That narcissist, ever so unbelievably clever,
Lies expertly chosen for any endeavour.
No matter the reason, the time or the place,
That narcissists smile, will remain on his face.
As long as he thinks that he's got you fooled,
Remember you exist as only a tool, to be used.
He will lie he will cheat, any boundaries he'll test them,
He will blatantly do this, and punish you if you question.
Steal your belongings with no shred of remorse,
With that little feeling, he resembles a corpse.
Empathy, love, thought of others, impossible.
No, he's selfish, and toxic,
He's almost unstoppable.
Of his own actions, he is never accountable.
The narcissits arrogance is insurmountable.
And you, in his eyes,
forever discountable.

Used yet again,
Blinded by a hope.
Darkness swallows any wish,
It's time that I let go.
Just the runner up,
Now only second best.
I'll confess that I'm distressed.
As I acquiesced to your request.

          - Suddenly
                                      The
      " Other girl, "

                 Is me .

Honest to a fault,
and loyal that's the truth.
I'm a battle-hardened warrior,
The scars I have are proof.
I've given second chances,
To many, I shouldn't have.
And cried for too many nights,
I left my heart in the wrong hands.
Walls were built around me,
Forged a shelter from others' lies.
Forever those walls will guard me,
Those lies have made me wise.
For I was once an angel,
That was no disguise.
But they then created a demon,
That angelic side had to die.
That I may protect my honour,
That I may still speak my truth.
For if I remained such an angel,
I would have always been there for you.
At first, I was angry and broken,
Not understanding how you did this to me.
But thankful I realize the truth now,
I was given a gift and set free.
But sadly, you released the demon,
To an unknowing and innocent world.
For you destroyed that sweet angel,
By repeatedly breaking that girl.
If I'm honest then sometimes I miss her,
The angel that I used to be.
But then I remember the heartbreak,
So this demon thanks you for setting me free.

Please my little heartbroken one,
Stop searching for love within his arms.
He doesn't  know what love is,
His arms are not home,
Please notice this.
Stop looking for love  in a man with which whom,
You can't even trust him to tell you the truth.
The one who will love you,
Will not need to lie.
If he's lying to you then say goodbye.
Just please  pack your things,
leave cuz there you're not needed.
He doesn't love you,
Please why can't you see this.
He's used you for way, way past long enough,
If it hurts you this much,
Honey, it is not love.
Don't get me wrong,
Love is not all smooth sailings.
But with real love,
You BOTH work to keep things from failing.
Give some and take some,
Both 100%.
But whatever you have got now,
Has only created contemp.
Please find the courage and strength that you'll need.
From this toxic situation,
I pray that you're freed.
I can not sit by for one more idle minute,
Watching  your tears,
You don't deserve this.
Deep down you know what I've said here is truth,
More honesty than he ever offered to you.
So please  all I want in return for my care,
Is for you to just give up pack up and leave there.

And after

" I love you,
             but
      I'm
not
       in
           love
with
          you"


fell from his lips,
Heavy tears in his eyes
as he turned away.


" There

               is someone else,

                                                          ­ isn't there?"
  
Silence.


........

Knowing that you're toxic,
Doesn't seem to change how I feel.
I know it's probably " trauma bonding"
But my love for you is real.
I know that you don't care,
And you're never going to change.
But that little piece of hope that's left,
Just will not go away.
You have shown me many times,
What you think of me.
But then you come in with sweet words,
That I KNOW don't mean a thing!
And yet still I accept them,
Praying this time that they're true.
But of course, I know the deal,
The only thing you'll ever love is you.

As the sun sets,
on all of our plans,
I accept the things,
I still don't understand.
And looking to the moon I sigh,
as one last tear escapes my eye.
I've tried everything,
that I can do.
But the choice it seems,
wasn't for me,
but you.
It's ok.... and I will be just fine.
Your heart simply wasn't,
meant to be forever mine.
The stars in the sky,
gently shed light on the truth.
My love for you was real,
and my pain is the proof.
Dawn starts to break now,
So I guess I made it through,
Last night was the first night,
I didn't sleep next to you.
As the sun starts,
to rise over the shore,
my pain and my love for you,
Begin to fade more.
So that each moment hurt less,
then the moment before.