Goodbye to all
Farewell for now
I’m sorry that I had to go
To all the friends I left behind
I’m really sorry I’m making you cry
I know you loved me
I loved you too
But your love couldn’t erase my pain
And Your love didn’t make me okay
I wish that it had
I wish it would have changed everything
But it didn’t, it changed nothing
Even with your love, I was still hurt
Even with your love, I was still weak
So I’ll say it again, one more time
I’m sorry that I couldn’t stay alive
I tried, oh God knows how I tried
I tried to stay alive
For you
For my family
Even for myself
But I suppose I just wasn’t strong enough
So goodbye to all
I bid thee farewell
Maybe one day, you’ll understand
Why I went out by my own hand

I don’t know why, but for so long, I’ve believed
That parents should think the world of their kids
Love them unconditionally
And protect them from harm
Make them feel safe and build them up
I guess I was wrong
Because my parents are far from this
They slander and gossip
They judge and they disrespect
They think the word of themselves
And think nothing of me, or my siblings
They blame us for every event
Never seeing the others involved
Just like they don’t see
Anything that we go through
They don’t see the pressure and stress
That we place on our selves
Trying to live up to
Their expectation of perfection
The expectations they mask with deception
Their words coated in false kindness
They mask the truth with lies
And they say that it's fine, to fail
But treat you like failing isn’t an option
They hem and they haw
But they don't ever help
Quick to anger and slow to love
They shout and they yell
And you don't dare oppose
Their beliefs
Instead you sit by, silent
Waiting for the day you can get away

If they could feel everything as I wrote
just as I did
then maybe they'd know