In my bed
Drunk
******
My problems seem to fade
Like my stress
Once I take that hit to the lungs
  I take that shot or two

Once I think of her bare skin on mine
Her lips  on mine
Smiling so heavily
Breathing so heavily  
Inside of her

Yeah life's not to bad
Listening  to music
And thinking of the way she sees you
When she opens that door

I could stare st myself
Endlessly
Never knowing who I am

This body
This mind

uncontrolable

Like the sea

Who am I
Who am I

Endless thoughts
Like the aquatic sea

See my smiles

Don't reach your heart

My touch

Slipping out of your hand

Falling in love again
With you  

I'd relive it everyday

Falling deep into sleep
Your body  floating in the middle  of your own mind

The night seems long
But not long enough

The darkness only lasts a bit
The quiet comes to the end  

And you're back to where you were

Night
Making us sleep forever
Like death
The problems we create disappear for a second

Grey Sky's
White earth
Cold but comforted
Sleepy feeling but the world is my own bed

Everyday i look forward
To talk endlessly about same old stuff
But I mostly just wait for a response now

Warm but  unnaturally too warm
My bed clean
My floors and counters...messy
I flop onto my bed
Half drunk half ******
The darkness fill my eyes
And for a second
I feel like falling in darkness wouldn't be too bad

****

This shouldn't matter !

Gone to bed with an empty feeling

**** I don't know

I should get more ******

Gone to bed ...feeling like I haven't said a word to you all day
Under my covers
The best feeling I've felt all day

****,everything else shouldn't matter

Make my thoughts of anxiousness stop repeating
I need rest
Training ways to to be in bliss
Forgive everyone
Forgive myself.
I've been changing for the better

For you
I'd change
For you
I'll build you and us
Up

"I love her"
Those words stick to me
Stiched in
Keeping me warm in the winter
The snow falls from morning to the next
Cold bitter days
Everyone hiding
But.....
....warmth breaks in
Thoughts of her waiting for me to arrive
Suddenly seeing me arrive her face blooms!
So happy
I love that

So please
Stop my thoughts of anxiousness
For when I have her
I am happy