,  
And yet you deny the pain you've caused me.
Cat Dec 2024
You're as bright as the sun.
and you bring warmth to everyone around.
Everyone loves you and the joy you keep around,
but I grew up in the shade,
and the sun burns too much for me to want to stay.

I should have said no and left it at that.
but I didn't want to give up just yet.
It isn't your fault that I said no.
but now you live with the pain of knowing so.

I've hidden from the sun for much too long.
And now you burn me when we're together for too long.
Please forgive me; I'm sorry, my sun.
but this is goodnight from "your special someone."

Signed the one who didn't like the sun
Cat Dec 2024
Slipping through the crack,
Would you even notice me?
I fall more every day.
But you don't seem to try and catch me.

I know I fall quietly,
Too scared to speak loudly,
But aren't there signs
To how I'm struggling?

Maybe I'm loud,
But it's not how I speak.
Instead, my body screams,
Begging you to help me.

I think I mean so much,
But now it's clear to see
How much you truly care,
When you're staring blankly at me.

We once were close,
But now I know,
That when I'm slipping,
You'll never truly know.

— The End —