Cameron

Cameron Nov 2018

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Everyone looks the same
until you get to know them

Cameron Nov 2018

Potential is a double-edged sword.
It can give us the power to achieve our goals
To fight the ineptitude within our souls
To slay the demons

However if not wielded correctly, potential, or rather, the lack of proper harnessing can be devastating,

Each day, noticing how much better you could be.
You would think that would be a good self-motivator
Yet you don't move forward,
You sit upon a throne of meaninglessness
And you've given yourself the title knowingly,
But still, you don't strive for better even though you know it's the right choice.

Why?

Potential is a double-edged sword.

Cameron Oct 2018

It goes on

It's a dark city night
The streets lit up dimly by streetlights
A gentle rain pours down on my face
I don't mind it though
The rain gives me comfort for some reason
Even makes me crack the occasional smile

I stop to think about my life
Wants to travel - doesn't want to work
Wants to make a name for himself - doesn't want to try
Wants so much more
But just dragged down by this nagging feeling.

It's a pain
Been with me since I can remember
I'd just like to be free from it ya know.

Be something more than myself.
Still me, just. Better.

There is so much I want to do and yet I can never in a million years see myself doing any of these things.

Why is this?

Who knows.

The pendulum just keeps on swinging regardless.

Maybe I wasn't taught certain things in life.
Maybe I've already missed my chance.

Life goes on though.

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Cameron Oct 2018

no

Well looks like it really is over now

No one to blame but myself

again.

No ones fault but mine

again.

Had one good thing and I lost it.

All throughout my life it seems things like this keep happening.

I seem to be the variabe causing chaos for me and others around me.

But I'm trying to not let it whittle me down.

The mood inside is so dreadfully low, but the stiff upper lip must remain.

Cameron Oct 2018

I lost

Well it looks like what was there got the better of me

I tried to put up a fight.. at least I think I did.

Now i'm in a realm of uncertainty.

Atleast I knew what was there before and had time to prepare.

But now

I'm once again lost

Hoping I don't spiral back down.

Cameron Oct 2018

The corner

Just up there, around the bend
Is the thing that people have been telling you about your whole life

you're unsure how to feel about it
but there it is anyway

relentless
unyielding

on a continuous path with it's destination set to you.

Now it's up to you how to deal with this thing. you can shrink

run away

hide inside a familiar place and make no progress

The easy path

Or

you can stand tall
stand resolute

try with all your heart to do what is right, and make yourself proud

The hard path

The choice is yours.

Cameron Aug 2018

Framed

A world concealed within a single frame.
Free will held back by a glass wall.
Within your grasp, but at the same time so very distant.

Having the freedom, to be free, but choosing the ignorant option.
Choosing to remain as a single, isolated being.

Questions rise up in your mind. Such things as good and evil, but does any of that matter, when trapped in a tiny box of your own making?

Something is lacking now. Something leaves a hollow feeling in your heart. You know what it is, but you can't say it out loud.