I converse with
The voices in my head

They talk slowly
So their guidance isn't misread

I miss the color
Of your presence,
Such a unique shade
Of sky

I hear her sweeter whispers

She calls to me in threes

To tempt my soul to flicker

a dying fire aided by the breeze

I know not which way  to answer

As she is now  knocking on the trees

Why is it that you visit me

O lady  of my dreams

Once in a dream
I inhaled the night sky
Becoming one
With its hue

I replaced every star
With a sigh

All except for the ones
That reminded me of you

I then kept
Just enough of the sun
To torture it till Jun

Planting six seeds
For my lover

And grew them under
The pink moon

When my masks are tired
They wear me.
These faces can only be worn for so long before
Even they grow self conscious
Of what the world thinks.
My masks wear me because they know I care about nothing
Which allows them solitude from judgment.
Solitude from the human ego.
Once they have recovered
Our roles will once again switch
And I can feel familiar within
                    “Society”
                           Is
                        Why
                            I
                       Wear
                      These
                      Masks

I have this vision
of you in my mind

But through your words
I found the human
lurking inside
And
I can tell by your responses
there’s not much going on

Are you listening?
Or
Just trying to get by?

Once in a blue moon
I meet plenty like you
only for it to become
all too human
way too soon

I lay here in my own arms
Cradled by an absence
Petrified in obsidian

As a child
I spent my time
Staring into the void

Mysterious by nature
And Hallowed by name

I wanted to know its secrets
So I sat studying
The endlessness
Laid out before me

Only to realize
It was doing the same

I gave in to temptation
and desire
now
my soul lays in fire

It was too cold anyway

Over the years

How love defined

Refined

By times

Lonely eyes

As mine

Are forced

To lie  

Within sight

Of my hearts

many faces

What is the meaning
Of meaning
That’s all I want to know
The purpose of you leaving
And the meaning of your soul
No I don’t want your poetic explanations
I only desire your poetic lies
To distract me
From this question
That’s all way drifting
Through my mind.

The sun dare impede
So I banished it
For you

Underneath
stars
I saw
Words fracture
And
Fuse

As

You crushed
a galaxy
In your hands
Just
So it may
Be born
A new

Released
from her inner keep
There
my night muse

Refining creation
To her hearts tune

Falling
With Wings spread in fright
The  Angels sing but I pay no mind
Locking away the idea of heavens gates
I rolled the dice
Now Earth becomes
my hellish paradise

I go to bed indulging in fantasy,
              
            I Wake up broken by reality,
          
                I go to work chained by insanity,
            
                   All while FEENING for my fantasy.

I look up to the sky

The stars shine so bright,
Each one a beautiful dream,
Each one too far from my reach

But these broken dreams are mine
So I’ll piece them together in my own sky
Hoping

they will shine just as bright

The moon
watches me sin
once again

As I destroy
the temple in which I reside

The fire is bright
but not warm enough
to keep me alive

I already love,
Or so I think I do?
But if I truly did then what is this feeling now,
This complete fascination I have with you.
I do not want to love another when I already love?
But this feeling has a symbiotic relationship with me
It needs me to survive,
And I willingly give it nourishment,
Constantly I tell my self that these,
emotions washing over me are unknown
Even though I clearly understand their nature.
My accelerated heart beat screams the answer,
This is the first time I’ve ever felt such…..
Such desire for someone.

As the thought of you now floods my mind,
I cant help but feel such guilt.
I need to drill a hole in my head to pour you out,
But no matter how hard I try
the memories of you quickly coagulate
So nothing can escape.
I feel that you will be forever lurking in the back of my head
And from now on any thought I have
You will be the outline for it.

The roads that find me  

Take me every which way

One night I stumbled into her temple

And there at her alter

the Venus flower lay

I am not one for gods

But just this one time

I couldn’t help but pray

She blessed me with a glimpse of her beauty

And it has scarred me to this day

O’sweet babe

sister’d to her  

many forms


In each shape

she had found

a new way

to change my world


But held her love

In a shapeless void

Smoking  
In the wind

If she
comes my way

I love her
cold embrace

I fear not
the flame

For all that
turns and coils

In a mind so young
yet tamed

All the thoughts That
linger in the background

If only she could
carry them away

How much wood
could A woodchuck
chuck If a woodchuck
could chuck Wood

Does the woodchuck even
Desire to chuck wood
If the woodchuck could

Woodchuck go chuck
Away at what you love most
Chuck the grass
Chuck the carrots
Chuck the berries

But don’t Chuck the wood
Even if you could
Because the answer is

A woodchuck would
Chuck as much wood
A woodchuck could
If a woodchuck could
Chuck wood

And I’d hate to see
This woodchuck chucking chuckery
Chuck away at your precious life.

I dragged

Duality down

A delicate

Deception

 

( lost I found myself dazed)

 

Face to face

With my youth

I was caught staring

At my misguided directions

 

(Surly to succumb to the maze)

 

For what these

Dreams demand

Go deeper

Than blood

Calf or correction

 

( to get out I had to be unmade)

 

Saying goodbye

To apart of my self

To gain

An ever evolving perception

Into gently placed
Granite eyes
I waited for my heart to beat
But got nothing back in surprise

You are a fascinating creature
Smart,
Beautiful,
Your hair shimmers like gold in the sunlight,
And your eyes whisper to me your secrets

You are the temptation I try so hard to resist
Every day
And I know I could never be the world you deserve

I will cage these feelings
Never to fly free
Until they eventually
Die

Raised by Gods

That can’t sing

 

Her love became

The prayers

That they would read

And

Bestowed with the blessings

Her smile would seed

 

Awakened my mind

Beyond gold and green

 

Where

I found my self bound

 

To the one

Who found me

I walk along
the stoney roads
where
pebbles seem to scatter
as I step

My lift
cloud be
a complement
to her wings

But it is the earth
to whom I’m kept

As she has me
looking up
just to find myself
looking down

Chained to the roots
of all the grounds
In which I wish to fly

It’s funny…

On this level
i can see
just where
all those pebbles hide

What do you write
When your mind is blank
What do you say
When words have left you
I need to say something to relieve the pain
So I’ll tell you
…………
…………………………
………..
……………
……………….
…………………….
………………………..
…….
……­.
………….
…………………..

Ah yes I feel better now.

As the night falls upon the earth
Let thee commune
With thy brothers
And take to the mountains
Just before the peak of dawn
Scream thy names to the Gods
Until they shake the sky
With thunder and lightning

From the mountaintop
Let thy blood flow
Like the rivers of time
No beginning
No end
Just existence

The answers you
Seek lies not
Within materialistic needs
But within yourself
Far beyond
flesh and bone

As the dawn rises
And outcasts the night
Feel the warm glow of life
As it unshackles thy true nature
Revealing to you
Your soul
For this is who you are

I have been writing poems
For almost 2 years
Something I thought I'd never do

Each poem I craft
Starts from a thought
Then a mediocre draft
Each one resembling
A chain from the past

A pain, a thought, a longing
Yet I feel I'm always missing something
A road block from improvement

I read the poems other write
With such amazement and envy

What is it I'm missing
To see the world
You see?

When I close my eyes

And feel the pull

The chilling autumnal air
impedes  the peaceful trees
forcing them to dance
and sway In melancholy

Dare I manifest

all that I’m

not meant

to hold

 

There laid upon

my chest

a mirror

made of gold

 

One in which

reflects her loving

shine

 

But

 

Even if I loved her

to let her go


I'm sure even a mirror

made of gold

can fracture with time

Take this marble
With it carve out my soul

With chisel in hand
scribe my purpose

Engrave it in gold  
Then hide it away

Keep it in the dark
For me to find one day

I’m corruption
But you are my corruptor,
Ever since I met you
I now go home and wash the  stench of the day away with sin,
Such a sweet and pleasant scent it is,
Truly I am addicted
And because of you
I have been changed into something greater Then I once was,
And slowly I am becoming the person I am meant to be.
Or am I….

Throughout the years of embracing the darkness of this world
I have come to realize that in fact you are the darkness,
And I am nothing more than the entertainer,
In your lonely life.
You keep me around to fill the void that you placed within yourself.

Red flags disguised
amongst the roses

I can’t lie
i was distracted
by
her many poses

Quick

water down the fantasy  
can anyone
being some hoses

For

My dry eyes

had me thinking
“This is great”

Until I met her gaze
and realized
like the rest
she’s the same

To one day
meet
a kinder love

So I won’t
have to
feel
the loneliest
in my pain