Cameron

Cameron Aug 2018

Framed

A world concealed within a single frame.
Free will held back by a glass wall.
Within your grasp, but at the same time so very distant.

Having the freedom, to be free, but choosing the ignorant option.
Choosing to remain as a single, isolated being.

Questions rise up in your mind. Such things as good and evil, but does any of that matter, when trapped in a tiny box of your own making?

Something is lacking now. Something leaves a hollow feeling in your heart. You know what it is, but you can't say it out loud.

Cameron May 2018

HuMaN AE

The darkness within ones self is truly terrifying,
And knowing that darkness, and facing it,
May be even more terrifying.

Confronting the deepest parts of our subconscious.

We have all had these battles with ourselves.
At the time winning or losing may seem incomparable
to the pain you might feel.

But facing our monsters, and telling them that we are the ones who are truly in control,
Can give us the strength to conquer the world.

You can win.

I think :^)

Cameron Feb 2018

Untitled

I don’t belong in this world anymore. The color has faded, and the rain has come. Where there was once sun, there is only darkness. Where there was once happiness, only sorrow and pain.

There he stands. The tall looming doorway, almost as inviting as his cold, lifeless embrace, but an embrace nonetheless. I just want to cry. I just want the stars to take me into their embrace, so I can float far above this planet, and leave it all behind, but at the same time, I never want to leave. A coward maybe?

‘Where is my mind?’

Cameron Jan 2018

Untitled

Why
do
I
bother
?

Cameron Jan 2018

Untitled

Every night, lying awake, staring at the ceiling.

Pretending that things will get better.

Pretending that it will pass.

Empty even now. When I should be happy.

When the problem has been resolved, and the feeling still remains, more problems are revealed.

What can I do to change it.

I know sitting here will do me no good.

Does writing these even help?

Has my escape been corrupted?

Does anyone even care?

Sounding pathetic, as usual.

The only thing you're good at is feeling sorry for yourself.
Why don't you just do us all a favour and ...

Surely there was more to you than that. Has the soul left you?

Has the essence of what made you gone to a far away land.

Does it call to you?

Do you want to join it?

Who are you? Really. Look at yourself. Make up your mind. Living in a constant cycle of disappointment, unfulfillment, and misery is no way to live.

Just stop talking

Just stop trying to make others relate

Just stop typing

Cameron Jan 2018

Whoops

I'm trying hard.

To some people it comes more naturally, but too me,

I'm in way over my head.

I do think I'm doing something with the right intentions though, but I just don't know how to do it the correct way.

It's frustrating, and infuriating, and I think I've already messed up.

Might as well quit while I'm ahead.

Cameron Jan 2018

Space

There's nobody out there, beyond the wall.

A vast empty space, littered with the bodies of people I once knew.

It all feels like a lifetime ago, but part of me could’ve sworn it was just yesterday.