Just staring at this blank page,
Makes my mind crumble.
Just minutes ago I had a novel of why

I have no clue what I’m doing
My heart is fading over myself
I come first. I hope I always will.

These tears are a reminder to keep searching
To keep an opening for something special
To come and make me whole!

Love is a mystery from my mind to my heart.
I’ll be here, fall after fall...
Each rise more forgotten than the last.

                
                                            <c.h.b.>

I’m not quite myself this night.
Tonight, I’m fleeting.
I’m leaving.

















Jk but I want to leave.

My mind is a dying forest
I must nourish it with knowledge
My ancestors live in one hundred feet tall trees

I have rivers
They remind me of time
And how much I have left

My heart belongs to the universe
I must leave it open

The memories I have stored
Tell me, I'm missing some.


                                        «c.h.b.»

I’m emotionally claustrophobic.
Pressure pressed upon my shoulders.
My chest doesn’t rise as high as it used to.
I am not lost but I’m losing.
I’m crawling out as I’m pulled down.
Give me a reason.
Any
*******
Reason.