In the ending of
all that starts with love
all that lies ahead
all that feels nothing
I still think of you
and all the things you'd do
my bruises melted off
and now I'm feeling lost
I can only try
to leave until you pine
for something you can't taste
and if the apartment window stays like it is
and the pantomime outside continues to spin
I can't stay and settle in
I can't waste myself on content

no you see it was totally not like that
you see you see you see
white girl answers clean and clear and crisp and full of syllables
Who is it you like?
i cant say
but you can tell me
ok but if i tell you you cant say
I won't say
ok
you see you see you see
its this one girl
it's not me?
well like you see you see you see

Tongue Mouth- Swish Swash
Tongue Twister- Tongue in Cheek Smile
Time is Coming Up
Take a Step Back
Here's the Rush
Head Starts to Swirl and Collapse-
Cold Beneath- Sticky Grains of Encompassing Cool Fresh-
Up Again- Heavy Head- Can i Hit Again-
Yes- Always and Free
Sheets so Cold and Hard
Bed so Hard
ceiling stark white
Already In
Always- Just a Friend
Body like Lungs- Detached from my Head
Ice Blue Eyes
And... Over
Time is up
Clarity Waits Outside the Door

Take your hands away from me
Please
Don't
You ever think about the repercussions of your actions
Don't talk to me that way
Please
Keep telling me why I'm your favorite
If we could just have one moment together
Our lives would crumble
To nothing
Would change be so bad?
At this point I'm not sure
I think
And then I see you everyday

My key doesn't work
Quite right
In the door it twists
Sometimes
Handle up
Handle down
Hit the top
And click
Still nothing
The cabinets in this room
Belong to you
If you want them to
Come in in-between times
You can
If you want to
But if the door is locked
I can't help you
It sticks
It slides
It's scrapes
I've had to ask several times for help
But they don't know how to
After I've tried so many times
They sometimes will try too
And hit the top
And turn the handle up
Then down
Twist the key
And click
And how easy they make it seem

When words taste sick
And I can't seem to
Say the things
I want to
When air is thick
And I can't breathe
The way I'm
Supposed to
When yesterday was better
Tomorrow can't be worse
When I do what I'm told to
And things still twist and turn

I remember when
You picked at your face
And I didn't realize
You were doing what I was feeling
And if I had known that it might help
I would have done it too
You and I are rare in this world created by you
We feel and think
But now you're gone
And I'm still here
Picking at my face
Like you used to do