Wading in your waters swept me off of my feet
Carried away in your river with no one to blame but me

Unsure if I’ll make it out alive
Wasting breath swimming upstream
She said if I want to survive
Stop fighting the current, see where it takes me

Is this a higher power’s call back to when he played me a song and it made me think of you?
“I tried to swim to the side
but my feet got caught in the middle”
Somehow somehow somehow that line always rang true
The reason why being something of a riddle

I’ve hit a moment in time where it’s starting to click
A prophecy disguised in the subliminal
Therapy’s teaching me all of the tricks
A hidden passageway unlocked with this key
Maybe this is the path towards a different destiny

So I’m addicted to a person
Or the idea of a person
Or the idea of a life I could have with this person
Or the way this idea of a life I could have with this person makes me feel
Of how this person makes me feel
Or all of the above

But how fine is the line between addiction and love
Or maybe it’s a question of what is real
And what is just a dream of the ideal
Whatever it is, I can’t shake this person
Or I’m not trying hard enough to break away from this person
Or the universe won’t let me escape this person

I’ve always believed in soul mates
But two souls bound isn’t the same as two fates
I guess that’s the hook with star crossed lovers
Greek tragedies pluck the heartstrings like no other

Seven days of silence
Seven days of pining
Seven days of wanting your wit back
Seven days sighing

I want to know all of your stories
All of your ins and outs
All of your shortcomings and achievements
All of your second guesses and doubts

I wonder what your bed head looks like
How your morning breath tastes
On the rare occasion that you let anger get the best of you
How does your rage take shape

I want to know where you’ve been
All of the places you want to go
Who you call your friends
The people that have helped you grow

I wonder what losses you’ve grieved
What aches and pains have shaped you
What’s willed your tears to shed
What moments have made you

I want to know all of your favorites
How you choose to spend your free time
What things make you nervous
How you keep yourself in line

Is there anything you’re afraid of
You seem so infallible
Though I know you can’t be perfect
Your weaknesses are unfathomable

Which vices do you indulge in
What causes you to crave
When you give in to your demons
How do you misbehave

I wish I could hear your heartbeat
Run my fingers down your spine
Tangle my legs around yours
Lock your your lips with mine

If I whispered in your ear
Would it spread goose bumps across your skin
Wish I could feel your breath on my neck
Know your force within

I wonder how you love
The language your adoration speaks
What makes your lust hungry
My curiosity endlessly piqued

Would discovering the answers be worth all of the heartbreak
About you I’ll always wonder
Unless I take a leap of faith
Let your waves pull me under

If so, what then
I just show up at your door?
The logistics make my head spin
But I can’t help but want more

If you were in my shoes
Would you do the same for me
A hypothetical reverse
If only foresight was 20 20

Life has different plans for us
I guess it’s best not to dwell
Still whenever I think about you
This heart inside of my chest swells

Still measuring reality up against
The day dreams filled with you
Every time he falls a little short
I wonder if you would too

I need to stop drifting in your clouds
But your ideas hit like ******
It’s not fair to this life I’ve built
I need to climb down to the ground I’m rooted in

But I can’t quite let go yet
Trying to transcend you into something constructive
So I can always have a piece of you
Manifest inspiration out of the seductive

These seven days of silence
Will turn into seven more
Though I crave to reach out to you again
It’s an urge I’ll have to ignore

Writing about you is all I have left
Which makes ending each piece feel impossible
Each conclusion feels like heartbreak
A push back into the mundane and dull

If I tell myself every so often
That maybe you’re thinking of me too
It brightens up my outlook
I’ll keep carrying the light inside that is you

In seven days we’ll see
What I’m wondering about you then
Until next time my second soul
I can’t bear a goodbye again

An intricate love puzzle consumes my days
Graduation and indecision have me in a haze
All of a sudden you come my way
A new puzzle piece sparks a surprise craze
Your force pulls me in with this role you play
Mesmerized by your magic, I can’t look away

But wait, somehow this is all a cruel trick
I can’t fast forward the way your clock ticks
The worst timing makes my heart sick
Even if our time aligned, I’d never be your pick
This puzzle becomes all the more chaotic

They say
Out of sight
Out of mind
I think I’ll give that a try
You go your way
I’ll go mine
I’ll forget you time

We never even touched
****, this will be fine

It’s been a few years and you’re still a constant thread
I keep pushing you down, I know it’s all in my head
Can’t help but wonder of your life, all the light that you shed
But ****, I’ve got to focus on the man that’s lying in my bed

Six suns later and you’re still there
I have to tell myself there’s no way you ever cared
Try to find a new way to spark the feelings you flared
About to walk the aisle completely unprepared

They say
Out of sight
Out of mind
I’ll keep giving this a try
You went your way
I went mine
Try to forget you in time

We never even ******
****, this will be fine

The wings of a white dove flash their sign
Intervention of the divine
Along comes a new moon and the stars align

You reach out to me, open the door
I spill my story, you share yours
After all these years we made each others hearts soar
Your flames ignite a fire in my core

But wait, this must be a trick of the light
I thought this life I’ve built was bound so tight
Now this new expectation is what feels so right
A choice without heartbreak nowhere in sight

Even if you were the choice that I made
Who’s to say these feelings wouldn’t fade?
I like to think our magic would always cascade
Would it be worth the price? Have I already paid?
This new expectation’s left the old betrayed
It’s my patters of behavior that I have to evade
I know I have to lift my thumb from this grenade

Who says
Out of sight
Out of mind
Have they ever given it a try?
Couldn’t shake you away with time
Why can’t your way be the same as mine?

I know
Out of sight
Out of mind
Wont work at all this time
You’ll go your way
I’ll go mine
Maybe this is how our paths will one day align

We meet
I judge
You sneak
Up on my heart

Didn’t think you’d ever make me feel
Let alone make the highlight reel

Little did I know
You’d light
All the fires
Inside
That they’d burn bright
And outshine
Any others

With light
Came dark
So close
Yet so far

Our frequencies synced
Our timelines off track
You pulse through my veins
I push back

Keep quiet
Float on
Your song
Softly sings on

He keeps trying
My resistance fades
Another love grows
But yours hasn’t gone away

Whispers become shouts
Wonders of your world
Far too clear to tune out

Need for growth echos
I try my best to answer
Desire for adventure bellows
The hole becoming a cancer

6 years have come to pass
He doesn’t fuel this fire inside
Am I able to keep wearing this mask?
You’re the one I imagine by my side

To push me
And play
Dust me off when I fall
To challenge me each day
Hold me accountable
Along the way

Enter the white dove
Undeniably an omen
An unknown sign from above
Little did I know then

Fast forward 30 days
My imagination
Still radiating your way

Day on a new beach
Night of a new moon
A song from out of the blue
I hear word from you

Is this real?
My opportunity for transparency is here
You can’t heal
Unless you acknowledge you’re hurt

I tell my story
You shock me with yours
All this time
We’ve wondered of each others worlds

You send me reeling
With every word you say
I had no idea
You always felt the same way

We dance around day dreams
Of lives with one another
Love and magic the recurring themes
Chemistry & tragedy the others

All of a sudden I’m unstoppable
Spinning through ecstasy
My mania is palpable
On the verge of unraveling

My reality on the rocks
Of course you’re finally within reach
Grieving our unsynced clocks
I would have to jeopardize everything

You speak of free fall
My feet are stuck on the edge
Unsure how I’ll ever make this call
My cycle of indecision driving a wedge

You guide me through what’s necessary
Integrate my shadow
I send our story out to sea
I think I know what I need to do now

I take the step to let you go
Hoping somehow this path will lead me back to you
But there’s no way to ever know

Maybe there’s a parallel universe where you and I aren’t just a fantasy, where we don’t have to ask ourselves “What if?”

Where fear doesn’t overcome flutters
Where I dive into your wave
Drink you up
Know your taste
Feel your force
See your flaws
And love you hard

Where we get lost
Find our way
Push each others limits
Paint trails on maps with the colors of memories
Spill oxytocin each eye lock

Fail miserably and keep trying
Dance in lights and fumble in shadows
Venture on the horizon

Spin webs of little life
Watch them ebb and flow
Sprout and spread their wings

Satiate and settle into one another
Feel the gentle fade of youth
Whisper under starlight
Transcend to paradise

Maybe that world exists
But the reality is that we’ll never know

I’m grateful that never knowing allows for the preservation of this perfect picture

I’ll never come to dive in your wave
Drink you up
Know your taste
Feel your force
See your flaws
Or love you hard

But I’ll never fail to meet this expectation
Never disappoint you
Never deceive you
Never resent you
Never insult you
Never condemn you
Never patronize you
Never lie to you
Never lose you

And vice versa

This is no Greek tragedy
This is a perpetual masterpiece

Your life will go on flourishing
Mine will grow and bloom

We’ll always have day dream to measure reality against and to keep striving towards

Always have airwaves syncing our souls

Your magic blood with always make my pulse accelerate

You’ll always have a handprint on my heart

I hope you find a love like this in this world
This lifetime