See my smiles

Don't reach your heart

My touch

Slipping out of your hand

Falling in love again
With you  

I'd relive it everyday

Falling deep into sleep
Your body  floating in the middle  of your own mind

The night seems long
But not long enough

The darkness only lasts a bit
The quiet comes to the end  

And you're back to where you were

Night
Making us sleep forever
Like death
The problems we create disappear for a second

Grey Sky's
White earth
Cold but comforted
Sleepy feeling but the world is my own bed

Everyday i look forward
To talk endlessly about same old stuff
But I mostly just wait for a response now

Warm but  unnaturally too warm
My bed clean
My floors and counters...messy
I flop onto my bed
Half drunk half ******
The darkness fill my eyes
And for a second
I feel like falling in darkness wouldn't be too bad

****

This shouldn't matter !

Gone to bed with an empty feeling

**** I don't know

I should get more ******

Gone to bed ...feeling like I haven't said a word to you all day
Under my covers
The best feeling I've felt all day

****,everything else shouldn't matter

Make my thoughts of anxiousness stop repeating
I need rest
Training ways to to be in bliss
Forgive everyone
Forgive myself.
I've been changing for the better

For you
I'd change
For you
I'll build you and us
Up

"I love her"
Those words stick to me
Stiched in
Keeping me warm in the winter
The snow falls from morning to the next
Cold bitter days
Everyone hiding
But.....
....warmth breaks in
Thoughts of her waiting for me to arrive
Suddenly seeing me arrive her face blooms!
So happy
I love that

So please
Stop my thoughts of anxiousness
For when I have her
I am happy

"No I'm not "
She says
Sadly and disappointed with herself
"But you are!"
I say
Confidently that her beauty kills me slowly everyday

You can point out your flaws
But I see beauty and perfection
I've said it already too much
That the words don't even mean anything
If seeing is believing
I would do anything
To show you my love
That you're beautiful!!!
Even if  you have flaws
So do I!
Our imperfections make us perfect

You are
You are you are

I wish there was an action
To show you my love
That you are
Beautiful

My chest caving in
But in a good way

My stomach turns
But in a good way

Zoning out
Spacing out
The thought of her
Lingers at   the back of my head
Her eyes piercing me
With her dashing smile

Her smile
Her smile
Her.....
Smile.....

....oh!
I forgot I'm sitting on top
Of a cloud
The world that's all around us
Is so vast
But the outside world is so much bigger
A jungle of darkness
We are a spec of dust
Why must we make
Everything complicated

.....
Sleeping in my bed
No way I know how I got here....