What if the stars fell down tonight?
And we caught them flying around?
Blinking and signalling
Like fireflies
Joyfully dancing
In a crystal blanketed night

Despite the title
I'm made with blue berries
That bleed a red hue
Into the sea

Leave me drowing in the whirlpool of blades
Add sugar, creamer, and milk to celebrate my defeat

Against the blades I stand, I see a red leave my body
But the red turns to pink as it touches the sea

The crowd cheers for the strawberry milk
But only blueberries know the blood polluting the sea

Keep my nose down
Lift my chin up
Smile a half smile
Breath
Just Breath

This goes for a time
When days felt short
The minutes felt long
Outside our porch

This goes for a time
When trees stood still
When eyes were locked
And lips touched

This goes for a time
Sleepless nights
A giggle in the morning
A lie in the night

This goes for a minute
A second
Just a second
Please

The strength the push
The strength to absolve
These mountain I find in my path

A protein shake
And some running shoes
A fire left for dead

Kindling
One by one
Steps
One foot in front of the other
By the end of May you will find

A strength like no other

One month
Another failure
It's time to sleep today

One week
And I tried
It's time rest tonight

One day
I'll see
I have to try

One more day

One more night

Is it my fault
that the sun rises every morning
and wakes me up from my cursed slumber

Is it my fault that I lift my legs with every ounce of courage
In hopes that it may be rewarded

Is it my fault I hurt so much inside

The iridescent color of your eyes
I wanted your love so badly

The sage green of the land
With the azure blue of the sky
We'd meet at the horizon
And smile through the night

I'm sorry, Kylee
I really am

I wish I was different
I wish the sage green penetrated my heart

I wish we went on that date
I wish I could hold you at night

I wish I could groom your hair
I wish you would groom mine

I wish we kindled the sparks
and created a bonfire of love

I wish we spent more time
I wish we spent less

I wish you would've given me a chance

I gave everything just to dance with you
But the sage green smile of yours
With sunflowers in your eyes
And aspirations of a brighter future

One without me

I'm sorry

I wish things were different
I wish I was able to love you
Given that chance
Finally I could expieriance romance

Breath in a cloud
Call it a day
There's no time
to precipitate

Breath in a clouds
Steep to their height
Watch them become phantoms
To the moon and the night

I don't want to hurt you
While I'm falling down
This bliss of colors
And collage of feelings

I want to hold you girl
And you say you went let go

But I'm scared
To hurt you
To feel pain

But I want life to be worth it
I want it to be worth it with you
I want memories to call ours
Ones I promise I won't let go

Repair my broken vessels
My muscles aching from pain
My mind melding
Isanity at my bedroom door

Fill me up
Keep me alive
Make the sweat worth it
Help me forget the tears

The suns going down
I'm still stitting up
I'm restless when I think about your face baby

This might actually last
But first I must say
That I'm scared as hell without you baby

Why do I trust these thoughts and feelings that have never come before

Why do I say these words when I know that they don't mean much to you

I'm still looking at you baby girl
I'm still thinking of a time
I'm still wondering if this could work out baby girl
But it's time I head to sleep tonight

Dreaming, Dreaming, Dreaming of you tonight

Dreaming, Dreaming, Sleeping alone at night

And I can see the blood soaked battlefield
My pruned fingers soaked from a thousand years of anxiety
Squeezed out like a sponge to rain over the landscape

But the sun's out
And the sky has never been clearer
I'm 100 years older, but still so young
I'll add another ring around my eye
And smile about today

There's no soul to share my burden yet
Just me and the streetlights
I'm walking without another
Just me and the streetlights

The moon and stars have left me again
Just me and the streetlights
I feel so alone
Just me and the streetlights

Drawing the moon's ire
I ran across the concrete
In fear of the chains of sin

But when I look behind me
All I see is a ocean in the sky
The clouds acting as currents
And a wave of realization comes to light

I don't need to run anymore
Not away
Just walk toward
I'll be okay

I can't see the sky
Behind he who roams
Blanketed, Suffocating, Paralyzing with snow

Freezing rain drips down to my toes
Freezing blood drip down from my nose

Freezing and paralyzed from the snow

The spotlight is in my eyes
The moon's glow surrounds me
I stare into the sky
Never knowing when you'll be here

I'm just staring at my phone again
With the moon as my light
That text message was seen
But I wonder if you've really seen it

The moon dances alones
No more contacts, no more souls
So I dance alone
With the moon and my phone

I failed
And it hurts
From the torso down
I can't feel my head
I haven't felt my heart for a few days now

A new monster fight
Right on New Year's Eve
But it's no time to give up
I know what I want is there

I just need to take it a step at a time

And push

I've made mistakes
3 to be exact
A heart made stronger by pain
I have to endure

But if I can walk away from this
I'll find that I have a heart capable of overcoming anything

A heart made fullmetal

We made a choice under the sun
As the velvet clouds covered it's gaze
A broken vow made for dust
A scarlet promise made for today

Outside my window
Two stars stare
They laugh and gloat
For being so bright

But when they look next to eachother
They see an abyss of black
Billions of light years away
From each other

I wish I could laugh
But I'm farther
trillion of light years
away from you

Just let me be weak today
I promise I'll figure it out tomorrow

Just let me be weak today
I promise I'll figure it out tomorrow

I told you stay with me
Don't tell me I can't just concede
You're love is all I need
Right now

I want your loving tonight

Before you go just say goodbye
Say you'll love me, then lie all night
We can do this every day
But right now

I need your loving tonight

I'm sure it is
I'm sure that it's just a figment
A picture of a fractured soul

It's shards being picked up by blood soaked hands scorned with cuts
But it's there
The blood still flows from a beating heart
And you make it beat faster

I'm dreading but I'm still fighting
My muscles are aching and my brain is dying
These protein shakes signify my self improvement
But I hate myself more everytime

The led is sticking to my finger
The ink spreads across my hands
You expect a beautiful drawing of colors
But I only have sweat, tears, and blood to draw with dad

This butterfly moon
And these three lonely stars
Try to guide me

I've lost my will to follow today
My vision slowly erodes
Sunflowers seem so dim at night

Dim the lights brighter
Change the tune of your tone
Playing my heart forwards and backwards
Playing my heart with a song

These clouds seem to move faster
When your heart is close to mine
They move in circles round and round
creating an illusion of paradise

The blue we share hasn't changed it's tint
The love we share hasn't lost it's color
My mind still sings songs of us
Living in our sky with no other

I don't know what I'd do
With these two hands I now hold
With this heart we now share
With this love I might throw

Away into the distance
A silhouette of you forms
I don't know what I'd do
I don't know how I'd know

The sun refracts the stars above
The shattered glass shines your light
But the moon drips from the reflection of your tears
And again, I'll count the days till I see your eyes

I'll sway under the moonlight
And dance with the reflection of your soul
Glimmering from waters of red
My dreams becoming distant phantoms

The sun draws it's last breaths, it's light stretching to the trees
Their still shadows grab it before becoming phantoms to the night
As it dissipates on the cusp of the horizon, the moon brings a familiar face
The shadows of the leaves cry in the wind, their tears blanketing what little blue is left

Crystals form, frigid water sticks
Blood drips from blister never truly fixed
A bellow of frozen air, a touch of lonliness
Conglomerating into this experience of heaven

I've got a lot of things
I only have two hands to hold them
My range of emotions is limitless
But I can only feel them one at a time

I don't have the strength to be happy for you when I'm sad
I don't have the time to be sad about us when I should be glad
I don't have the energy to talk these days

But i'm still chugging like a choo choo train

Naaaa naa na na na na
Naaaa naaaa naaa
Naaaaa naa na na na na
Naaaa naa na



I'd say, that I didn't care anyway
What your love could
mean
to
me
today

There's a fire outside
It's smoke can be seen between the leaves
The light smolders the sky
And depicts a most beautiful scene
Of peace, love, anger, and hope
All through the windows that the shadows leave behind

Dip my hands and grind the grains of the clouds between my fingers
Release it's tears across the soil, saddening the landscape one last time
Allow their prisoners to escape, the sun and the sky rushing out
Beg them to take me with them before submerging myself back into the clouds

Your outta my mind
But come back in anytime
The door is always open

My heart is vacant
But rent a room for a few days
It'll be short but fulfilling

The lights don't work
I've lost all my energy
But there's a lot of room

So spend the night
The door is unlocked
Not that there was a lock to begin with, or a key to open it

Where did you run off
Summertime and fall, Summertime and fall

When did you turn back
Back and back again, Back and back again

Why did it go wrong
Winter nights and spring, Winter nights and spring

How could I have known
What you mean to me, What you mean to me

The clouds shimmer and sway
As they become distant phantoms to the night
I've forgotten the sensation of love
I've lost the warmth of your light

The fall leaves trigger dreams of melted snow
The touch of your skin on mine
But my dreams have fallen from the sky
Like raindrops..

They wash away your eyes

Mindlessly driving my cart
With one tire stuck on it's axle

I'm searching for something sweet
Maybe savory
Maybe not

I'm going to hurt these people if I don't
Confess, choose, and make up my mind

I don't want to hurt them

Do you take a breath before running across my mind?
Because at this point it's sprinting, maybe get some water?

The thumping harmonious with the message of the bees
Love is in the air
Pollen is in the sky
I'm sneezing, I'm loving
A new light to chase

Can I get a kiss?
Can you make it last forver?
Im about to go to war
If I dont see you again

I took a swim today
In this deep blue ocean of ours

With a dandelion as my guide I swam with the eagles
I swam with a plane
I dipped in and around some clouds
To get out of the sun's way

But a dragon fly from the depths pulled me back a shore
Still the grass and wind applauded my return
I couldn't ask for more

A little sour but it has the intended effect
I'll feel a bit clearer at the end of it
I'll drop into a fountain of thoughts
And rise in my kingdom in the heavans

I have exactly 24 minutes to get my **** together
The sky seems dead
The wind that used to nurture me hurts
I've become so vulnerable

I'll go to sleep
One arm under my pillow to lift my neck
The cool side is getting hotter
I think I need to put the fan on again

I have my heart set
On topaz tinted clouds
Resting on a bed of pink rose retals

Nothing will stop me from reach them
Nothing

I'm not done
I'm not done
I'm not done

I don't see a finish line
It's farther than I can imagine

But I'll keep pushing
Till my knuckles blister from writing
And my muscles splinter from work
Till my blood shines a different shade of red

One that will never contrast well with the outside world

I'll do it for me, and no one else

The clouds fall into a maze of flames
I've been in here for so long

I've been burned a few times but otherwise it's been warm
But it's finally over and it's time to move on

I'm telling you know
I'm telling you know
I'll love you someday
Without a doubt