when you look my way,
it puts a smile on my face,
but when you look at someone new,
i want to rip them in two,
i cant help it when im jealous,
you make me mad,
so mad god ******,
stop looking at me that way,
i cant fake a smile when i want to cry,
look at me and only me,
and i wont go crazy in front of your family.
-Bee-

My heartbeat increases,
Like a hummingbird,
My head gets fuzzy,
A million bees in my brain,
My chest is tightening,
Like a hug you can't escape,
Tighter and tighter,
Black spots in my vision,
My breathing is rapid,
Are there fish in my belly,
Am i about to get sick,
My legs turn to jello,
I can't even stand up,
Holding on for dear life,
And when you pull away,
You take my love with you.
-Bee-

One small smile can brighten a day,
One little wave could turn the sky grey,
You actions make me feel,
Your words make me heal,
A whisper in the night,
A text in the day,
And all my anxiety goes away.
-Bee-

I used to think silence was golden,
but now it's something I fear,
during the day it isn't so bad,
but at night it's so much worse,
the quiet is haunting,
the lights are all blinding,
the screams echo in my ears,
just one day I fear it will happen,
I won't be able to stand,
the fear will take over,
my life will be over,
because silence will soon mean dead.
-Bee-

When the sky turns orange,
When the moon retires,
When the stars say goodbye,
When I wake up for the day,
When I put my make up on,
When I wake the sleeping demon,
All my nightmares fade away,
Until that night,
When I finally fall,
Back into the torture,
Later and later,
Soon I won't even be sleeping,
Until this month is over.
-Bee-

In the sunshine,
In the rain,
The heart skips a beat,
Whenever your name,
Face or soul,
Pop into a conversation,
Or just in her head,
"How could you",
She whispers to the wind.
-Bee-

Today is the day,
She walks away,
Dusts off her pants,
And kisses the cold stone,
"I love you" she whispers,
As the gate finally shuts,
Closing this chapter,
To open another,
But every year,
She thinks back and smiles,
As the tears escape again,
And she whispers,
"I wish it was me"
-Bee-