Bravo
Look at that empty bottle of Of
Look at the table
So immaculate
And quirrrrrky
So... you
And you’re so...
Lonely
Distract distract distract
You’re special
Remember?
The town that kicked you out because of your voice and hair and and and mannerisms now treasures you for being so.... you.
So... quirrrrky
So... lonely

Pink socks
And bows
Silly ******

I like to watch my head spin
Out of body
Experience
My anger takes me there
Through a sandstorm
With a heartbeat like mine
Slapping mad slicing and gritting
My eyes

“Don’t lay your pearls before swine”
But who else do I know

Once again
My mouth runneth over
Thanks be to god that I can talk my way into forgiveness

Red river keeps finding his way back between my thighs
Yes, I know it’s a guy
Because there’s  laughter when the chunky parts shake on my thighs
did I wait too long
Am I really dry?
Is it bad to want, if even just out of spite?
I was hoping I could just go
It wouldn’t take too long to just know
It could come crawling out my heart like you crawled into my soul
But instead I just get told no

Like time
This feeling is always on my mind
Tried to speak to the icy window
I just cried
Oranges cooking on the stove with cinnamon sticks
Warms my heart inside
But at night or when I see him
I fold-I just die
Please walk my heart home tonight
I don’t think I can find my way back to life
I’m not sure if I’m in the wrong or right
I just need to be walked home tonight
Helpless
Always helpless
When all I needed was help
Or someone selfless
To take an interest me
Or give an ear to me
Don’t need to be watched while I sleep
Some demons moved on or forgot my phone number
So demons can’t call because I don’t want their phone number
You give shots away
Every day
Hoping the bullets never end up strays
Like a dog on the street or a cat in heat
I just keep trying not to lose my mind or any sleep