I fell in love with a version of you,
That does not truly exist.
I created that person within my mind,
And it's time that I admit this.

I wanted so bad to believe that you'd change,
Simply because you said that you could.
But actions speak louder than ever your words,
And your actions say you never would.

Loving you was the most exquisite form,
Of self-destruction and torture for me.
But do I regret of that I'm not sure,
You did teach me what love really means.

Because of the treatment the lies and the hurt,
Cheating on me all the time.
You showed me exactly what love is not like,
Now I know what to go out and find.

When infatuation fades away,
fast-beating hearts do slow.
That's when real  true love starts,
loves not easy didn't you know?
It takes work and it takes commitment,
to keep that love alive.
So to throw away four years of love,
For fleeting butterfly's?
Regret will surely envelop you,
when you realize what you've done.
When butterflies as always fade,
and things you've lost are gone.  
There will be no coming back,
You can sit in your regret.
I will not be looking back,
Your name and face I will forget.
I won't accept false apologies
No more "let's try one more times."
You threw away what it was we had,
You chose the butterfly's.

9 years now it has been,
another year went by.... yet again.
My heart it still aches,  
you consume all my thoughts.
The sound of your voice though,
a memory I've  tragically lost.
Time never heals you,
it just makes things fade.
So I worry with terror,
will I soon forget your face?
Sometimes when I'm alone,
I picture you here next to me.
Then I pray that you're not,
Because you'd hate what you see.
It shames me to say it but you would be ******,
if you saw how I royally ****** up my ****.
Many choices I've made that I now regret,
Despite all your warnings,
Uncle,


         I'm addicted to ****.


I hate it so much I need your help,
I am completely and fully ashamed of myself.
Your Tweety Birds broken,
beyond repair?
Why did you leave us,
Uncle it's not ******* fair!
Everyone tells me you knew I loved you,
I can't help but wonder....
Would you still love me too?
After every wrong choice
and all my regrets,
after losing my girls,
Cuz' I'm addicted to ****
So how would you do it?
Still love who I am.....
I don't think you could do it,
Don't think anyone can.

9 years now it has been,
another year went by.... yet again.
My heart still aches,  you consume my thoughts.
The sound of your voice,
a memory I've tragically lost.
Time never heals you,
it just makes things fade.
So I worry with terror,
will I forget your face?
I try to hold on to those far away days,
to keep them from slipping and fading away.
Desi will be 9 soon and Lily's now 2,
I wish oh so much they could have met you.
You would have loved them,
they would have loved you.
But the fact is you're gone now,
so there's nothing I can do.
Your Tweety Bird misses you every day,
on this day every year,
another piece of me breaks.
Because although you technically left the 17th,
today was the day that YOU ceased to be.
I lost you uncle 9 years ago today,
and I still regret the things I didn't say.
So yes every year I'll come here and cry,
be angry with the world and again ask you why.
Why did you have to leave us like that,
And tell you that all I want is you back.
I love you so much and I hope that you knew,
I'll try to remember that you loved me too.
If I don't stop now I'll keep writing forever,
so I think it's time to end this sad letter.
I love you uncle forever its true,
I will always remember the days spent with you.
Goodbye, I love you and I miss you more,
Then ever I thought possible before.
Sincerely,
Forever and always
Love your,
Tweety Bird.

Never before had I felt so betrayed,
it's like all those promises, never were made.
     Joke was on me though, for thinking that true,  were any of the words, spoken by you.
     Like shattered glass, in pieces it's torn,
my heart, it was broken, beaten and worn.
     Used for convenience, or maybe it was for fun?
     But did I truly deserve, everything that you'd done?
     Did you get enjoyment, from the tears that I'd cry?
      It felt like you did, I still don't understand why.
      Promises were broken, trust was shattered; no repair.
      And then, you had the nerve, to try to tell me you cared.

The day my heart was ripped from my chest,
And the air left me all in one breath.
Was the day that I first heard them say,
They were taking my baby girl Lily away.
And it's been two years now,
Time sure does fly.
Every minute that passes me,
I'm more ready to die.
But **** is evil and it has no soul,
It will devour your existence swallow you whole.
And still, more of you it will demand,
Until every part of you, it will have.
Take take take is all it will do,
And yet somehow you think the powers with you?
**** is so deceptive sneaky and cunning,
You can try to stop it but there is no point in running.
You probably won't ever escape from its clutches,
Only about 2% of addicts have permanently done it.  
Those aren't hopeful numbers at all,
But if you don't get away now,
only further you'll fall.
Deep deep down descending to hell,
Everyone knows it except you, you can't tell.
So please if you're thinking of trying this evil,
Stop it's not worth the pain that you'll feel.
And if you are stupid and don't take my advice,
I give it a year before you say I was right.
And if that's the case,
Well, there is not much I can do.
So go on keep using,
****, it seems was stronger than you.